Real, true-life story of the satellite surveillance mind control top-secret military -program that tortures a loner housewife to suicide. It is a daily lament; fascinating, appalling, mesmerizing and painful.

If, after reading this Torture Diary, you are still not convinced it is torture and cruel and unusual punishment, does that mean you are volunteering to be the next target?

This program is run only by satellites, not neighbors, trucks or airplanes, as I am mind controlled to believe in the narrative.

To maintain the integrity of the narrative this book is lightly edited.

August 17, 2001 beginning of harassment and illegible note taking (Update#1)

June 6, 2002-June 15, 2004 Hand written notes of torture maintained

June 21, 2004 emergency Harborview suicide attempt (attempted murder)

June 22, 2004 admitted Harborview full service hospital

July 15, 2004 discharged Fairfax mental health hospital

August 5, 2006 AMR Ambulance too many 911 calls husband and son complain

August 31, 2006 discharged Fairfax mental health hospital

October-November 2006 built and published website www.MindControlUSA.Com

November 21, 2006 first paper mass mailing to attorneys

January 7, 2007 first paper mass mailing to media outlets

July 2, 2007 paper mass mailing to class action lawyers

February 9, 2009 paper mailing to major media outlets

February 18, 2009 paper mailing to military schools professors

Marc h 3, 2009 paper mailing to 60 military leaders and Joint Chiefs of Staff

March 19, 2009 paper mailing to every member of Congress and five living presidents

September 29, 2009 paper mailing to every member of Congress

February 8, 2010 no attorney Supreme Court Brief

August 7, 2010 Director of National Intelligence, Secretary of Defense, letter written

October 4, 2010 Supreme Court Petition Denied

August 2-September 19, 2011 first email mass mailing to 8,500+ attorneys

September 17, 2011 wrote five living presidents

Completely typed torture diary published on Amazon Kindle

I am slowly becoming aware that the courts have used national security as a reason to gag media companies and prevent them from publishing information about the satellite surveillance top secret program. The big law firms that have the resources to sue, do not want to, because they also represent the corporate interests that have helped create national security top secret programs. There are secret laws on the books for secret programs.

SAT August 31 9:45 am We have a voicemail from our son’s high school dean reminding us his physician’s form is not in and he will not be able to participate in the beginning of school retreat or school athletics. In two prior visits to the physician’s office the doctors have failed to correctly fill out the form. A hang-up phone call is sent through as my husband and I are having a heated discussion/argument. Not only do the spies listen to absolutely everything in the house they actively interfere and in a hostile manner participate with our private family moments. As I left for a third visit to the physician’s office the house to our _____ emitted a loud crowing ‘rooster-hoot.’

10:20 pm As I fall asleep there is out of the ordinary abrupt yelling, screaming and laughter from the house across the street. They know I am here because through the hung up phone/microphone they have listened to me prepare for bed and walk upstairs. Furthermore, the heat sensor detectors sense my presence in my bed in real-time. Five minutes later they set off siren-like alarms. All the better to start on a good night’s sleep.

SUN September 1 Early AM I do not smoke, drink or take any type of drugs. My eyes are typically clear and normal. Sunday morning my eyes look tired and blurry. Upon closer inspection I see they are bloodshot. Because the spies are frying my brain. Likely all the capillaries throughout my entire brain are similarly bloodshot.

5:00 pm Returning home from an _______________ Edmonds. Most likely they did an on the fly fast phone tap of the place and were listening in the entire three hours. They do this for their charades, hoaxes and ruses for ‘setting me up.’

Sun September 1 5 pm So they knew the time when I _________ and left. They tracked my cell phone as I travelled home. Then they forced an unpleasant ‘crossing of paths’ perfectly timing their pulling out of their driveway as I pull into my driveway.

7:10 pm As I am putting air into my tires at the __________ station a ___________. (Their business ________ the shoreline Police. With the same young woman who followed me before pulls her vehicle right next to me and chews on a cigar. Then the Shoreline police pull into the gas station.

Apx. 9 pm The typical ear blast of noise did not happen when returning from the gas station upon entering the house. Nor was there the usual blast of noise as I fell asleep in bed that night. They simply waited to wake me early Monday morning at 4am giving me three hours less sleep than normal and starting my week off badly.

Mon September 2 Labor Day AM Went to work at 10am for _____ . Was it this morning or Tuesday morning they sent the Shoreline Police Car with flashing lights perfectly timed as I left my driveway, cruising in front of our house. This would be the second time in two or three days that Shoreline Police cars were in proximity to our home or my travel route with flashing lights. This is entirely out of the ordinary. The other time they were posted on Meridian Avenue by our _________ and as soon as I had passed a block away the police car turned off the lights and did a u-turn to leave the area. It seemed as if their mission had been accomplished.

TUE September 3 6:45 am They knew from their sensors across the street I had awoken at 6:45 am and ‘greeted’ me with a brief alarm sound.

12:45 pm From listening in on our prior family conversations and listening in on this morning’s activities they knew this was the day and time preparations were being made for our son’s ---------- first day of school. Precisely at the moment I left the house the friendly officers across the street forced a meeting by appearing in his car. I ran back inside my house to avoid them. In frustration at the constant daily harassment, physical and psychological cruelty, I UNPLUGGED THE PHONE.

1:30 pm Upon returning home from dropping my son off the neighbors -------------- . Friendly officers that they are, blasted my ears with sound as punishment for unplugging my home phone.

5:30 pm Mailed three packages to the three judges on the Foreign Intelligence Surveillance Court of Review.

WED September 4 8:30-9:30 am My husband gets two phone calls. One hangup and one phone solicitor with questions about our Business at home. To get rid of the phone solicitor my husband answers in retort "We have no business here." This likely was another charade/hoax/ruse to misconstrue as a tip to investigate us.

10:45 am This is the day and time I was returning from the library and passed the Shoreline Police parked at 155^th and Meridian with flashing lights-doing nothing else. As I passed he turned into a side street to execute a u-turn, put his lights off and left. It was to scare me.

THU September 5 7:30 am At post office mailed seven packages to House and Senate Judiciary committees and my congress people. I believe the guy behind me in line was following me because he strained his neck to look at the display with the location on it.

4:48 pm Nap on couch. Set alarm for the usual one hour nap. Ten minutes later there is a noise across the street and 20 minutes later an alarm with sirens at the house. Forty minutes later there is a phone call, no message to wake.

PM I was out to the house and left my cell at home. Upon returning I noticed the call had been placed to GSP my location. Likely it was the typical--------------- .

FRI September 6 6:30 am Call on my cell to let me know that they knew I had woken up _____________ The pestering goes on 24 hours a day 7 days a week around the clock.

7 am Light tone that matches our doorbell comes through the phone. Finally I settled comfortably on the living room couch

2:55 pm All was quiet and I was alone. A few minutes into starting my paperwork a hang up phone call comes in.

SAT September 7 3-4 am In the middle of the quietest, best-resting time of the night I was woken up between 3 and 4 in the morning.

PM All quiet in the early evening and no noise before bedtime.

SUN September 8 3:30 am

Blasted awake with noise in the ears, wake with aching head, bloodshot eyes and likely capillaries in brain bloodshot as well. Will I get a stroke. They’re experimenting on me.

SUN September 8 10:20-10:30 am Turned on the cell ----------------and my location was pinpointed with GSP. As I travelled home going north on I-5 I noticed three float planes travelling south directly overhead one at a time. Were these the commercial float planes for Lake Union or the Coast Guard spying on me?

12:30 pm While __________ in Edmonds at the core city center circle-about the Edmonds Police followed me around the circle. I noticed another float plane.

1-4 pm ______________ We talked gossip. I mentioned I had been _________________________ Which amounted to doing nothing more than being friendly and civil. I was appalled to realize during the conversation that our conversation was likely entirely monitored through the phone by on-the-fly phone tapping. I also couldn’t believe this was happening and thought surely, (hopefully) I was imagining it all. But my ears were blasted with noise several times (3?) to punish me and send me a signal. Could it be our entire gossipy conversation would be used to further investigations into the things we said? Is it possible this personal character information is being used in an FBI filing cabinet to characterize me as a you-know-what?

10 pm Noise starts in my ears before going to sleep. I gave up and left the house to sleep in my car at a church.

SUN September 8 10 pm I went to ____ and could swear was followed by one or two surveillance cars. A white SUV was there when I was going to pull into the parking lot; so I drove down the street and around the corner, then pulled over and waited three minutes. Then upon returning to the church parking lot and pulling into the driveway the headlights of a car that left the stop sign was driving away from the church down an arterial turned around. Then those headlights doubled back twice. It was the white SUV! Did they really wake me with that same noise in the ears at 1:30am 2:30am and 3:30am. Holy cow!

MON September 9 am Naturally my week started off poorly with little/no sleep. But I got my son to school and did a ____________. Home from work my ears are blasted for no reason. After making a point for half an hour they stopped. Then a cell call came in_____ When I called back it was a fax #! There was no noise in my ears the rest of the afternoon and all evening long. One of these days around here a loud popping sound woke me from an hour’s nap when I had the cell phone and home phone turned off and unplugged! Where did this noise come from?

9:43-9:53 am Noise starts as I go to sleep.

TUE September 10 3-3:30 am

After poor sleep Sunday night there is another night (the next night) with interrupted sleep. I am awoken early Tuesday morning with noise that is slowly ratcheted up over a ½ hour period until my eardrums hurt.

6 pm Picking my son up from school at the roadside I pull in front of a parked car. Along comes a Seattle Police car which then parks behind the parked car for a minute, then leaves. A second police car slowly drives by a minute or two later. Then ________ School Campus Security and a former Seattle police officer slowly walks by with a hand-truck and gives me a strange, sly look out of the corner of his eye to see who "it" is. He recognizes me and can barely conceal his shocked, repulsed disgust. What have the Seattle Police told him?

WED September 11 12:40 pm I can barely believe it and think I am going out of my mind with silly, paranoid imaginations. It is so easy to dismiss but I continue to write things down. Particularly after the third or fourth occurrence. So here it goes. I am at a __________ job and they "homed" in on me and targeted me with ringing in my ears.

4:45 pm Seattle Police buzzed me again at the _______ school campus picking up my son.

4:46 pm A second Seattle police car cruises by two to three minutes later.

5:38 pm Home and walking to the mailbox a surveillance helicopter cruises by the house.

9:45 pm Ten to fifteen minutes after I go to bed there is buzzing in my ears

THU September 12 6:35 am When I wake up the house just north of the house across the street sets off an alarm briefly. Also, there are buzzing reverberations so low it’s almost imperceptible.

9:30 am They pound hammers when I go to the mailbox. They knew I was writing somebody about something all day long; constant weird screeching loud noises like a balloon being rubbed into a microphone

FRI September 12 12:45 am After going to bed last night in the middle of the night, Friday morning, just after midnight I am awoken by low-flying helicopters.

3:45 am Woken again by helicopters

6:35 am I woke then ten minutes later helicopters fly overhead

8 am Security officer smiled at me. This is a good sign. My guess is he found out through a more accurate source that the Seattle Police are telling lies and I am a benign person.

5:30 pm Two SUV’s in tandem charge their cars at my son and me with extreme ‘road rage’ one lane over from behind. We are on 130^th & 5^th going west on 130^th by the freeway stoplight. The first car charged honking loudly and speeding up attempted to ram our small Honda Civic from the side. I stopped. The second SUV was a fat old white guy with a woman shouting real ugly, honking and nearly sideswiping our small vehicle. He shouted right down at us his face contorted in fury. My son was terrified * I so rattled we forgot to take the license plate # and I missed my turn. I knew it was the Friendly Officers but tried to lightly dismiss the incident and calm my son. He commented over the next two days how they were at the red light with us, behind us one lane over and what was their problem?

SAT September 14 10:30 am Had driven my son to school early to be dropped off for cross-country running practice. Now I had returned to pick him up. As we proceeded along the driveway from ________ two women in a typical surveillance car attempted a ‘stop & drop’ driving maneuver as they slowly stopped for no reason in the middle of the road and then slowly proceed to a side street in a stop ‘n go, stop ‘n go fashion. My son made comments on the particularly bad driving. I suspected it was "them."

1:01-1:11 pm Slowly ratchet up the reverberations until my eardrums hurt while sitting in my bedroom working on a report.

1:19 pm Really reverberating now. You see, all week long they could "hear" me arranging papers in my bedroom.

3 pm At post office I mailed off eight of nine packages to the Supreme Court. (Later I will get a rejection letter.) When I drive to the nearby post office there are 6 or 7 vehicles parked all over the street and in the Friendly Officer’s driveway. All late afternoon and early evening they have a big spy pow-wow.

4:30 pm I discover one last package to be mailed and go to the airport post office. This is so lame I can’t believe I let my guard down. A baby-faced young man came into the waiting room and stood in line. When I was called to the clerk’s window I noticed the baby-faced man was at the way-end of the counter writing. The postal worker complained about my flat-rate, low cost mailer that was very heavy. I said it was for a good cause and told him to look at the label. The baby-faced man had moved out of my peripheral vision to my right. He simply leaned over and looked at the label. A spy!

9:13 pm The "Guests" knew I had just laid down to sleep and one-two minutes after relaxing they blasted sirens from the house across the street.

SUN September 15 2:45 am

Saturday night’s sleep is interrupted in the middle of the night Sunday morning. Police sirens catching someone on 145^th. The bars close at 2 am but local police typically do not use these loud sirens. The house across the street had two cars extra spending the night. Was this extra coverage for their guests? There were three police cars loudly blasting sirens over a fifteen minute period.

3:45-4 am As usual they blasted me awake at 4 am in the morning by slowly ratcheting the volume up over fifteen minutes. Again, I got three hours less sleep/

1-4 pm Sunday went to Edmonds

4 pm Ears ringing at the _____. Slowly I’m becoming convinced that mobile units, how many? Are typically parked in the neighborhood I am in and I am "homed" in on using cell phone GSP, known addresses and phone numbers.

4:30 pm Three surveillance vehicles follow me as I leave Edmonds, not the Edmonds Police. 1) Old folks couple in SUV at 4^th and Dayton(?) 1^st block/intersection north, 2) another vehicle at the Edmonds Circle/turnabout, 3) going up 5^th sedan with tinted windows pulls from a parking space on my right directly into traffic ahead of me, goes a few blocks, makes a left turn onto the next street, backs out of that street’s into a parking space and watches me proceed off up 5^th.

5 pm Six (!!) surveillance vehicles upon arriving back in my neighborhood. No Shoreline Police. 1) at 175^th & Meridian, 2) 165^th & Meridian, 3) 150^th & Meridian, 4) turning off Meridian into 150^th, 5) at stop sign on 150^th & Ashworth 6) brazen guy with very large pirate insignia flag flying who cruises down the hill of our street, cuts me off at my driveway and pulls into the driveway of the neighbors across the street defiantly.

SUN September 15 8 pm Within the peaceful, private environs of our living room I sit cosily on the living room couch with our son. This pleasant reverie is interrupted by government spies, Friendly Officers who blast a siren across the street and use their homing devices to focus in on me only and buzz/blast my ears. My son is unaware.

10 pm Went to bed

10:10 pm They’re blasting a buzz in my ears louder than what they were doing all evening long while I was in the living room. They had given me a half hour pause before I went to bed, but now I’ve been in bed 10 minutes my ears really hurt, especially the eardrums. While cleaning out my purse on the living room floor earlier in the evening an interaction occurred. My son, stopped doing his homework, came over to watch me sew new pockets for my purse, picked up a pile of receipts and exclaimed loudly while reading them about the thousands of photocopies I had made. Now I’m being punished.

MON September 16 4:06 am Again the week is starting off poorly with little sleep for Monday. Obviously the pattern reveals a deliberate campaign.

4:11 am Woken early again with noise in my ears, three hours less sleep. My eardrums actually hurt. This is painful, I cannot ‘sleep through’ the noise. I’m convinced they are deliberately torturing me in my own bed in my own home with sleep deprivation tactics. That coupled with the ‘stop ‘n drop’ incidents on Friday night and Saturday morning with _______ in the car. They are trying to cause a car accident. This is rotten. Also, they obviously know I am awake by now. This is cruel psychological torment. Monday morning, they’ve succeeded in starting another week off badly. I have six hours of grueling physical work ahead of me.

7:15 am Now I get it! They "home" in on my cell by GSP at ______ and ____________ jobs to blasting my ears.

MON September 16 4:41pm At ______ pick up/drop off point hear humming. I don’t have my cell phone with me. Is there something planted on the Honda they home in on? Also, was that a military surveillance plane flying over I-5 as I went south from the ‘hidden’ lake city way entrance?

7:30 pm Unplugged the phone to have a few private words with my son, IMMEDIATELY they started blasting my ears. So I left the house and went to ____ at the University Village Shopping center.

8-9 pm The Friendly Officers must have followed me one way or the other, I wasn’t paying attention. Was it my cell phone, a transmitter placed on the car? Being physically followed by several surveillance vehicles? Or transit through the GRID of cell phone/radio talking interactive top to bottom agencies? Whatever. They must have called the mall cops because I saw something I’ve never seen before at this store. A security officer in full uniform posted prominently at the foot of the elevator.

9:10 pm I get home and its more blasting my ears. I am being trained with a cattle-prod to submit obediently, upon painful punishment, to not unplug my phone which allows them to listen in on EVERYTHING.

TUE September 17 1:05 am Obviously I fell asleep Monday night but had the evening’s rest broken early the next morning an hour after midnight. Woken with ringing blasting in my ears, twelve minutes sinuses ‘alive,’ then brain squeezed, throat hurts. Entire upper body vibrates.

1:19 am I go to the bathroom. They hear it all and ‘see’ me by tracking.

1:36 am Throat feels fine, sinuses not hurting as much, left ear still ringing. Hope I fall asleep soon.

1:40 am They "throbbed it" straight [Illegible]…

2:28 am Vibrations in sinuses over, except now I have a headache, less in ear; think I’ll try to sleep.

6:25 am Woke up

6:29 am They’re revving it up and my head aches, ears hurt and throb and I’m exhausted from little/interrupted sleep.

6:45 am Hang-up phone call.

3:30 pm Sat upright in uncomfortable chair by heater and fell asleep.

4:30 pm Slept for an hour spontaneously and stirred at 4:30

4:35 pm Got wake-up hang-up call to let me know they’re watching

10-10:10 pm Blasted while sleeping

WED September 18 12:35 Just after midnight, in the middle of another night’s sleep. I am woken up. Pain in sinuses and ears wakes me. They’re deliberately revving it up. I got only two and a half hours sleep before they woke me. Went downstairs to pee, they heard me. Their success is confirmed and continued. Funny, there was absolutely no humming during the day while I was awake. Just this two minutes of pain to wake me deliberately at night.

1:05 am Could swear I faintly heard my distinctive cell phone ring, they must have done this.

1:35 am After gradually toning it down during the last half hour, they’re revving it up again. I’m tired.

6:35 am Wakeup

10:30 am No noise in ears all morning but they could hear me turning newspaper pages. THEN when I started working at my real paperwork they revved up the noise.

10:40 am ! My ears hurt so much I’m leaving the house to do my paperwork. This makes me want to cry. They might have spy cameras at _________ house.

WED September 18 10:40 am Pointed directly at our kitchen window watching me. I know I saw some object attached to __________ in _______the other day pointed at our two upstairs bedrooms, I sleep in the front one.

10:50 am Last ten minutes in the house they revved it up even more as they could tell I was leaving the house.

12 noon Ears ache outrageously; it’s a sharp pain with a dull ache, I’m at the _____ meeting for _________ in Everett. We all stand up to recite the Pledge of Allegiance. I’ve recited this daily for twelve years and bi-weekly for seven years yet I cannot remember the words. My brain is too fuzzy from government spy agents blasting my skull with ray guns. The irony was not lost on me. Well, they succeeded in waking me up last night and chasing me out of my home, perhaps they’re trying to disable me enough to disrupt my work & income. Took three hours for the pain to wear off.

1:32 pm They had to get the Lewis county sheriff at the King County/Snohomish county line to track/follow me on the freeway.

2:50-3 pm They are super blasting my now sensitive ears. I want to scream! I wish I was dead.

3:43 pm I go to get mail—and they whistle at me. This has happened in my eighteen years of living here. _____ says he wants to carpool with _____.

9:00 pm Then the alarm sirens go off everywhere in protest. Like they’re trying to send me a message of disapproving "NO." The nerve! After trying to road rage run us off the road Friday 9/13 and Saturday 9/14.

9:14 pm I go to sleep and they home in on me

9:56 pm My sinuses start to hurt

THU September 19 5:30 am Wake up and vibrations started in my ears. As I lay there for ten min listening to it increase all I could do was think of ways to escape the painful misery. All these people have done is torture me. This is the worst form of coercion ever. I lay very still, I couldn’t roll over and go back to sleep for an hour.

6:55 am Went downstairs, it had been twenty minutes of ear ringing.

7:00 am They’re blasting at me downstairs too.

8:30 am Arrive at Ballard _____, could swear there’s humming in my ears. There was none during the drive here. I think they have mobile units scattered around the neighborhood that are zooming in on my cell GSP location.

SAT September 20 5:15 pm Worked all day long with NO ear ringing, normal day. Went to Discovery Park hiking with _____, he drove.

5:45-7:30 pm At the park were those helicopters tracking me?

8:30 pm Exhausted from six hours work one and a half hours hiking, bed early

9:30 pm Woke inexplicably, looked at clock, went back to sleep

SUN 12:33 am Woke inexplicably again and looked at clock, Then ensued one and a half hours of torturous ear ringing. These people are ordinary pathological sadistic sickos deliberately electric prodding my brain. When I turn over in bed it alerts their sensors.

SUN September 22 12:33-2:03 Then begins the preprogrammed revving up and backing off. I lay still as I could and simply kept track of the time. It revved down, cooled off and stopped at 2:03, Precisely one and a half hours. Ten minutes later I turned over in bed. It started all over again.

SUN September 22 2:23 am Heard loud talking voices for a period of time in the middle of the night. Went downstairs to look. Through the large picture frame window in the living room I see lights at the _____ home_____. It’s _____ and a guest. How profoundly unusual! _____ never has guests. Now they’re talking loudly at 2:23 am Sunday morning. I think the spies now own _____ and this is another of their staged so-called parties of so-called unity

2:34 am Talking stopped. They see the light in my room, Just thought of something. They know my car-bed is disabled because I’m rebuilding it. They plan on keeping me awake all night long. _____ and his new-found spy friends are throwing rocks. They’ve started another one and a half hours of reverberations in my ears. This is intentional. I dare not go to my car and reassemble the bed because _____ & Friendly Officer are watching. I’m trapped in my bed while they zap me with ray guns.

2:47 am It’s incredibly loud

2:50 am Helicopters. I wonder if they did this to _____ when he was applying for disability after serving in Desert Storm and _____ riots in downtown Seattle. He’s now studying forensic psychology after his entire sleep pattern became disrupted. _____has lights shining at our house and cameras upstairs pointing in our window. Excellent. Not only will I be exhausted from no sleep but my productive waking time will be squandered on catch-up sleep. This effectively ‘neutralizes’ me and retards my writing & mailing activities. It makes me non-functional.

SUN September 22 4:04 am My whole body is vibrating

7:50 am Woke up after eleven and a half hours in bed.

1 pm They ran a charade on me at the _____ had Edmonds Police as a backup. Obviously everyone is being lied to. The ‘couple’ that interviewed me and I accidently discovered talking to the Edmonds Police, the Edmonds Police and the Judges; they’re all being manipulated and lied to.

4:20 pm Watching movie after the _____, went to move car. They tracked my cell. They ‘located’ my seat on the couch. They zapped me and buzzed my ears.

8 pm I have a headache

8:40 pm In Bed

8:44 pm Buzzing starts

11:42 pm Woke up inexplicably

MON September 23 1:40 am Woke up inexplicably

1:53 am They’re revving it up. Also strange sound I’ve never heard before coming from house. _____ I could lay here for the next three hours while they zap me or prepare my new car shelter for sleeping away.

2:00 am My sinuses hurt, I’m getting out of bed.

4:09 am They’re zapping me

4:10 am They’re revving it up

4:22 am Zapped real specifically direct and loud. I am being tortured

5:15 am Stopped zapping, no noise the rest of the day. Normal day.

5:00 pm At _____ school humming in my ears then a surveillance vehicle goes by. It’s the typical vehicle with the _____ to the _____ he cruises by the ______ big tree. I am being targeted. Another typical vehicle with _____.

9:20 pm Bedtime they’re blasting away.

11:12 pm They start blasting me awake again.

11:22 pm When I rolled over in bed my brain was like jiggling jelly, I think they are trying to kill me. Went downstairs and unplugged the phone in protest.

11:45 pm Back in bed, they are at it again, my car should be ready by tomorrow night. This is torture.

TUE September 24 1:00 am I leave the house anyway in the middle of the night and a _____ license plate #_____ follows me to church to zap my brain

1:12 am go to sleep in car in church parking lot

1:17 am Notice they really fried my brain. Two hours later it feels like waves of jiggling, reverberating mush. How long does this damage last? Years? No wonder I feel like doing the Aurora bridge all the time. This is totally pathological. Your tax dollars at work. Is my cell in the car?

2:12 am No, no cell, they’ve got a locator attached to both cars.

2:30 am They are revving it up. Now I have a sharp pain in my left sinus and both ears are reverberating.

2:45 am They turned it way, way down, I thought they turned it off was just falling asleep when they started blasting it.

2:55 am Targeted to wake me when I turn over

3:27 am Because they turn it on and off.

5:30 am They woke me again. I am being fried alive. They are cooking and baking me.

5:45 am License # _____ of the typical large paneled truck crammed full of electronic equipment. So I give him a one finger salute and wave as he drove by the church parking lot when I pulled out. I followed him down Ashworth, over on 155^th then to 1^st then to the sough bound exit at 145^th. I got beside him at the ramp as he got on the freeway. I looked at him real good. Either he’s a good actor or he seemed genuinely satisfied as to why I gestured and followed him. Either 1)he has nothing to do with and was simply driving by as a coincidence, 2)he’s a key integrated player, knows what’s going on, was at the controls all night long deliberately zapping me and is an excellent actor, or 3)he is simply a ‘driver’ who parks the equipment, knows nothing of the project and is being hyper-manipulated as well. Furthermore, if that’s the case this is all being directed by satellite from another location. Downtown Seattle? California? Colorado? Washington, DC?

The rest of the day was reasonably quite, I made no notations, overall a normal day.

9:59 pm Bedtime

10:03 pm Revved up

10:05 pm Ears ringing

10:09 pm Blasting again

WED September 25 1:10 am Not too long after midnight, in the middle of another night’s sleep, after exactly three hours I am rudely awoken again to a hum in my ears

1:56 am Sharp flash in brain I’m shot at.

1:59 am I am in the car going again to trinity _____ License plate of vehicle nearby _____ , but probably not them.

2:16 am Arrive. Is that noise in my ear, ear damage or the same old GSP fix on my location from last night?

2:27 am I thought they were homing in on me, now they’ve upped the verbs and added 2 additional tones.

2:45 am Severe heart palpation. Did they shoot my heart with some ray gun?

2:59 am It stopped. This is a deliberate campaign to exhaust me so that I am neutralized. Guess I’ll have to write more people. J

3:07 am Oh. No. It started all over again. Are they putting me through another two hour cycle?

3:15 am The noise starts in my ear and seems to encircle me a good ten feet out as if I were being pinpointed and a second ‘noose’ encircled my presence in the car and slowly tightens to a second small dot of reverberations focused on my body

O o o o o o

Had my cell on me by mistake, still blasted for over an hour.

5:00 am Cat wakes me by jumping on car.

9:30 am Sleep on couch for one hour before going to _____ job.

9:58 am I wake abruptly and mysteriously from a deep sleep.

10:10 am It becomes apparent from the faint humming that I am being messed with again.

WED September 25 10:20 am The familiar reverberations are there again

10:25 am The second tone appears

10:30 am Leave for work unrested after a third cruel night of fitful dosing. No REM sleep.

2:30 pm Slept in car at Greenlake for 1 hour.

3:30 pm Young guy in _____ truck with _____ parked two vehicles over. Probable spy.

9:30 pm My son was upset about me disappearing frequently in the middle of the night. I told him I am being zapped with ray guns. He promises not to mention it to anyone.

11 pm Go to bed

11:08 pm Reverberations start

THU September 26 2:00 am Huge blast sounds like a transformer blew on Aurora again. (No mention of this in the next day’s paper.)

2:02 am Ringing in my ears. Only got three hours sleep. My sinuses hurt and the top of my heard. Guess that’s my allotment of sleep for the night.

2:05 am Fell down last two stairs in dark leaving for church parking lot.

2:18 am At the lot there’s a loud ringing in my right ear. They already know where I’ll be and are zapping me. Maybe I’ll go somewhere else.

3:24 am I’m being blasted

?? Woke two more times but watch had fallen off

6:30 am Go home. Headache

7:45 am As I drive _____ to school there is a vehicle on stakeout along the route off Roosevelt near _____ Hardware around 90^th.

THU September 26 8:45 am Came home from dropping _____ off at _____. No vibrations in ears until I had a conversation with my husband and they zapped me for being in his company and conversing with him. They have revved it up so much to drive me out of the house and a wedge between us. This is a thoroughly despicable thing to do. It really hurts now, I’m in my bedroom writing notes.

8:50 am They even sent a hang-up phone call through when I raced upstairs.

9:32 am Go to Everett for _____ class. Followed by two surveillance vehicles, possibly, dark green Windstar _____ ?? and another with _____

1:20 am class over. Sleeping in _____ parking lot.

1:43 pm Woke, think they homed in on me, but can’t be sure.

1:58 pm Loud muffler work me

2:30 pm Got home, talking to husband and they zapped me for ½ hour. He made conversation with the nurse regarding State L&I for Dr. _____ office for knee surgery tomorrow. I was in the kitchen and on the outside porch, but, now they’ll investigate Dr. _____ for L & I.

No noise all rest of afternoon, Many normal hours.

7:00 pm Went to pickup up _____ truck at 15^th & 75^th in Ballard.

7:30 pm When we got home I was sitting in the Honda in the driveway while _____ unloaded his debris from the truck and they sapped me for five minutes to say hello. Only problem was the first part was fuzzy and the second part was painful re-bruising of my eardrums, especially the left one.

THU September 26 10:00 pm Decide to sleep at home in bed. As I write these notes I can hear the sound in my bedroom. It seems to encircle me at a fifteen foot radius. Almost outside the entire bedroom. It gets louder in intensity and seems to drop down from the sky into the middle of my head and arch out in reverberations to each ear drum and through my sinuses

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When I lay in bed late at night when its been going on awhile my entire body buzzes alive with it. "It" is incredibly annoying.

10:42 pm They’re really jamming on the verbs and my whole body feels like it’s rattling in a windstorm. Miraculously my head and ears are not hurting. Thought they were increasing it, but tried to sleep through it.

FRI September 1:35 am Three and a half hours later I moved in bed. IMMEDIATELY it started to ratcheted up. It seems to be triggered when I move or turn over in bed. I left the house.

1:45 am At Trinity _____ Funny how they are racing around with their surveillance vehicles pretending to protect me from someone. When they’re blasting my brain at night all they want is a successful ‘hit’ of making me leave my home to get away from the misery they put me through.

2:01 am The machines are homing in on me. It causes a ringing in my ears, the quality is different than at home in my bed.

There the neighbors ________ have a wide variety of toys in their chamber.

FRI September 27 2:01 am They turn my entire brain to mush. It feels like undulating jelly and I am off balance (not dizzy) but have no sense of distance and placement and trip, fall, move wrongly. My brain feels like mushy undulating jelly in it’s skull.

6:11 am Woke up No notes during the day, must have been a reasonably, quiet normal day with only the brief buzzing at the various locations they have stake-outs posted in the schedule.

10:34 pm Go to sleep in my bed

SAT September 28 1:27 am I am awoken by ringing in my ear.

1:42 am Sleeping in car in church parking lot. Brain between sinuses is painful jelly type fuzzy mush.

2:12 am They’re homing in on me.

3:16 am Super surrounded by a sound like loud hum of conventional wires that are over charged, like buzzing high wire electric transformers.

4:10 am Mysteriously woken. Why?

6:27 am Woke & turned & stretched. Now I hear the faintest rumble in my ears, am I imagining it? Am I imagining it? Perhaps it is the freeway traffic in the distance.

7:50 am Surveillance vehicle follows me to Juanita Beach Van Lic # _____ King County Search & Rescue. They pulled in for coffee next to spuds. I walked over to check them out. _____ said "May I ask what you want from us?" I commented "Oh, you live in your van."

SAT September 28 7:50 am Then said (apx) "What is it you have a problem with us about?" I said "Oh, Search & Rescue, I’m looking for coffee." And went back to my car. They were following me and doing the typical classic, stay way behind when I go slow, rather than pass or gesture impatiently, cover their faces and leave, but not too far.

10:25 am What is this? Why when I up to Lake Forest Park do my ears ring? Do they have a stake-out that is homing in on the Honda? It’s stopped now two to three minutes later. Was it echo from car driving? Residual damage from so many months? Outside of the usual painful/bruised eardrums it seems to have stopped.

10:29 am Now it’s all gone away. No pain. No humming, just slight pressure. This was likely a stakeout based on info from our conversation last night taken from phone tapping that we were to get together around 10 am

11:40 am Lake Forest Park Police stakeout on Lake City Way driving home.

12:16 pm Driving away from home up the hill by our house a can with an _____ turns off 145^th, the main drag and cruises right by me on Interlake.

12:19 pm Right behind me a _____ (these guys love _____) follows me down 145^th toward the post office. I stared at him until he left.

12:35 pm Ballard. _____ Service Vehicle #_____ parked at NW 83^rd and 9^th on stakeout.

9:30 pm Bedtime, no noise

9:40 pm The noise starts up, ever so faintly

9:45 pm Second tone, they’re pummeling away

10:53 pm I am being totally fried, I should leave

11:06 Church parking lot. It wasn’t the noise that woke me so much as the misery my entire brain was in.

SAT September 28 11:06 pm They seem to be frying my brain on the inside without really trying to wake me with noise. This was only one and a half hours, not the usual three hours.

SUN September 29 5:30 am Tossed ‘n Turned a few times last night but managed to sleep through them, could have sworn I was ‘homed’ in on at least once, possibly twice, but it was brief and I was too tired & frustrated to grab the flashlight and paper and pen to make note of the times. Woke reasonably rested for sleeping in a car. Concerned about stroke, brain cancer and ear damage.

8:10 am After reading newspaper lay down on couch to take a nap. Five minutes later my husband came into the living room.

8:15 am Their homing devices put a ‘fix’ on my position on the couch. My entire body is buzzing. There goes my nap. What is this for? This is the most offensive form of harassment imaginable. I am being hounded out of my bed and out of my home.

10:21 am Went to _____ Edmonds___________ _____________ early to rewrite these notes. They are homing in on me here as well. My ears are both ringing. My ears were not ringing earlier at __________ and ____

I find it very rude of them to reach inside my brain and shake it around. This is a total violation of my person and my physical space. It is distressing and exhausting to be chased out of my bed, out of my house and from suburban city to suburban city being shot by ray guns from government spies. Nothing like being repeatedly rousted out of my bed in the middle of the night, hounded out of my home and hunted down throughout the region.

SUN September 29 10:21 am The most shocking thing about this all is that they are not so much ‘hunting terrorists’ as ‘churning’ for as many criminal investigations as they can possibly spin off of one lousy "possible arson" report. Next Attraction: Coming soon to a state near you and, if you’re lucky, your very own neighborhood.

10:35 am Buzzing in ears stopped after ten to fifteen minutes. How considerate of the Friendly Officers.

11:13 am They are homing in on me again.

11:25 am They are ratcheting it up.

11:32 am Noise stopped, but brain/center bruised & fuzzy. Clear morning head gone.

11:40 am I can ‘hear’ that particular faint hum in the air.

11:50 am The hum is gone

12:23 pm Hum still gone.

2:24 pm Hum in ears

2:30 pm Hum ratcheted up

2:33 pm Another increment, distinctly "it"

2:48 pm Humming is gone

5:08 pm They’re buzzing my ears while I write in the condo, open house over.

5:11 pm My eardrums really hurt

5:20 pm Going strong & steady still hurts

5:30-5:40 pm Must have stopped around here by fading out

8:00 pm Sitting in home kitchen window where they have video surveillance aimed at me. And an airplane flies south directly overhead aimed right at our window. Never noticed this in eighteen years.

8:05 pm Hang-up phone call as I’m getting settled

7:05 am This large, white, paneled vehicle, typical of the surveillance trucks crammed with electronic equipment pulled out as I returned to home by my neighborhood License #________

SUN September 29 7:05 pm Parked in cul-de-sac on Ashworth with lots of other cars. SPY ENCAMPMENT? Or not?

9:20 pm Am I imagining it or not? My ears are buzzing or reverberating, but sitting at the kitchen window where at least one, if not two cameras are pointed from _________________ MY SINUSES HURT. Also, I sense a different type of low noise which appears to be fifty feet away, yet the inside of my brain tingles and sinuses hurt up front.

10:02 pm Sitting on the edge of my bed for five to ten minutes writing and the loud hum from ten feet away starts, should I go or should I stay? For the past month they have been persistently hammering me on Sunday nights. Ooh, Ooh, now I feel the reverb in my ears. I want a good night’s sleep. Six hours of hard work tomorrow. High ho, high ho, it’s off to sleep in my car at the church I go.

10:10 pm Second tome of reverberations kicks in, my brain is being fried. I’m outta here.

10:24 pm Church parking lot. They buzzed my ears for thirty sec and stopped

MON September 30 12:15 am Foot cramps causing me to toss and turn

12:27 am They’re homing in on me for moving. They’ve blasted the top of my skull which is facing the street. Vehicle starts up and leaves, This always hurts particularly so when I’m at home.

12:38 am I must have been right about that truck I followed today because they’re really attacking me tonight in retaliation.

MON September 30 12:38 am They are hitting me with body blasts that do not cause ear ringing, but a far-off hollow sound and strange all over pressure waves. This is very subtle & I should turn over and sleep.

12:40 am Oh, my god!! I rolled over in the back seat of the car and they’re blasting me with ear reverbs now. When the first vehicle left a second vehicle pulled up. Now comes a third vehicle.

12:56 am Winey reverberating blasts like a violin or string instrument being sawed on.

1:48 am I had fallen asleep but am being blasted again. It’s their campaign to wake me every hour all night long. My feet are cramping.

1:54 am These people really are deliberately hurting me, makes me want to cry.

? Slept through another fry.

3:46 am They are zapping me again. This is not a steady zap, it is Bam Bam Bam Bam every 6 seconds Bam Bam Bam Bam.

3:55 am Blast attack fading out

4:02 am Still fading out, but I am wide awake. I feel totally trapped and the only escape is to die. I’m crying.

4:12 am It is still going in background. The top of my head hurts with pressure.

4:20 am Oh, my god, just when I thought they were fading it out they are ratcheting it back up again, slowly. This is torture. Pure and simple

4:35 am It stopped

5:23 am Oh, my god, they blasted me for one minute thirty seconds. Nothing in my ears, just a strong, very strong body blast that made every fiber of my body shake/reverberate like being in an electric massage chair.

MON September 30 5:28 am I am so definitely wide awake I don’t see how I’ll fall asleep. Tired and wired. Going home. Bye church. Don’t see any truck parked in the first block around here. Could they be scattered further out? Could two "safe" houses be homing in on my car by triangulation? Perhaps the equipment is in the trunk of an ordinary looking passenger vehicle like when the Shoreline Police vehicles __________ ___________

And actual police cruiser cars were loaded with electronic equipment three to six along the fence backed in or faced out.

5:43 am Pull into my driveway and its Blam Blam Blam in my ears. What a welcoming home party. I’m exhausted and my equilibrium is off.

6:25 am They are still blasting away at my ears since I first drove in. No hope of a nap here. I am exhausted and in shock. The stunning realization that I’m trapped, tortured and "my goose is cooked."

6:30 am At this point in time I’d have to say, if the Friendly Officers wanted me to, I would say or do anything they wanted me to, just to get them to stop, to get a good night’s sleep. And the absolute fear of their power and control and ability to make this much, much worse. They got me. I will obey. I will do anything they want. Particularly if I were to be physically in the presence of one or more of them. I am no longer myself. My sense of myself and my identity is obliterated. I am not me. I am them. They own me and possess me from the inside out.

8:05 am There is what seems to be a surveillance vehicle parked at the approach to my son’s school. A ________ tinted window parked in a driveway. Three and a half years never seen that.

MON September 30 8:30 am

Returning home, got off the freeway at 145^th, made a left over the freeway and, lo and behold, a vehicle with tinted windows. _________ This is the very location where the state patrol typically parked when they had me under surveillance.

8:41 am Pull into driveway at home and there’s buzzing in my ear. They are so angry that I ‘made’ the girl in the _____ they’re blasting out my ears now.

9:20 am Noise stops about this time, a gradual fade out with no relapse.

9:53 am Driving to Ravenna ____________ Metro ____________ on freeway overpass. _______ is sitting in driver’s seat, back door open. With leg propped up rolling his pant leg. The __________ sees me and takes note, I pass them and watch in the rear-view window. Mission accomplished they are closing up shop. The ___________ closes the back door, they leave.

11:30-12:30 pm They slowly ratchet up the volume for one hour.

12:30-12:45 pm Totally blasted out my ears while mopping in front-living room. I noticed a ___________ The I talked and I saw the _______ leave out of the corner of my eye. Two to three minutes later I noticed the hum was gone. Always thought their equipment was in either the very large, white paneled trucks or the pimple white utility vans one sees everywhere. If this was so, then an ordinary vehicle can carry the equipment.

1:15 pm Driving to __________ I notice another, ____________ It is parked along the route I traverse and when I pass it, it follows me I/1 mile until about two blocks to the next location. Am I imagining things?

1:20 pm Greenlake job. The minute I park the car the most unpleasant noise starts, it’s still going.

MON September 30 4:50 Going to _____ school to pick up my son after work. Noticed an empty __________ passenger van parked by the _____ houses in the ___________ Coincidence or stakeout? Then, after passing through the _____ in the driveways on the right Lic #_____ is parked a _____ with ______ This is a classic stake out vehicle.

4:54 pm At the _____ my ears hurt, are buzzing. Bam Bam Bam they’re homing in on the Honda, my cell phone is at home. Something definitely is planted on the car.

4:56 pm I’m so uncomfortable I get out of the car and walk into the admin building passing two women exiting at the door. Went to the bathroom & rested my head on my purse while napping on the toilet.

5:08 pm They cannot home in on me here, I can hear/sense the vibrations but they encircle the building fifty to seventy-five yards away. I’m not pinpointed.

5:15 pm I return to my car and notice a man with shades on a cell parked across the street watching my vehicle. License# ______

5:31 pm _____ follows me on the freeway _______ Plate # ______(!!xtra sensory exception) Is this a spare tire in the rear trunk? Are they not usually positioned differently? Encased in fitted covering one ft wide by two and a half feet driving with right hand smoking with left hand, alone, engaged in an animated conversation (not singing) to _____ Earphone?

6:02 pm They’ve been totally blasting my brain out since the moment I stepped in the door fifteen min ago. Punishment for having ‘made’ the ____ in the _____ who followed me on the freeway and did a stakeout this morning and blasted me for one and a quarter hours.

MON September 30 6:30 pm Unplug phone to talk to my husband and say how everything he talks about on the phone and faxes of our finances, account #’s, balances, etc will be used against us. He said his cash card secret pin number out loud ! I lecture him that these people are criminals with a badge and will steal his money and run scams on us. During this time the reverberations stopped. They stop for half an hour. I realize they have entered our property and planted secondary back-up ‘bugs’ around the house and heard everything I said.

6:50 pm The reverberations start again while I’m in my room.

6:55 pm They’re ratcheting it up.

7:44 pm They’re revving it up more

7:51 pm My right eardrum hurts

8 pm They set off their multi-sounding sirens and revving up the noise in my ears at the same time. Rotten one min twenty seconds

9:06 pm Verbs start

9:39 pm Bedtime

TUE October 1 1:47 am Woken

1:57 am Ratcheted until so painful I have to leave the house.

2:15 am Went to different church, the _____ one by the freeway across from _______As I left our driveway I noticed _____ house has two bright spotlights shined directly on our driveway. This is new.

3:49 am Ears hurt enough to wake me

? Leg jerks me awake inexplicably

4:47 am Woke

5:10 am Woke

6:01 am Left

TUE October 1 8:20 am Arrive early at _____ and notice my ears are ringing. Go to get breakfast first elsewhere on Capitol Hill and notice the ringing has stopped.

9:00 am Return to job to sit out front & immediately my ears are ringing. They knew I was going here, have stakeouts planted in the surrounding neighborhood and are homing in on the transmitter planted on my car. Then a _____ license # _____ with a guy in shades on a cell drives down _____ straight at me. This must be for a visual affirmation that I am here. Likely they have on-the-fly phone tapping of the house to hear everything going on inside.

10:30 am? Buzzed me at work

2 pm Blasting me at home, 7 minutes now

6 pm Wrong # on cell from _____ to place me at Greenlake. They knew I was going to my son’s track meet there and are checking up on me.

9 pm Verbs start

9:08 pm Second tone added

9:15 pm Revved up

9:22 pm My right ear hurts

9:23 pm Now both ears hurt

9:30 pm Sinuses prickle

10:00 pm Go to sleep with noise in background

WED October 2 1:01 am Woken by painful ears home in bed

1:24 am at _____ church parking lot by the freeway, notice their outside lights in the parking lot are on now, second night here

4:10 am? Woken up

5:00 am Left for home

WED October 2 6:23 am They set off alarm as a brief beep and have been slowly revving up the noise for the last twenty minutes

6:30 am Ears hurt

8:50 am Returned home from dropping _____ @ school. They’ve been slowly turning up the heat for the last ten minutes.

8:56 am It’s now going full blast.

9:06 am It stopped, the noise stopped.

7:00 pm Home talking to husband it starts again

7:30 pm It stopped, perhaps because I made a reference to my brain being fried and not able to remember things when talking to my son & husband. Which is true.

8:43 pm Upstairs in bed and they started it about two minutes ago as I made preparations to sleep.

11:00 pm Blasted awake. Two hours! That’s all they gave me two lousy hours before they rousted me from my bed.

11:04 pm They have two spotlights shining on our driveway from the neighbor’s house. How much money did they pay him for this? Is this so the cameras can take better photos? Shoreline Police with flashing lights have pulled someone over License # _____ staged charade? If not a charade and merely a coincidence then the reason I was awoken after only two and not three hours is because they wanted to take advantage of the opportunity the flashing police lights provided. This they known they are fully cognizant of how much pain it takes to wake me!

THU October 3 2:15 am In the church parking lot I stir and the pain increases, I then wake to write these notes at which point the pain increases more. How long does this go on? When does it definitively end? Are you trying to tell me this is legal? If so, you’ve got to be, like, totally kidding me. From my perspective, ground zero, eye of the hurricane calling this thing surveillance of foreign intelligence is a phoney baloney ruse, a phoney lure, a red herring. This is about a contrived lame excuse to conduct rolling, never-ending criminal investigations of anything and everything that can be in the most superficial and innocuous way connected to a possible arson that almost occurred fourteen months ago. And what about the 24/7 daily invasions of my home and body to cruelly and sadistically torture me, I am being physically assaulted in the most malicious manner by high-tech, super sophisticated star wars type weapons. These are military weapons being used to physically attack me supported by a government-sponsored campaign of psychological tricks, petty pranks and sabotage. All this for calling my girlfriend ______ an arson investigator for the City of Seattle! Furthermore, the US Patriot Act, in retrospect, seems nothing more than an after-the-fact cynical changing of the rules and laws to exponentially exploit some thwarted arson that occurred two months previously. What would a listing of all the tapped phones and extraneous investigations reveal? The mother lode is the spin off investigations that completely dwarf the original arson phone call. Holy cow! I’m just one of the people associated with _____ (_____), it is staggering to contemplate how many spin off investigations have been churned from this. So, for the past month, while these ray gun attacks have mushroomed from occasional iterations to a sadistic 24/7 campaign of physical torture, slowly I’ve been compelled to, (or accidently) figured out how it all works. How do the pieces all fit together? These things would never cross my mind, normally. Even when reduced to a quivering mass of anguished, despairing, self-pitying tears I am too exhausted to pointedly contemplate the invisible, shadowy inner workings of how they do it. Thoughts and insights occur at the most inopportune of times. As I’m drifting off to sleep, battling rush-hour traffic, in rare relaxed social settings when the last thing on my mind is the machinations of people I’d rather not think about, washing dishes, etc.

Even then my own ideas seem hypothetical, ridiculous, likely inaccurate, absurd, far-fetched, self-delusional, incomplete, grandiose, science fiction, or possible but not plausible. Yet they persist. My surrounding reality has changed and so have my perceptions changed. My ‘take’ on the world has been permanently altered. So here it goes, likely off kilter a bit, slightly inaccurate in some details and assumptions, but, in general, the big picture has to be true simply by default because little else can explain these strange happenings.

What really got me going was the realization the stake-outs at __________ consist of nothing more than one, perhaps two ordinary vehicles loaded with electronic equipment that saps me, the implications are amazing. That and their likely use of not only satellites but the field command center, which is most likely in continual direct contact with a primary command center. So I’m trying to work or sleep anywhere and my location is pinpointed by either on-the-fly phone tapping of the phone at the location where I am going. (Cell phone or car transmitter) Say, for instance, a __________ is faxed to my home with the _____ number and address along with the time I’m to be there. Our home phone/fax is tapped and the information is intercepted. Upon arriving at the _____ phone/hung up phone/speaker phone gives the spies immediate access to not only all conversation and noise but my location in the home. Alone in the home or not alone I am zapped. Perhaps they use heat detection equipment in telescopes or helicopters (that are so far away I can’t hear them but their cameras so powerful that distance is no concern.) Having my cell phone on me makes GSP (Global Satellite Positioning) far easier and I notice I am zapped louder and more uncomfortably when my cell is on me or within a few feet. Not to worry, the transmitter placed on the car also works quite well. I have jacked the car up on a lift twice looking for ‘something’ to no avail. It’s there and very well hidden. Now I always thought it was a large truck heavily laden with equipment operated by one operator who was specifically intent on ‘getting me’

And maniacally and gleefully sat at the consoles registering my every reaction as they operated the leavers. However, the thought occurred to me, when I chased the large white paneled truck and the driver looked at me most curiously, that the driver may not know much about what’s going on. The driver is simply directed to drive to this or that location on his cell phone by someone else at the field or primary command. That means someone miles, if not thousands of miles away, could plausibly sending signals to a parked truck’s equipment to zap me. As a matter of fact someone next door, across the street, in another location in a parked car or thousands of miles away can be remotely controlling the ‘zap’ factor with or without the knowledge or consent of those in the field, kind of like space-age technology.

The other thing is these zaps vary in frequency and intensity. I could be driving along anywhere, another vehicle simply drive by me and from a location thousands of miles away at a primary control center my brain could be quick-fried zapped to cause me to crash, drive off a cliff or into a wall. Or a vehicle could simply drive by my home and fry my brains out while I slept peacefully in my bed. Target good ‘n gone.

Consider this. Why stop at one person? How about five, ten fifty or a hundred people? They inexplicably pass away in their sleep. The autopsy shows nothing. Even a car crash by only one vehicle can be attributed to only the one driver. Mother load if they have passengers.

Really, this ray gun thing is flexible and undetectable. And it can be done using people in the field, car drivers, who may not necessarily know what’s going on. And it can be controlled from thousands of miles away. Or next door. Or on the freeway. While you’re at it, who needs warrants or permission? The boys with the toys get to play.

"ensure that law enforcement officials to not direct or control the use of the FISA procedures to enhance criminal prosecution." "The New Yorker," Sept. 30, 2002 Annals of National Security by Seymour Hersh p. 56 & 74

As a high school educated one year college/college drop-out who has been driven to the edge by this merger of all levels of government police agencies from CIA-FBI-SEC (who knows what else, Pentagon?), state patrol, county police, city police, city maintenance, county Search & Rescue, mass transit security, postal service security, private agencies, etc, etc. etc, this is how it looks from my vantage point. FISA procedures are being "directed and controlled" by mere lower level law enforcement officials to enhance criminal prosecution. These guys are too scrupulously clever for that. The guys at the actual top of the CIA, FBI, SEC, (Pentagon?) (You gotta love these guys!) are the actual ones directing and controlling the criminal prosecution. Every tip from beginning to end, every scrap of information, is directed and controlled by the top guys to be fed to local, state and city regulatory agencies. So, is this legal? I don’t know. I am neither educated enough or sophisticated enough to know the actual answer. My gut instinct says it is wrong. I like the cachet and ring of words like UNCONSTITUTIONAL and CIVIL RIGHTS because they are difficult to spell, hard to pronounce and using them makes me think I am smart and important. Like I think I know something. When all I am is a stay at home soccer mom, who works part-time at no benefit, low pay _____ jobs. Perhaps this is nothing but a bad dream.

THU October 3 2:22 am _____ Church. It stopped, the pain stopped. Except that my top of the head aches from lingering residue.

2:41 am Oh oh I spoke too soon, they kept me going for half an hour – low grade until it pans down. I grabbed the pen and paper to write. They sensed my motion and have begun blasting at me again. Oh yes I remember now how it started, I could feel the heavy halo of vibrations surrounding my head which points the top of my head directly perpendicularly at the street where they likely are parked. As I brought my hand to my nose to scratch it I could immediately feel the reverberations start. It is like waves crashing on a beach. Regularly and methodically. Blam Blam Blam. Earlier in the evening my husband was watching TV and as I crossed the living room the NPR segment on bad behavior by the CIA was on. This gave me some mild encouragement because at this point in time my husband is unaware of most of what is going on because he simply did not believe what little I told him as a brief outline! I am quite tired, run-down, depressed and demoralized and the segment helps.

Am ? Buzzed during night

5:15 am Woken

6:28 am Woke went home

11:30-11:45 am Ears buzzed at Ballard

12:28 pm Home, ears buzzed at driveway. When I was setting up my room to put together this mailer they made a clamoring racket across the street for fifteen min.

THU October 3 pm They know I spent two hours at the library yesterday from the transmitter on the car and another three hours making copies at _____ I get funny looks from the staff there which leads me to believe they have contacted store security and I am watched by cameras. Possibly even what I am copying.

2:15-2:38 pm _____Surveillance vehicle Lake City Way utility truck on Juanita way & how I’ve arrived in the parking lot @2:39 My ears are buzzing. Furthermore, I can not listen to the car radio for the first time because it makes my ears hurt. They must have so totally blasted me out last night in the _____ church parking lot.

4:28 pm Buzzed my ears

4:33 pm _____ License # Guy in _____hoodie large radio antenna

5:19 pm WSDOT tow truck Just off Arboretum from freeway past three way stop at first turnout parking lot on Right

6:55 pm I close the venetian blinds in the living room & they set off buzzing alarms of protest. Now their cameras at _____ house cannot see inside our house. Like what’s their total problem? Did they forget about Right to Privacy? What are they doing while being PEEPING TOMS?

7:50 pm Go to sleep

9:25 pm One and a half hours of sleep. The top of my head , they blasted me so bad to wake me up and physically hurt and me. I am truly wierded out and woozy when I get up.

10:21 pm They figured out I’m doing paperwork and have set off a home alarm with various sirens.

11:26 pm Loud Hum in entire room where I’m putting paperwork together

11:42 pm The tone has a deeper pitch

11:48 pm Really tired will try to sleep. Laid down & my whole body is vibrating. Woah. This is new between the physical exhaustion and this total-body vibrations I feel frozen on the bed and could swear those are heart palpations.

FRI October 4 12:24 am It must have stopped but as I was sleeping I moved & now it has started up again. Buzzed a few more times but so utterly exhausted slept through

5:35 am Buzzed awake when I rolled over in bed

5:55-6 am While working on the paperwork felt as slow and sluggish as molasses. Is it the vibes I can feel them pounding my body with or simply waking up w/ low energy?

7:30-8:30 am Drove son to school. Felt OK, actually refreshed.

8:45 am Went by _____ shoreline to cancel for the day. They buzzed my ears with the stake-out electronic vehicles

8:53 am Home to finish mailing & paperwork. I am being definitely buzzed!

11:38 am _____ wakes up and the spies start buzzing my ears

11:43 am I went downstairs to talk to my husband and the spies sent a phone soliciting call through in the middle of our pleasant conversation to 1) irritate and distress and interfere in our marital relationship, and 2) harass me in the privacy of my home and let me know that they are listening and watching through cameras installed at the neighbor’s house.

7:28 pm They buzzed my ears when I was talking to _____ in the living room

FRI October 4 9:30 pm

They made the phone ring once when I was alone in the house preparing for bed.

9:38 pm Upstairs in my bedroom they’ve already started up the targeted hum

9:50 pm They’ve slowly ratcheted it up until it’s loud and it hurts. Now the reverberations are two toned and echoing from one ear drum to the other, back ‘n forth.

SAT October 5 12:36 am They woke. Top of my head is warm and hurts. Am I being fried w/ microwaves?

12:52 am Church parking lot. ?They’re shooting me every time I move. & if I move again from being uncomfortable they ratchet up the volume and intensity of the vibrations making it even more painful & uncomfortable

3:28 am Woke again. Think they’ve been shooting me every hour on the hour. I am being punished for writing notes because the movement is deleted and the vibrations incrementally ratcheted up more and more as I write.

4:008-4:16 am I am being like totally fried. It hurts so much the impulse is to flee. But to where? Back home to my bed where they were nailing me earlier? These Friendly Officers sure are friendly. I am trapped, tortured and in the worst imaginable of emotional states

My Entire life has been turned into a torture chamber

SAT October 5 People around me are ‘disappeared’ into criminal investigations and prosecutions and I am physically attacked and tortured (with no evidence to prove it) in the most private and personal of places.

4:37 pm I pull into the driveway at home and Blam! They’re jamming out my ears and brain at home.

4:43 pm Upstairs in my bedroom it’s Blam Blam Blam

5:08 pm Now they’re just sitting on the control button and it’s one steady Blast

6:00-6:30 pm They stopped, while I was eating and reading newspaper

6:32 pm They started again while I’m in my bedroom preparing this report for mailing.

6:55 pm So I turn on the radio and they turn up the revs.

10:30 pm Fell asleep sitting u in a chair by the heater. They buzzed me awake after 45 minutes. I was so exhausted I slept through the buzz for another 20 minutes, whereupon they upped the verbs.

12:21 am Go to grab my _________ and they have messed with the electronic transmission to make it impossible to ________________________

I had to notice this first and not just grab it out of the cradle and leave the house. Then I had to call the company and do this over the phone.

12:25 am When I went outside to move the cars the Friendly Officers coincidently appeared, starting their cars and drove off. They deliberately caused and orchestrated this stressful moment using phone/electronic tapping, video cameras and surveillance of places I go coupled with on-the-fly phone tapping to know my schedule and cause interferences in it.

SAT October 5 1-4 pm _____ Edmonds, _____ Buzzed when I started @ 1 pm. Then about every hour thereafter _____ Edmonds circle to _____ I drove off staring and laughing and _____

4:48 pm King County Police in retaliation for ‘making’ spies @ Edmonds

4:54 pm Shoreline Police in the of Aurora by Shay’s

8:21 pm Ears buzzed in my bedroom

SUN October 6

Not followed down freeway, freeway empty Parking lot empty, yet I am buzzed as I sit in car, whole body and my hand vibrates the loose handle on the PO door

2:15 am Zapped at airport post office

2:45 am Satellite Zapping? See

THU Oct 3 11:48 pm around midnight Zapped walking in my driveway

3:00 am Asleep

7:15 am Woke up

7:30 am Went to post office Not zapped like this morning

1:00 pm at Edmonds _____ Am I imagining it? Someone else has that same type of rolling various alarms going off. So what

7:15-11:00 pm Slept on couch

12:45 – 6:45 am They kept the reverbs at a low intensity all night long so I only got "attacked" briefly two to thre times when I tossed and turned.

MON 8:32 am Being blasted when I return home in car in driveway and throughout the house. This hurts, particularly my right ear, which by now are quite tender.

? Footsteps of one or two people walking around the car Police? I am quiet, no notes or flashlight Buzzed intermittently and continually enough to be constantly annoying and wake me repeatedly

3:15 pm Remove coat, too warm. Intensity increases because of movement

3:22 pm They’re upping the reverberations

8:20 pm _____ ahead of me upon approach to _____

8:27 pm Truck passes me in _____ going opposite direction

8:32 pm On freeway car just ahead of me gets off @ 45^th

9:55 pm Followed by service vehicle @ 175^th & Meridian right behind me _____

2:08 am _____ service # _____ as I leave _____ just outside Shoreline. Shoreline police down Meridian They had a general ‘fix’ on my presence in the building, people were upstairs, but I was by my cell. When I got an incoming call they specifically targeted my location and put a buzz in my ear.

2:30 am Home. They’re buzzing me.

3:45 am Lay on couch for snooze before getting after twenty minutes they buzzed me, preventing me from falling into a deeper sleep and cutting my nap in half. I moved. They zapped me when I moved

4:10 am Honked horn as I drove away from house

4:29 am By library _____ vehicle _____ by house

MON October 7 8:32 am Got buzzed two to three min parking lot of _____

seven min later when I moved my car over to _____ was cruised by an _____ security _____ and upon approach to the _____ doors a "maintenance" worker walked over, check out the flower garden behind me, and left at the same time I did.

9:18 am Home briefly & they cause the hang-up phone call to be perfectly timed as I walk in the door and I am now being buzzed in the driveway in the car before I pull out. P.S. My cell is on me Went to Shoreline _____ which did not happen and came back home. My movements were tracked as usual

1 pm Went to _____ my ears were buzzed upon arrival

4:00-4:20 pm Went to _____ my ears were buzzed upon arrival and Lake Forest police passed me. Also on my way there Pulled of 145^th into Interlake as I was at top of hill.

7:30 pm Try to take nap on couch when they figure out I’m trying to sleep they home in on me and buzz me. Funny the buzzes start with vibrations of helicopter far overhead.

8:00 pm My entire body is vibrating, this is highly annoying. I flipped out slammed the front door, honked the horn a long time driving away. Circled 99-130^th and Meridian home, honked the horn and slammed the door when I got back fiddled w/ the phone.

8:43 pm Sleeping my bed w/ no buzz

8:50 pm They’re buzzing me and all I can think about is the bridge [suicide]. Went to church

9:50 pm They’re homing in on me in the car whole body buzzes.

TUE October 10 4:50-5:45 am Went to _____ to pick up son, had cell on me, saw no surveillance vehicles.

7:00 am Tried to sleep on chair in front of TV. About 7:11 buzz starts 7:13 buzz is there 7:17 buzz ‘shoots’ me 7:21

7:13 am Buzz starts, in background, steady

7:17 am Buzz shoots me

7:21 am Buzz shoots me
7:33 am Buzz shoots me

7:44 am Buzz shoots me, sleep for about an hour

8:11 am Buzz wakes me, steady in background

9:00 am Buzz wakes me, steady in background. Buzz in ear. About this time I am awoken repeatedly every 45 minutes to hour. Also, unusually, I am awoken not only by being ‘shot’ with a buzz but by twitches of my head, hands or legs. It is as if the shot triggered some nervous system response deep within my brain. Also woken upon movement.

10:30 pm When _____ went to bed they set off multiple alarms, again to wake me for sure, since was being careful to notice me.

WED October 9 1:57 am Turn over in chair and the buzz nails me real good.

2:00 am Slam front door loudly and honk horn when leaving house. If I don’t get a good night’s sleep they won’t either. Circle neighborhood. Upon cruising past my street _____ License # _____ cuts across 145^th perpendicular to me. I followed it and they made classic surveillance maneuver evasion techniques

2:10-2:20 am In _____ parking lot. I am being buzzed so they can locate me. The nagging suspicion that satellites are tracking my moves occurs again. Another thing, I think the two tracking mechanisms can be distinguished. The satellite is full body, my entire body vibrates and the land based one shoots me with ear buzzes.

WED October 9 2:30 am So if I’m being buzzed in my ear in the parking lot is it land based or satellite? I’m not sure the logic is there because I see no surveillance vehicles. For certain the center of my brain aches too much. This is right in the middle. Also, I’m losing details in my life that never happened before. Forgetting to lock my car door, can’t remember words, cannot organize small possessions or misplace them. I feel brain damaged and fear the results will linger and get worse in my old years, like cigarettes cause cancer two and a half to three and a half decades later. I think I’m losing it emotionally, it’s like six weeks of this is driving me to the brink. Furthermore, I’m convinced the spies deliberately held up my mail to the judges & congress. They are certainly capable of going into the airport post offices, flashing some badges and citing national security and going through and reading everything I wrote. The resulting delay would effectively prevent everything from arriving on time and waste $250 I spent on copies and postage. This thought is so upsetting I can barely stand it. This entire experience is damaging me into paranoia _____, in Parking lot _____ dressed as a muslim! Parked in far part of lot, starts car when I came out, drives away when I walk in that direction. Pauses and looks back at me as _____ pulls into Aurora. Get in car, there’s no buzzing but one minute later it starts up slowly.

3:00 am Home bussed in car in driveway, walk down driveway & buzz ‘catches’ me halfway to the end. Enter home & I’m buzzed.

3:10 am Sitting in kitchen window they stopped buzz because cameras see me.

WED October 9 Saw news report where they said satellites cannot see through walls. Actually, they can. I think they use a handful of various types of rays and a computer to reassemble a composite. Something like a combination of ultrasound, x-rays, _____, heat sensors, etc. A computer image of what is on the other side of the walls can be reassembled. Otherwise how could they be so successful in targeting only me in my home and other buildings when I am present? They use my cell phone to determine which image is me. This must be done from not only the field command center _____ the street but another distant primary command center. My every move is being tracked on a computer screen, the surveillance vehicles are for quality control to ‘check’ the computer screen is accurate as well as the street/traffic cameras.

3:20 am No buzzing, think I’ll get my pillow and sleep at the kitchen table. They must have several computer screens with the images of all these cameras sent to them. A primary command center in another state is watching the video image of me sitting at my kitchen table the satellite pinpoint of my location.

3:32 am Went to bathroom to do hair & the buzz started. Back at table.

3:50 am Try to sleep on kitchen table, but now, when they can see I’m not reading the paper, they buzz me loudly. Try to leave lights on, but they buzz me more when they can see me at the table trying to sleep.

WED October 9 3:55 am This is not working, they’re ratcheting it up will try my bed W/ secret. At the primary command center they must also have an audio feed of our telephone which transmits every sound that occurs in the house, including the bugs they’ve planted. While I write this standing in front of the phone the sound has tripled in volume. They are focusing their ‘homing’ on me and are really pinpointing my location, I’m now remembering back when I walked around the house "testing" to see if this was really happening. It seems charming and comical compared to the now moment-by-moment 24/7 attacks in a deliberate campaign of government sponsored torture using military weapons and satellites from, most likely, the pentagon. These people will never stop. Their goal is to kill me and I actually wish I was dead to stop this torture. The big boys win. I die.

4:11 am Went outside to my car and there was a thirty second delay before the buzz caught me. Neighbors houses are dark. I am now 60/40 convinced they’re actually sleeping. This entire campaign against me is being waged 3,000 miles away. Presumably, in a moment they could shoot me dead with laser beams (or some such) from the satellites. This must be why they were so freaked out when the pentagon got hit, all their goodies are based there. Bush’s ‘shadow’ government must be the military.

4:15 am It is now room noise for me, it is quite irritating.

WED October 9 4:30 am in bed they the volume, reverberations and pain. Bam Bam Bam pause Bam Bam Bam for about twenty to thirty minutes. While I lay perfectly still ‘playing dead’ until they gradually ease it off to near nothing.

?? They woke me two times during this period

6:50 am Woke up, moved, could sense the vibrations increasing. Left bed.

8:37 am Followed home from _____ down freeway by State Patrol Jeep

9:20 am Buzzed when entering house

10:30 am? When _____ woke up and we talked they sent through hung up call to "reassure" me they are ever present.

11:07 am Buzzed at driveway of _____ Phinney Ridge

11:45-12 Noon Felled by in front yard, was completely discombobulated and thrown off wack as I walked to my car for more supplies. Sunny clear. This was not a buzz, bam or sap. It was a to make me fall down. Fortunately, I have good balance.

2:45 pm Buzzed when I got home

3:22 pm Buzzed at _____

7:55-8:05 pm apx Buzzed real hard when _____ & I returned from the cross-country Running Track meet. Followed by State Patrol

9:28 pm In bed

9:38 pm They’re buzzing me

1:01 am Buzzed when I move and again when I move to write

2:17 am It hurts so bad I have to leave the house

4:35 am Woken by bad dream

5:30 am Woke again

6:03 am At home

7:30 am Took _____ to school, nothing

THU October 10 8:45 am Got home, ears buzzed

11:32 am #189 exit to Everett State patrol followed by _____ vehicle white truck, they got off @ #189 _____ another _____ pick up w/ camper

1 pm Ears buzzed when I get home & talk to

1:52 pm Ears buzzed @ _____ in Juanita Beach phones have been tapped since the second time I spoke to

3:00 pm _____ parked by consignment store looking @ oncoming traffic. Traffic camera @ Bothell way & Juanita & helicopter flyover. Fine tuning, calibrating and double cheating satellite transmissions from cell phone & transmitter planted on car.

8:37 pm Getting ready for bed ears buzzed

11:09 pm I am awaken toss & turn my ears are fried.

FRI October 11 11:09-2:34 am Three and a half hours of constant low-level bombardment that causes me to toss and turn without getting any sleep. At which point, 2:34 am they turn it up just enough to really hurt. This is torture. This is cruel and unusual punishment. I am leaving for the church parking lot where they have fewer machines, satellite only, to attack me with trucks laden with equipment.

5:35 am Woken in church parking lot

6:45 am Leave for home _____ @ Twin Ponds lot when I leave Left alone all day, what’s going on?

5:50 am Ears buzzed at _____ Hardware, had my cell on me.

FRI October 10 9:37 pm Sleep 9:37 pm

9:41 pm Buzz starts 9:40

9:44 pm Total body vibration

1:00 am Buzzed

1:35 am Awake

2:49 am Buzzed

2:52 am Awake it hurts

2:53 am Woke again

2:56 am Wide awake

4:22 am Turned over in bed & they’re ratcheting it up.

5:30 am Woken again

6:47 am Got out of bed

11:09 am One beep sent through the telephone that I had turned the ring off on just prior to laying down for a nap at 10:35. They deliberately woke me from my nap after only ____ half an hour. This is harassment and torture in their campaign of sleep deprivation.

SAT October 11 12:10 pm I can hear the "vibs" in the distance "tickling" my ear drums

3-3:30 pm Buzzed lightly at the _________________

Quiet all evening, what’s in store for tonight?

8:27 pm In bed & they immediately start buzzing my ears

8:37 pm My entire body is vibrating & buzzing

8:45 pm They’ve ratcheted it up so it starts to hurt

8:54 pm Now rhythmic beats to an irregular pattern with increasingly excruciating intensity.

SAT October 11 9:07 pm In addition to my entire body vibrating my skull and its contents my brain are reverberating with special throbs between my two ears. One and a half hours

11:53 pm I am awake. Wide awake

SUN October 12

1:02 am Ears ringing enough to wake me one and a half hours

1:11 am They’re revving it up now, it is loud & my head is vibrating

1:15 am The vibrations radiate down through body cavity. I am so exhausted, yet I can’t sleep. They’ve been waking me all night long and doing this to me every night for 1 ½ months. I would cry but they would hear me because the whole house is bugged. I wish I didn’t exist. They are murdering my heart and soul. They are torturing me on purpose, deliberately. This is sadistic. Awake one solid hour pure torture.

1:34 am Ten second long blasts reverberating repeatedly like shouts

1:37 am They sense my movement now it’s one to three second long blasts

1:45 am Military helicopter overhead stops/interrupts the noise. Is the noise/vibration generated from across the street (Like I’ve always assumed) or from satellites overhead latest concept? One and three quarters hours

3:44 am Being buzzed. Woke me out of deep sleep straight up. Awake forty-five minutes torture

3:48 am This is a total body buzz and I am being fried. They are pounding me Bam Bam Bam

3:56 am This is quite intense. I’m wide awake, exhausted. Pinned down, trapped and attacked there is no escape, I am cornered. Two hours

6:10 am Woke because my ears are being buzzed again.

SUN October 12 6:42 am For half hour they blasted me awake Blam Blam Blam until I was wide awake then they faded out at 6:42. It is now a faint rumble.

7:10 am Why are they buzzing me again?

8:39 am Hollman by 12^th past _____ on hill passed by two Seattle Police going fast.

8:45 am By chance three Seattle police cars were congregating off 65^th & 19^th close to where I was going at 67^th & 16^th. One followed me, stopped me, and told me the new plates need to be put on within two to three days or there’s a $133 fine.

8:00-8:55 am My ears are buzzed while in the house I’m showing and in the car writing these notes.

11:30 am It is the middle of the day and I am bone tired. I am a walking zombie going through the motions just to barely exist. I think constantly about how to end my misery. I want to take a nap but know the satellite is tracking my every movement, in buildings, cars and on the street. Anytime I stop to rest they sadistically torture me by zapping me with ray guns and waking me up.

12:04 pm No surveillance vehicles or police followed me to Edmonds _____ because I was being tracked by satellite. Now in the parking space here they are buzzing my ears. My cell is beside me. The foghorn blocked the sound briefly, then it came back.

12:15 pm They buzzed me while I was upstairs in the building

12:45-1:00 pm Ears buzzed

1-2 pm apx Slept sitting up in a portable Coleman chair head leaned back on counter edge

2:40-2:52 pm Right ear has no buzz, no hum, no reverb, no vibs, no blam, no bam, BUT regular intermittent clicking/tapping sound that I have had/heard before

SUN October 13 3:30 pm

Left unit to show parking space and got buzzed when I got back in.

3:44 pm Right ear making clicking/tapping sound

6:37 pm In bed

7 pm Full body total zap feels hideous, large multiple waves like a speedboat

8:39 pm buzz

10-10:21 pm I thought I was being blasted awake for quite a while must have started at 10 pm

11:56 pm Blasted attack turned over. This is quite loud, painful and persistent. The obvious intent is to hurt my ears and deliberately wake me up. I am wide awake and my ears hurt.

It is as if someone was inside my brain, inside my skull, sadistically torturing me. Your government taxes at work.

MON October 14 12:30 am

Solid half hour of painful irritation slowly starting to fade out. It started at midnight and is now slowing down.

12:44 They’re revving it back up louder again

12:55 Ears and Sinuses being blasted and revved up more

1:08 I am being blasted again

1:22 Blam Blam Blam My bed in my bedroom is a government sponsored torture chamber. This torture is criminal behavior.

1:35 Total body vibrations begin as ears fade out.

4:57 Woke out of the blue to ringing in my ears. Went to pee, lay on living room couch.

5:34 They located me on couch, slowly ratcheted it up, Ringing in my ears. Chased me back to my bed.

6:00 am It stopped.

9 am Buzzed when I got back from Bush five to ten min ever so faintly

12-12:30 pm Standing at _____ @ Ravenna. Whole body buzzed/ vibrations phone tapped to find my location

MON October 14 1:35

Buzzed lightly upon arrival at Greenlake

8:35 pm Went to Edmonds _____ Buzzed

4 pm Came home totally exhausted, went quietly to my bedroom to try to sneak a nap. They buzzed me within one minute of laying down. Decided to leave house to sleep in car

4:05 pm Very irritated when my husband said something to me I grabbed the phone where they’re listening and slammed the receiver, slammed the door hard leaving house.

6:30 pm After napping in the parking lot of _____ returned home did the above mentioned showing. Three helicopter blasts? Could feel total body vibrations to rotor beats.

8:25 pm 9:00 pm

Buzzed when returning home. Taunted in driveway two times "Can you hear me?" from _____ house

10:00 pm Went back to _____ to sleep the night.

TUE October 15 2 am

Helicopter hovered overhead and blasted me with total body vibrations (no ears or head stuff) for half hour until I was wide awake.

2:29 am The fade out begins from total body vibrations to ears reverbing

4:32 am Total body blast to wake me five to ten minutes

6:30 am Home

9:01 am Ears buzzed _____ Montlake_____

3:00 pm Ears buzzed at Lake Forest Park _____

7:30-8:00 pm Buzzed in chair in front of TV, interfers with sound. Totally homed in on in front of TV. They buzzed me, not when I was moving, but when I was still. As if they wished to wake me while snoozing.

10:11 pm In bed upstairs Tossed & turned fitfully all night, distant hum, no buzz in ears but was aware they were periodically waking me.

4:42 pm After tossing & turning awoken to increasing pain in ears. Wide Awake

WED October 16 5:09 am The constant pain in my ears has continued for half hours. The obvious intent, to wake me many hours (two to three) earlier than usual, has been successful. I am being rousted early from bed. Another night with poor, minimal sleep.

8:45 am Still tired, lay on couch to try and take a nap

8:52 – 8:59 am Blasted awake by full body vibrations

5 pm Buzzed lightly when by picture window overlooking Lake WA @ Sheridan Beach _____

9:23 pm Bedtime

9:38 pm They’re blasting at me,

10:20 pm They’re cooking on the juice

11:02 pm Being blasted

11:13 pm I am involuntarily jerking around in bed

12:41 am Being Buzzed

THU October 16 2:42 am Clicking tapping sound in left ear, big general hum

2:42 am Clicking/tapping sound & big general hum

2:41 am They’ve ratcheted it up till my right ear hurts and I’m wide awake

2:46 am It’s louder & louder with a raspy engine-revving sound which curiously I now remember is what was being emitted for the first time tonight as I fell asleep. The "theme" sound effect was of patterns of traffic, as if they were trying to disguise it. I am not fooled, plus, tonight was the second time with the unusual clicking/tapping sounds. Which they woke me with minutes earlier. This is in two-tone reverb which bounces back and forth between my ears in the center of my skull.

THU October 16

2:57 am I am tossing and turning, which they can sense, so they can gauge the success of tormenting me. Fading to one tone in right ear.

3:00 am Second tone returns briefly, then stops.

3:05 am They’re going to full-body I can feel a reverb in my solar plexus (!) first time a three points, right ear, left ear, solar plexus

3:22 am Went to bathroom, they heard everything and are now rejoicing in glee at success in waking me and rousting me out of bed in the middle of the night. Buzz in Right ear continues. It’s a pulsing buzz

3:27 am Irregularly rhythmic. Blam Blam Bam Pause Blam blam bam pause long painful Blam Tatta tat tat ratta tat tat

5:00 am Blasted awake

5:15 am Reverbs continue, was planning on sleeping to seven. They woke me two hours early and for one and a half hours in the middle of the night

10:15 am Buzzed about ten min _____ Also two float planes flew over when I _____ & one surveillance vehicle when I left.

1:40 pm Buzzed when I got home from _____ Everett. As I enter my house the spies encamped at _____ house _____ of us start hammering away; and _____ slinks out of his house and moseys around the flower garden to monitor my activities. Ears are totally buzzed in house which only stops when I stand in kitchen in full view of the cameras posted at the house just north of us.

2:45 pm Totally Buzzing my ears & running power tools across street

THU October 16 7:45 pm Tried to sit on chair upright in front of heater and take a nap. Nap started.

8:15 pm They began "full body" homing in on me

8:30 pm Quit nap because fifteen min of vibrations made it impossible to sleep.

9:15 pm Sirens when opening bathroom window to let steam out

9:30 pm Sirens when I go to bedroom to sleep. Good thing I made copies this afternoon to ask official church people if I can sleep in my car on the premises, rather than "crashing" church parking lots in the middle of the night and leaving at dawn. .

9:41 pm Noise starts, two to three minutes after I lay down.

FRI October 17 2:12 am Woken by ringing ears, tossing & turning

3:07 am Woken by ringing ears, tossing & turning

5:29 am Woken

6:35 am Blasted constantly for one and a half hours until I finally got out of bed

6:47 am Went to end of pitch dark driveway w/nobody in sight anywhere and no lights on anywhere to pick up the newspaper. Spies were waiting for me. They’d been watching and acted out another charade to scare me. The home _____ a spy had been waiting for me to bend over & pick up the paper and turn my back to go inside. At that precise moment, in the dark carport, totally out of the ordinary morning, the spy clicked open and closed their pick-up truck door, turned the engine over as I approached my front door then drove off. Another typical, common psychological harassment hoax. No doubt they plotted for days on this one. Needless to say, this does not earn my trust in their people, it only makes me distrustful, cynical and suspicious of everything they do and say. Nightly torture in my bed, couch chair, car etc., only makes me sincerely doubt their entire organization. Are these Friendly Officers Kidding? I am still looking for the good guys.

2 pm Went to _____ to drop off a form that was late.

3:30 pm Buzzed loudly when I got home after quick detour @ Office Depot for copies

3:49 pm Incredibly noisy hum/racket outside

10:13 pm In bed, reving up starts

SAT October 19 12:03 am

Tossing & turning Bam Bam Bam

1:13 am Woken again ! Bam Bam Bam Blasted constantly all night long and woken on the hour (got tired of looking at watch)

5:19 am Woken early in the morning at which point it was slowly ratcheted up until it became unbearable at 6:20
6:20 am Forcing me out of the bed. Wide awake and totally bone tired exhausted

11:30 am Buzzed while standing by phone

4-4:30 pm Tracked by satellite on way home from Columbia City (Seattle) _____ on freeway my radio got incredibly poor reception until about the U-District when it got better. Upon exiting at 145^th noticed a Seattle Police officer had followed me, he passed on 145^th by Interlake as I got my mail.

4:40 pm Being buzzed as I write this in my bedroom. It is quite loud, incredibly irritating and I wish it would stop. This is a total invasion of my person, my body and my autonomous self. This is wicked.

SAT October 19 5-5:30 pm Talking to _____ on phone and when I obliquely mentioned (without saying the name _____) I was cut off from him, phone hung up. Also, buzzed when I got home, husband and son in house. _____ spied on me from _____ into our kitchen window. While I read magazines for half hour. Buzzed while in my bedroom assembling packages.

9:30 pm Ears buzzed @ _____. No cell, they used satellite on car transmitter

11:00 pm _____ W/ side spotlight silver driver’s spy @ Airport post office. I got there fast and as I was leaving he arrived. Good looking intense _____

11:41 pm Home, buzzed loudly in own bedroom. Left ear hurts. First time it has hurt in several days. When I’m good and obedient, they don’t punish me. When I am bad and mail things to congress they punish me. Total full skull reverb

SUN October 20 12:15 am They are so mad they even buzzed me in the bathroom.

5:00 am Woken up abruptly with buzz that remained loudly, while I lay still, until I got out of bed about forty-five min later.

6:10 am

8:19 am lay on chair in living room next to couch where my son was sound asleep. They had seen/known I was awake and reading the paper in the kitchen window but chose to buzz my ears the moment I lay down to sleep in the recliner chair w/ a blanket. Total body reverbs for a long time ten to twenty? Minutes until I fell asleep exhausted.

SUN October 20 10:19 am Was completely sound asleep in the recliner chair when, oddly my hands bent up at the wrist and fingers (in a fist), scrunched/rubbed together, This woke me totally and abruptly. To no buzz, no vibrations. I think they blasted a specific section of my brain briefly because in all my years I’ve never awoken in this manner, particularly from a deep sleep. My husband came out of his room, awake from a long night’s sleep, about five minutes later. Did they tinker with both of us in our sleep?

7:08 pm Buzzed whole body in lounge chair watching 60 minutes.

9:05 pm Buzzed in bathroom

9:09 pm Bedtime

9:17 pm They are like totally zapping me, totally and have been since ten seconds after I lay down.

10:50 pm Pain in left sinus, which usually indicates they’ve cranked up the amps.

10:50 pm Blasted wide awake

12:13 am Blasted wide awake, echoes off pillow

12:37 am Ears still blasted, still awake

12:45 am They’re revving it up again as a punishment for movement and writing things down.

MON October 21 am Sunday night torture to start Monday morning off badly.

1 am Got out of bed to write more letters of complaint, they ratcheted up the volume

1:50 am Sat in kitchen window snacking, husband came home from the movies ten minutes earlier, while in the kitchen with him the spies turned off the "homing device" that was targeting me.

2:12 am In bedroom, they’re buzzing me again.

MON October 21 2:21 am It hurts, they’re blasting me hard

2:40 am Full body home in then blasted w/something that made my lower torso jerk once. Or was it a dream? (ear ringing persists)

5:15 am Full body blasts wake me, no ear buzzing, I can hear the noise surround me two feet out. It feels as if my entire body is being jolted with low-grade electricity, Wide awake and exhausted from interrupted sleep and no sleep. Monday Morning. I can feel them pulse the vibs irregularly as if a human hand was simply wailing away on a button or leaver.

5:23 am Get out of bed to try sleeping elsewhere though I know this is futile. Rolled over & went back to sleep.

7:00 am Sitting at kitchen table, eyes cannot focus and entire brain is vibrating and will not stop for ten minutes, it is slowly fading.

7:20 am Did twenty min trampoline exercises because I’m experiencing considerable heart distress and pain from lack of aerobic exercise. First five minutes could barely stay centered and moved irregularly. After finishing my brain was still fuzzy and mushy and unable to focus. While getting dressed I was dizzy and uncertain of my balance. This is all unlike me, I’m flying at half mast. I am passive. Neutralized. Wiped-out.

8:36 am I feel like a frog gradually cooked to death in a frying pan as the heat was slowly turned up. It’s like being hung-over. People who are hung-over are reduced function or non-functional.

11:30 am Buzzed at Shoreline _____

MON October 21 12:45 pm Went to library to look up address in reference section. They know I’m here because of my cell.

1:05 pm At post office a _____ was posted at the end of the table not waiting in line. A spy. I looked at him a brief glance of suspicion, he looked at me. Neither of us liked each other and we both _____ made pains to pointedly ignore each other. He never saw what I was mailing and left just before me.

1:40 pm At Greenlake _____ I am buzzed upon arrival.

4:10 pm Driving home on freeway my brain is still fuzzy, micro-vibrating and out of whack. They are damaging my brain. I suffer irritating small mistakes because I can’t remember my own thoughts. Returning twice to the car for items, driving errors, slow at task execution and coordination when working. Brain is being cooked.

5:00 pm _____ vehicle @ _____ on approach # _____ Brain fried, ear ringing loud & most unpleasant. Yikes! Buzzed total body at _____

5:30 pm Notice large white paneled van turns off 145^th onto 1^st after exiting freeway. Were they following me and zapping me on the way home. During several hours of the day I’ve noticed the lowest level of total body vibrations, echos? Cellular memory?

6-8 pm Slept on couch in front of TV intermittently, again a few times lowest level of total body vibrations but nothing painful or irritating. They caused my leg to twitch precisely at 7 pm

9:20 pm Go to bed.

9:31 pm They’re revving it up. It is distinctly it.

11:19 pm Jolted awake. Loud reverb

1:07 am Woken again

3:00 am Woken again

3:07

TUE October 22 3:07 am After toying with me and pestering and harassing me all night long with repeated awakenings that deprive me of critical REM sleep the torture process has gotten down to hard tacks, again. I am wide awake and writing this only because the pitch and intensity has been increased to such an intensity. How long this will last, I don’t know though the typical period is forty-five minutes to the more common two hours. I am going to visit my church tomorrow because the spies have notified _____ which now has erected a chain fence where I usually park.

3:19 am I am beset with thoughts of suicide to escape this torture. I know it is wrong, I was never suicidal like this before this began, but I can’t help myself when they start pounding my brain when I’m trying to sleep, or when I’m out and about I get very upset and in the worst imaginable emotional state. They are torturing me deliberately. I’ve left my bedroom to get away.

3:22 am Now down on the chair in front of the heater where they’ve located me and both eardrums now hurt with a ‘bar’ of pain extending between the two across the middle of my head. I can hear them rev it up. I suspected tonight may be bad because they ‘cut back’ after that guy shouted at me ‘can you hear me’ in a menacing tone of voice. But, as usual, as the days wore on after cutting back they’ve been slowly increasing the harassment each night to where they totally fried my brains last night. My brain is twisted in knots as if I were going through severe caffeine withdrawal.

TUE October 22 3:47 am Went to _____ parking lot. Using the car transmitter, or simply by watching me from the sky, they tracked me here. They blasted me for about a minute when I parked. This must be a satellite. When they used a helicopter the other night when I was parked at a _____ I could actually "feel" the whump, whump, whump of the rotar blades within the vibrations they were blasting me with. That was rare. The first time I remember, actually. The rest of the time the blasts have been lacking that whump, whump, whump. Furthermore, when driving away from home I noticed the lights completely out at the neighbors houses. They must have equipment parked there that is accessed from thousands of miles away by some unknown group of people. Additionally the satellites are being used against me, along with the helicopters.

4:22 am Ran the engine five to ten minutes and they are now blasting my ears out. The transmitter must be hooked up to the electrical system somehow. This proves my lingering suspicions.

4:41 am Shoreline Police License # _____ cruised me at _____ I’m experiencing excruciating pains in my back under my shoulder blade and under my left chest. Breathing makes it hurt.

5:46 am Back home in bed, they started buzzing me shortly after I lay down and to further the agony woke me after twenty to thirty minutes by revving it up. Zapped the entire hour in my bed.

12:08 pm Sat in chair in front of heater upright to take a nap They buzzed me lightly several times

1:14 pm They buzzed me enough to wake me, went back to sleep.

1:28 pm They blasted me with a sharp all over zap that caused my entire body to jump involuntarily and totally jolt me awake as arms & legs flailed

TUE October 22 3:15 pm After going to my _____ church in _____ and being referred to the Olympic Diocese at 1551 10^th Ave E in Seattle who referred me to Noel House 2301 2^nd Ave Downtown Seattle (which was appallingly bad, for destitute, etc.) I went to the council of Churches who referred me to 4759 15^th NE Seattle to Seattle Baptist 1111 Harvard Seattle Stillpoint project. No one there. So at 2:45 pm lay in car to sleep in parking lot at Seattle Baptist. It took them half an hour to blast me at 3:15 at which point they total body buzzed me ten minutes later 3:25 and every few minutes thereafter. Funny though, they can hunt me down and fry me in a church parking lot in the middle of the afternoon because they know where I live, work, drive, tap all phones and have transmitters on the cars, but after two weeks still not have caught the DC Sniper. Perhaps it would help if he were already a sitting duck then the spies could mercilessly torture him as well. Like, what is their total problem? What is it about the constitution and Bill of Rights they don’t understand? Perhaps the sniper can give them some help by volunteering his whereabouts? Maybe even call to report the possibility of a crime occurring.

7:40 pm For half an hour or so I’ve felt as if I were being targeted again but oh so unable to be sure. At this point it’s been revved up to where I’m sure it’s happening. But this is the lightest experience of vibrations yet. The refrigerator motor running causes my ears to flicker in low vibrations and I have an all-over body sensation, as if I were nauseated or drunk, of which I’m neither, but do feel quite tired despite catching two naps, neither of which I actually slept through because 1) I was being zapped and 2) my son was driving home on his learners permit on the stop ‘n go freeway.

WED October 23 12:24 am Went to sleep on living room couch at 8 pm and son was in reclining chair sleeping with TV on. They started to buzz me at 12:24 and woke me for the first time. Did not have my notepad with me but looked at the TV clock every time I woke. It was about every hour on the hour.

10:00 am lay down for nap

10:05 am Buzzing starts, very low

10:15 am They got my whole body engulfed

10:28 am Startled awake w/arms and legs flailing, one jolt

2:53 pm Zapped in ears in driveway, when I get home

10:27 pm Bedtime, reverbs start within thirty seconds

10:40 pm Revved up and blasting away moderately loud, hope it doesn’t get worse, ‘cuz then it hurts bad now it’s just unpleasant & uncomfortable & wide awake

THU October 24 12:10 am One and a half hours later, Went to pee, did they wake me? I don’t know, Blasted for ten minutes upon returning

4:10 am Blasted awake out of a deep sleep. Way too uncomfortable to sleep, will try chair in front of heater, Don’t want my brains fried out like has happened several times before when I stay or try to sleep thru. When I stay in bed and they fry my brains out it aches for several one, two, three, hours and as it wears off during the day I realize slowly how bad it was until the end of the day ten to twelve hours later when it is mostly cleared up. Do not wish to be impaired for 10-12 hours

4:27 am _____ parking lot trying to sleep sitting upright in car

4:32 am Wow, I’m sitting here and my brain hurts especially sinuses hurts, they fried me again last night.

THU October 24 4:45 am Wow I still can’t believe they totally fried my brain

4:58 am They homed in on me, my whole body tingles, its so familiar. Must be airplanes or satellites

5:34 am Fried again woken up

5:51 am woken, buzzed

6:19 am woken, buzzed

6:30 am left for home

6:40 am arrive home, buzzed

6:46 am listening to music in car, they blast my ears left alone all day long while doing my own housework

5:00 pm buzzed at _____

5:41 pm Buzzed loudly at home when son freaks out that I cleaned his room J

8:31 pm Bedtime

8:36 pm Buzzing begins

11:57 pm Buzzed to wake me to roll over, ow! This hurts!

FRI October 25 12:02 am So I go outside and my husband’s van is parked in the driveway! The Friendly Officers knew this from the video cameras posted in at least two neighbor’s houses. They deliberately blasted my ears painfully to cause me such discomfort I’d leave the house knowing I’d have to WAKE MY HUSBAND in the middle of the night to get the keys to move the van. They deliberately interfere hostilely with our family’s interactions in the privacy of our home using information gleaned from neighbors videos, bugs monitoring our entire home’s conversations and tortuous military weapons that reach inside my body while I lay in my bed.

12:35 am I’ve been away from the house for half hour and my ears ! That blast was deliberate and intentional.

FRI October 25 1:24 am Sleeping @ _____ Took a long time to fall asleep, then slept well

6:30 am Came home did various chores, folded laundry

7:20-7:25 am Suddenly in kitchen felt quite dizzy, out of the blue.

7:35 am I’m still quite dizzy, I don’t understand why. Wanted _____ to drive, to be safe, he wants to sleep. Hope I don’t have an accident.

8:05 am I’m by U-District driving when I realize the whole top of my head hurts as if I’ve been blasted. When I first went into the kitchen this morning I put up the window covering/drape that prevents the camera in our neighbor to the _____ from spying on us at our kitchen table around 8:45 But when _____ sat down for breakfast 7:10-7:20 he (as usual) took down the curtain. That’s when the spies blasted me. Funny though, I didn’t feel any vibs, buzz, pain, or anything else. Just a sudden onset of dizziness, a symptom.

8:14 am Headed away from _____ dizziness reduced by half but feel yuckey, it’s a headache on the top of my head only. Like the scalp & bone only.

8:25-8:30 am So a guy in a _____ (like the one on the _____ typing my second report [of 19 pages]-never type again) and several panels of flashing lights cruises by me in the middle lane, think he _____ Could this be a spy? I speed up on his right, it takes many moments because I’m a slow driver. Pass him and glance at him and _____ (They always do this when I "make" them.) Then he _____(They always do this next as well. They always do this too!) Then I pull behind him and over one lane to his left, then pull up right by him and give him a big, shit-eating grin like a Cheshire cat. Twice. (My hair was perfect on head, glistening pink vibrant lipstick against the background of a tight black top.) It was like I was flirting with a stranger. Oh! Woops I thought, "What if he’s not a spy?" I dropped back, right behind him. _____ (They always do that too.)(He’s a spy.)

9:24 am After stopping by _____ for food and bringing it all in the house many trips. Was standing by the phone when they gave me TWO DIZZY BLASTS. I’m now sitting at the (window covered) kitchen window and brain is fuzzy. Trying to recover. The first blast this morning took about one and a half hours to recover fully clear headed.

9:46 am Oh man, my brain is so fussy I can barely think. I feel retarded. I’m dull and slow, the thought of doing this other writing project for _____ id saunting. Just behind my sinuses, middle center between the eyes, but way back it feels like fuzzy, crinkly fuzz. Higher level, complex thought excapes me, plus there’s another fuzzy spot up from that to the right between my right ear and right eye. Ugh.

FRI October 25 9:53 am Something hits kitchen window, sounds like a clod of dirt. Birds used to to this all the time by the feeder, but the feeder at the other window has been empty for over six months. Did they throw something at the window with the drape on it?

10:34 am Went to bathroom, still very dizzy, darn, they really sapped me

11:00 am Went to living room, not dizzy anymore one and a half hours recovery

5:06 pm Buzzed at _____

5:22 pm All over body blast so bad I get out of the cr to get away. Low vibrations wave, nothing else. Symptomless except as I walk away I notice I feel nauseated, but not from the stomach. It’s dizzy. My equilibrium is off.

5:57 pm Waiting for _____ to finish his _____ calculus test and am feeling yucky. Realize they blasted me real good again.

9:58 pm Bedtime

10:10 pm revved up quite unpleasantly

SAT October 26 Illegible _____ is watching TV and _____ has his lights on the driveway to better take pictures. Funny as I write this they’ve turned off the lights. Hoping I’ll make faces at their camera that takes photos in the dark?

1:50 am _____ Church they’re homing in on me from the airplane & blasting away it is disagreeable

3:24 am They’ve been blasting me constantly

4:14 am Since I parked but now they’re revving it They’ve been upping the blasts till it’s both ears and they won’t let me sleep. It’s been constant. I am profoundly unhappy, words do not describe it.

6:12 am Woken up, why?

6:15 am They’re blasting me, they woke me up early

6:43 am They are double barrel blasting me. I just want to sleep.

7:28 am They stopped. They finally stopped. After blasting me awake for the last 1 ½ hours I’m finally completely wide awake. And totally exhausted. Essentially I did not get any sleep last night.

7:34 am They must have caught Illegible

7:45 am A halo of surround sound not in my head I came home about 7:45-8 am

9:00 am Ate breakfast read paper. I am awake, alert doing things but am to tell, sapped. I have no drive, no direction and the thought of arranging many necessary tasks for the day and interacting appropriately with people seems daunting. I want to crawl up into a shell and go to sleep but know if I do that they will only blast me with vibs and torture me more. I truly wish I did not exist. My brain is fuzzy static, I can’t tune it into the channel. Poor reception. Weak batteries

Illegible

10:15 pm Buzzing starts in front of TV. Went outside to get my book. Funny lights blazing across street.

10:22 pm Quite loud now. I have been sitting in this chair since 7:15 pm, but only at a good time to fall asleep do the spies start using their fancy torture equipment in their homes, pointed at me, only now do they start to blast away at me. Funny coincidence.

10:36 pm It stopped, it stopped

11:15 pm They start again, in front of TV w/husband and son

11:17 pm In bed

SUN October 27 4:17 am Woken abruptly buzzing in ears

4:23 am This is quite unpleasant, obviously they plan on continuing this, as usual, for a long time until I’m completely rousted from my bed in the privacy of my home.

4:26 am Sitting up writing this, it hurts, enough to get me out of the house. These people are such Friendly Officers. Nice to know they represent the United States government. Have a Nice Day.

4:40 am Peed, brushed teeth, socks & shoes, coat, pillow, blanket, going to sleep in car at _____ because for the last two days my windshield wiper is broken in the ON position in the Chevy. Sitting up. Drag.

4:48 am _____ Parking lot. Wide awake, right ear still hurts. They succeeded. They’re buzzing me here right now as I write this from the airplane (not Satellite?) mentioned in Newsweek.

6:30 am Parked next to me slammed the opening door directly into my door waking me from deep sleep. Probably not spy. Now from my movement my ears are being buzzed. Illegible

SUN October 27 7:30-7:42 am Warmed up car and they’re buzzing my ears now

7:56 am Buzzed in car in driveway SWITCH TO DAYLIGHT SAVINGS – Back one hour

8:27 am Was reading the Sunday papers and eating breakfast in front of open kitchen window and went upstairs to get something. They are doing a halo vibrations now. 2 feet out surrounding me. Ringing in ears

8:29 am Slowly intensifies after two to three minutes.

9:42 am Slept for forty minutes on living room couch. Was sound asleep but inexplicably woke abruptly with my body jerking me awake to hear ringing in my ears.

12:53 pm Buzzed in parked car @ Greenlake _____ float plane flies over

1-4 pm Could propound extensively on yesterday’s _____ and today’s _____ at Greenlake. Bottom line, on both days I was buzzed repeatedly, whether alone or with others, on all three floors of the house. Sometimes in open windows, sometimes away from windows in the basement. Yesterday I had my cell on me. Today NO CELL PHONE. Somehow they successfully targeted me, and picked me out from others standing nearby, sight unseen in a 3,000 sq ft house. The implications are mind boggling. Furthermore, at this point they are locating me and torturing me, they have not yet decided to eliminate me. It would be so simple. Fun even. [for them]

SUN October 27 8:19 pm They’ve been buzzing me for the past hour or so while I sat next to my husband watching 60 minutes & world series (last game)

8:19 pm Bedtime, now they’re revving it up 8:23 pm

10:14 pm I’ve been fried awake, they’re blasting me hard, from a deep sleep after less than two hours

10:25 pm Horrible foot cramp completely wakes me up.

10:30 pm It stopped, It stopped

10:30 pm As I write this it started again. Movement? Flashlight?

12:13 am Fried awake

2:12 am Woken again to loud vibs/buzzing in ears

MON October 28 2:19 am Why am I not surprised? They are throbbing it Blam Blam Blam

2:19 am Night it’s a steadily ascending for five of so seconds w/one or two beats then steady for a minute or two. Then steady descending for ten to fifteen seconds w/two to three beats, for a few minutes then steady ascending for ten to twenty seconds w/ no beats.

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Such Friendly Officers. Obviously they are taking delivering in their dreary boredom at finding slightly new variations on the basic theme of torture. It must be so difficult for them, sitting at their electronic consoles hundreds, if not thousands of miles, away. To think of something new every night (and day) while they while away the tedium of endless moments that need to be occupied with attack, attack, attack.

MON October 28 2:30 am They’re still going at it.

2:38 am They’re riding the controls now, just sitting on them. Oh, yeah, it’s Sunday night, they like to ruin my Monday morning. It’s raining outside. I’m getting the idea they’re not letting up and all I can do is leave the house. This will only get slowly worse if I stay. They have no mercy. They only feign a temporary reprieve before upping the ante and attacking with renewed vigor.

2:42 am Quite off kilter as I walk downstairs. Equilibrium is thrown off, it’s more than the pain, it’s the brain damage as well. True, it is low-grade, impaired function. Can’t remember things, make two to three times as many small mistakes throughout the day, been forgetting to lock car door. Most unusual and atypical. cannot gather together multiple thread thoughts to a coherent learning track. Seem permanently set on fuzzy static in the middle of my brain. Haven’t done my aerobic trampoline regularly one to two times per day in months. I had done if for three years almost every day, solid. Now I’m so tired and thrown out of whack and using all inner resources simply to function and go to work _____ there’s nothing left over at the end of the day. Having heart pains. Congestive heart failure runs in the family. Aerobic exercise is the best preventative for that ailment.

3:00 am Wide awake. Headed for _____ because wipers on Malibu (for sleeping prone) are broken. It’s upright in the Honda Civic. They can hear me leave through the phone.

MON October 28 3:00 am They stopped the buzzes and vibrations for the last five to eight minutes while I prepared to leave. Not fooled. If I stay It’ll be ratcheted up again thirty to fifty minutes as I have fallen asleep. They will follow and trail me with airplanes and satellites and attack me in the car like they always do. However, they have half the torture equipment. The house _____ is loaded with electronic equipment. Likely that equipment can be accessed and controlled from long distance _____ at the _____ station _____ Shoreline police use it as undercover vehicles. My right ear hurts and the inside of my brain hurts.

3:26 am They’ve homed in on the car and are buzzing my right ear.

4:40-4:45 am Several full-body blasts

5:15 am Another full body blast-they won’t let me sleep anywhere

5:50 am Another full body blast

6:25 am Did not sleep at all at _____ Have been awake since 2:30. Tired, wired, exhausted with a full day ahead of me _____ followed me to intersection of 155^th & Densmore

7:05 am Buzzed in bathroom at home

10:15 am Buzzed in car @ Ravenna

1:27 pm Buzzed in car leaving Ravenna

1:38 pm Buzzed in car at Greenlake

5:00 pm Buzzed at _____

5:05 pm They paused for a few minutes, then resumed again. Only now they’re really nailing me. Forty minutes of harassment.

MON October 28 6:10 pm Buzzed upon arrival home

8:25 pm Mildly stressed out and anxious because I know the next ten hours will be torture, literally. This entire ordeal is a sick exercise of pathological cruelty. Furthermore, a nagging thought about the _____ briefcase was stolen out of _____ truck. Twelve accounts, palm pilot, etc. Who really did it? Also, other things make me quite suspicious. Like the liberal congressman’s airplane shot down. If these zaps can be aimed at me in strange homes talking to strangers, while I drive, why not a couple of pilots in a storm? Who would know the difference? Absolutely no one. And no one would believe it anyway. Even though I’ve been zapped and and especially night for two months I think it audacious that eight people would be deliberately shot down by out military to eliminate political enemies in congress. This just does not happen in America. It has to be engine problems of some sort. It just has to.

8:42 pm Bedtime

8:45 pm Dreaming vibration start

12:47 am Woken to pain in head/ears. Should I go or stay?

2:06 am Blasted ears again

2:20 am Wide awake for constant blasting, now they’re fading it out. Airplane flies overhead, it starts again

TUE October 29 2:24 am I have to leave the house

2:45 am _____ parking lot _____ BUZZED briefly

3:04 am Paused for awhile, now they’re homing in and slowly ratcheting it up

3:57 am Abruptly woken, why?

4:17 am Whole body vibrates and woken abruptly

6:04 am woken abruptly Several more sharp, brief zaps that I slept through without writing down the time.

TUE October 29 8:32 am

See float plane and hear airplane overhead. Ears buzzed at Montlake

4:46 pm Ears buzzed in car home driveway, lout reverberation when in house

5:40 pm Crashed exhausted on couch in front of TV. Husband said he’d be watching 6:00 news hour. I said I’d be watching it too. Slept through the entire thing.

7:00 pm Body involuntarily moved. I thought I was turning over in my sleep.

7:00-8:00 pm Entire body involuntarily moved. Arms & legs flailed. I thought it was restless sleep.

8:00 pm Could swear my entire body was sapped when Nova show on Galileo came on and my husband sat down in lounge chair.

8:00-9:00 pm More involuntary flailing of body. It begins with a solar plexus "crunch" and then arms & legs jerk with abandon. I feel nothing except the "crunch," arms & legs moving and an electrical shock type zap in the lower half of my arms and legs. Nothing else. Nothing in my ears, nothing in my brain, no verbs, no vibs nothing except the jolt and the flailing of extremities.

9:30 pm Get off couch to write this. Wide awake.

10:00-10:20 pm Twenty minutes aerobic exercise on trampoline. For two years I did exercise on the trampoline for a minimum of twenty minutes per day, either morning or evening. The six months prior to this I had gradually worked up to thirty minutes and thirty minutes . Additionally, I was in the process of increasing the time to forty to forty-five minutes each morning and evening. One and a half hours a day was my norm before the past two months of government sponsored TORTURE. If I do twenty minutes a week now I’m lucky. Having significant heart pain. Used to bathe one to two times a day now bathe once every two days. I’m miserable. And failing fast.

TUE October 29 Package sent to congressman Phil Graham returned opened yesterday afternoon. FBI retaliating against Seattle Police by doing a ‘sting’ operation on a Broadway officer.

11:15 pm Buzzed w/ loud reverbs upon returning from purchasing batteries for son’s calculator for calculus homework he needs pronto. This is quite different than usual. Feels like ten feet out entire body encircled by energy field.

WED October 30 12:19 am Go back to sleep on couch

12:38 am Full body fry

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1:05 am Head involuntarily jerked to right, full body zap

2:27 am woken

3:25 am woken

5:06 am woken, buzzed low grade for hours with periodic jolts (seemed like every hour)

6:30 am Buzzed the entire evening for six hours at a low level with hourly periodic jolts that make me awaken and turn in bed involuntarily.

6:39 am Upon waking fully my entire body has a yucky tingle to it and I’m exhausted. They could hear me toss and turn all night from the phone. There is a constant pain in my chest that was never there before. Skipping morning bath, too tired. These people are sadistic, voyeuristic torturers.

WED October 30 apx 11:00 am While _____ they determined my location _____ sight unseen and blasted me with a buzz. Upstairs by phones, faxes were two women talking _____ mid-level was my cell. I was in the basement, no windows nearby and buzzed in the center hallway. They can find my location anywhere, in any building and attack me. They can do this to anyone.

2:30 pm Buzzed when in car in home driveway

5:00 pm Buzzed at _____ big tree.

6:20 pm Sick, sleeping on couch in living room

8:00 pm Buzzed when program changes

11:00 pm Wake up, was buzzed CONSTANTLY while trying to sleep on couch. They could hear & see me through cameras at _____ house. I made preparations to get comfortable because I’m sick. Unplugged frig, turned down heater, turned off lights, took temperature, drank water took aspirin. So they figured out I’m sick and miserable. What do they do?

11:30 pm Ratchet up the vibs, non-stop.

11:40 pm Leave house, what can I say about these Friendly Officers, you know the words.

11:50 pm Stopped by Shoreline Police for one headlight out. The guy warned me and sent me home. No doubt, the "eye in the sky" notified them.

12:00 am Home and switching to the Honda sleeping sitting upright. Got gas for tomorrow.

THU October 31 Drove up & down Aurora

12:34 am _____ parking lot, very cold

3:30 am nose runny, sinuses swelling, Allerest wore off aspirin too

4:00 am Home, peed medicine

5:15 am Fried awake w/two good solid blasts I woke coughing

6:30 am Alarm woke me

8:30 am _____ to school

9:24 am Sick, sleep on couch, unplugged frig, ringer on phone off, cell silent mode.

10:07 am woken abruptly

11:00 am woken, they made the FAX machine mechanism make noise

12:32 pm Fried again on couch w/ good jolt, entire back aches.

1:00 pm another jolt around 1

3:22 woken by but, they made the FAX machine mechanism make noise.

THU October 31

Very sick Thursday night, they left me alone

Very sick Friday all day, they left me alone

Very sick Friday night, they left me alone

SAT November 2 :10 pm Briefly buzzed _____ worked hard till late

5:40 pm left job, went home bone tired exhausted watched TV w/ husband in living room

10:30 pm Finally got him to leave so I could sleep on couch

SUN November 3

Have noticed in my sleep they’ve been buzzing me.

12 am Think they started around midnight.

12:30 am Woke up because with a head full of phlegm it is annoying

12:40 am Wide awake and profoundly irritated got about one and a half hours sleep after working a long, hard and physically demanding day’s work on a cold. The _____ came by tonight for one to two hours to see _____

12:46 am They stopped

SUN November 3 12:48 am They started back again two minutes later. So all I can think about, now I’m wide awake and too sick to sleep in the car on a cold night about twenty-five degrees, is how they tracked my whereabouts this past Wednesday. It was a brand new house I’d never been in before a split-level, four level home, there were two people on the top two-bedroom level. Come to think of it the husband may have come home as well, which makes three others in the house. I was _____ in the bottom, basement level. There were no windows to my recollection. Although there were a couple of small ones off the bathroom up one short mezzanine level. When I turned _____ is when I noticed I was being buzzed. My presence was located and targeted among the others in a new house. Anyone anywhere in the entire world could be so targeted, sight unseen, within a windowless building and have their friggin brains fried to smithereens. I’m lucky I’m still alive, it’s only because they want to use me. What will they do when my usefulness is exhausted? What will they do with anyone else they deem so unworthy? They must already have a list. Would it be an honor to be on their list, or just a scary thing?

1:03 am I can hear the helicopter overhead. Which reminds me, my husband and I had a serious disagreement Friday night, and they sent a helicopter buzzing directly over our house. What were they planning on doing? We’ve gotten through twenty-five years with countless serious disagreements and weathered the storms well enough. Now the government sends out helicopters and the troops. Get real.

SUN November 3 1:07 am

They stopped the buzzing

1:09 am I went to the bathroom, they could view me through the kitchen window, listen through the phone and buzzed my brain while I peed on the toilet. Friendly, huh?

1:11 am They’re back at it because I moved.

2:38 am I’ll try to sleep still on the couch.

4:25 am Zapped w/ full body jolt that crunches my lower torso and flails my legs

4:55 am Ear is buzzed continuously again

7:28 am They’re blasting me awake my whole body is vibrating, before the illegible

7:32 am I was sound asleep, now I’m wide awake. A miserable night of government spies and torture. Your taxpayer dollars at work, on an innocent citizen who simply phoned her girlfriend an arson investigator to report a possible, potential crime. Over a year’s worth of investigations in an attempt to blackmail me and countless attempts to frame me with charades, hooks and rouses. Finally, they rely on an old fall-back _____ torture, cruel and inhumane treatment. Search and seizure of the sickest kind. They will never stop, obviously this has been done before, successfully and they plan on doing this in the future to countless unsuspecting victims. They will succeed in breaking me. They will get what they want from me, truth or lies.

7:53 am Still laying in bed, obviously they won’t stop until I am out of the couch and walking around. Behavior control, most creepy.

SUN October 3 7:54 am I am being forced to be ambulatory and seem by my behavior that being wide awake and walking around is a personal choice. It is not. I was abruptly awaken from a deep sleep, could have slept three to four hours more, and forced out of bed to avoid continual torment. This is indescribably cruel. My head is throbbing with vibrating phlegm in the sinuses, ears ringing and I’m exhausted. To my unsuspecting family I appear normal and well only because I do not complain to them and what little they know they simply disbelieve. It is too farfetched for even the most intimate of living companions. I am trapped and lost and tortured while living a seemingly free life. I live in a prison of surveillance that allows invisible, unknown entities to 24/7 monitor my every move and torture me at will leaving no evidence behind.

1:30 pm _____ at 1 p and the reverberating buzz in my right ear began about 1:30 pm. It does not stop temporarily as usual but continues for 1 ¼ hours slowly, gradually increasing in volume.

2:45 pm They really start blasting away at me now.

3:00 pm It is so painful I start crying in the corner of the kitchen tears flowing down my face and on my dress. My face is scrunched and red.

3:15 pm They back is off after half an hour of shear agony. But continue the irritating, annoying buzz. I start to have bleak, bad thoughts on how to stop this torture.

4:00 pm Essentially they stop it.

5:45 pm Home and a family friend is visiting. He speaks to me and the neighbors set off their alarms loud.

SUN November 3 5:45 pm I move the car so the friend T.B. can get out, all the while the sirens are blasting away. When I get back in the house my ears have a sharp, persistent pain in both eardrums. I realize they have given me a super charged, brief, pounding zap and stopped the buzzing. Vibrations so all I experience for ½ hour is absolute pain in my ears.

6:15-7:15 pm completely bone tired exhausted in bed

7:25 pm As soon as I pulled back the drape to open the bedroom window for air they started buzzing me. Could they see me at night with cameras posted?

8:30 pm Coughing fit totally blasted to the ears ache

MON November 4 12:25 am Inexplicably woken out of a deep sleep, no buzz, no vibs. Went downstairs to blame my son, he said he’d been making the same noise since 8pm. They must have sent a brief zap or jolt through to wake me.

12:50 am Wend downstairs to tell son to turn down music.

12:52 am Can hear the slight buzz in the distance, they’re now working me over again. How long will this last? Severe anxiety severe exhaustion

12:57 am They’re revving it up

2:23 am Woke inexplicably again, ears lightly buzzed

2:28 am They’re revving it up and reverbing it

5:29 am Woken out of the blue

6:15 am Buzzed awake again, it continues for 15 minutes

8:20 am Returning home from dropping _____ off at school. I cannot listen to the radio because both ears hurt so much.

8:35 am They buzz me so much when I enter the home I want to scream. They will only throw me in jail.

MON November 4 This is so cruel and sick on their part I am dumbstruck. Are they kidding? Can this be for real? The only logical explanation is that these . Simply put.

4 pm Buzzed _____ , ride home told my son everything in general terms, he totally does

not believe anything I said. !!

7:14 pm Go to bed. They set off their alarms. Such pests. Occasionally buzzed lightly during the night, slept through it.

TUE November 5 12:35 am

Woke, tossed ‘n turned, the buzzing started. It’s louder now

12:41 am Go downstairs, pee, water, wash face. Notice eyes are very bloodshot, highly unusual for me. Nose bleed. Also earlier Monday afternoon, about 2 pm, when blowing nose and totally clearing sinuses above eyes, it was mostly bloody.

12:54 am Back to bed, they’ve been buzzing me constantly. It hurts

1:11 am In kitchen, will sleep in front of lighted window at kitchen table.

1:19 am They’re sending helicopters overhead.

1:43 am They’re buzzing me.

Illegible

2:51 am They’ve been buzzing me, just zapped me , body zap arms legs flail

TUE November 5 3:03 am All over full body tingle/buzes

3:20 am The absolute worst ever total body blast !! It was like a nightmare, my arms lifted up and for nineteen seconds my entire body was buzzing, no electrocuted, I was immobilized, ears filled w/noise and it was truly horrible. My arms were suspended mid air and I was immobilized while they shot me.

I am appalled they would do this to anyone. I’m now convinced this is what they did to Senator Wellstone’s pilot. This and worse is my lot If I don’t fully cooperate.

The bloody nose is not from my cold, it’s from being zapped. My entire brain must be shot through and through w/ seeping, broken capillaries like the bloodshot eyes.

5:00 am _____ Woke up, he was upset I was sleeping on the kitchen table. I told him. I fit on the table well and it was cozy.

5:15 am Total body jolt arms legs flailed once.

7:00 am Got off the kitchen table and out of bed

8:13 am Dropped _____ , pulled over to do paperwork am now being buzzed in ear.

TUE November 5 7:00 pm Decided to sleep on the couch

7:25 pm They did a hang-up phone call and woke me up. Went upstairs to try my bedroom. Am now thinking of what to do to stop another inevitable night of torture. Sick thoughts are going through my mind. This is a bad thing. I already have a headache.

7:34 pm They’ve started the vibrations. I hear them.

7:50 pm It is persistently loud and now, blam blam blam I’m wide awake.

12:00 am midnight Buzzed awake in both ears

WED November 6 12:57 am

Wide awake, they’ve been blasting me for an hour continuously low grade.

1:26 am They ratcheted it up during the last half hour and my eardrums, left especially, hurt. Wide awake middle of night for one and a half hours.

2:40 am They’re ratcheting it up again, both ears are buzzing. They’ve never stopped the noise. It’s been going constantly for two and three quarters hours now.

2:52 am They’re blasting me wide awake with reverberating, irregularly patterned varooms and sputters. My whole skull is inundated with noise.

2:57 am Both eardrums hurt now

3:14 am 2^nd Full Body Blast that caused my lower back to arch and body move. Both within the last 5-10 minutes. Ears still blasting

3:46 am Throbbing splitting headache, they’re still blasting continuously

WED November 6 3:50 am Went downstairs to pee. Came back to bed to discover they’ve ratcheted it up a notch.

7:18 am Woke up. Twelve and a half hours in bed to get a terrible nights sleep. I sleep nine to nine and a half hours normally and consistently. Laying in bed like this is very bad for my heart, health and a total waste of time.

The extra free hours of my day are being squandered, trashed and frittered away on interminable hours of torture time in the middle of the night. The rest of my day my mind is fuzzy, unfocused and my personality has definitely taken a change for the worse. Every morning instead of the usual perky chipper me staring back in the mirror I face a dark, drawn haggard frown with a bad attitude and weary, cynical eyes. Then the struggle to get through the day and appear nonchalant and normal begins.

9:35 am Outside in front yard fixing the broken Right headlight on Malibu (They told SP about this in an attempt to get me ticketed, they want to wreck financial ruin on me, so FRIENDLY). Then they have a helicopter hovering directly overhead, preceded by the OH SO FRIENDLY and OH SO NOISLY CURIOUS neighbors _____ street who just so coincidently happen to take out the garbage at the same time.

10:00 am Went to schucks for new bulb, back home and the helicopters are circling. Still blowing seriously bloody snot out of my sinuses.

WED November 6 10:10 am Now there’s two helicopters overhead, possibly three

10:40 am Gave them the finger, these same people who cruelly and sadistically attack me day and night are pretending to ‘protect’ me and oh, I’m at a loss of words. I wish I did not exist. This entire thing stinks. They are criminals.

3:35 pm Buzzed when I got home

9:29 pm Go to bed upstairs

11:25 Went to pee

11:33 They’re very, very lightly buzzing right ear.

THU November 7 2:38 am

Woken buzzing in both ears

6:19 am Airplane overhead, both ears buzzed

8:39 am Buzzed in house when returned home

6:30 pm-10:00 pm Fell asleep on couch in living room

10:00-11:00 pm Watched TV w/husband, he left for his bedroom, I stayed on couch

11 pm Buzzing starts, far away and dim in both ears, I go to bathroom to pee

11:16 pm They’re revving it up, it’s getting to be annoying, can’t just fall back asleep.

11:20 pm Decided to do paperwork for another mailer since the cruel torture for three to five hours in the middle of the night would be a waste of time lying in bed tossing and turning.

11:50 pm They’re ratcheting it up even more, it is getting very annoying.

FRI November 9 12:45 am

Wrote addresses for about an hour then went downstairs to eat, Reverbs stopped downstairs

1:00 am Came back to try to go to sleep, they would not let me

1:08 am Resumed writing addresses

FRI November 9 1:50 am Finished addresses. Try to go back to sleep

1:55 am They had stopped buzzing me while I was sitting up by my bedside writing. But now I’m laying down to stop it’s both ears blammo reverberating.

5:28 am Woken up

6 am 10 am or so siren vehicles blockade near 145^th & Aurora

6:15 pm Silence except helicopter overhead

6:35 pm They stopped buzzing me, helicopters overhead

9:00 pm Buzzed in bathroom and living room

9:49 pm Buzzed in bed upstairs

9:53 pm They’ve already ratcheted it up so my right ear hurts.

Constant low-level buzzing all night long for which I was too totally exhausted to make notes about. But, at one point my central nervous system was quick fried to cause my left hand to spasm and clench and twitch. It was weird and quite unusual.

Also, when the electricity went out yesterday morning Friday at seven am and I came back in the house around 8:45 am I commented to my husband (running late because alarm failed to go off) that the phone was off and spies could not eves drop on us. Ten minutes later they buzzed my ears. They must have back-up-bugs planted in the house.

SAT November 9 11-12 am Buzzed in two _____ at _____ .

11 pm Buzzed in bathroom @ home and also when standing near son.

SAT November 9 11:39 pm Bedtime being buzzed

SUN November 10 3:22 am Wake coughing, my whole body is "humming." Then moments later, after I turn over, the buzz begins.

6:43 am Fried my brains out in both ears ringing deliberately waking me up way too early after being up late because I went to the post office at the airport last night. Exhausted

6:48 am Trying to sleep on the couch in the living room. My whole head hurts and is ultra vibrating. I feel sick.

6:53 am Oh my god, it’s like my ear canals are burning. Needless to say I’m not a happy camper. Actually, I’m livid.

7:01 am They started buzzing me loud on the couch,

7:04 am They’re blasting me again and refuse to let me sleep. I’m giving up. I’ll be a zombie today. Once again it is successful ‘behavior modification’ total control of my personal being in my home. Obviously, under closer contact with these people I will be under their dominion, have NO FREE WILL and completely cowed into absolute obedience. I will end up being their puppet and do and say whatever they want. I think this is evil. 7:08 am They are having fun revving it up and down and blasting me with different rhythms. They buzzed me in the kitchen, bathroom

7:20 am Took shower, they stopped buzzing me

8:10 am They’re at it again

8:30 am Am now at _____ Books in Lake Forest Park cuddled into a big chair where I plan to sleep for three hours. No cell phone.

SUN November 10 8:51 am There’s a word for it, can’t think of the word. My cells still have "memory". It’s an after effect Like they are cooling down. Body still vibrating

9:43 am Why did I wake up?

9:51 am Why do I feel that slight tingling buzz as if they’re starting to home in on me? Some guy is walking around me stomping his heels for five minutes now.

9:54 am The guy in the electric wheelchair buzzed me again.

10:12 am Total body jolt. Arms & legs flailing. The guy w/ the shoes walks by and looks at me awake and writing notes. So sharp and brief it feels like my own startle reflex, but I know it’s not. How? Because it was sharp and the lower spine in hips and tailbone tingles.

10:22 am Oh god, I’m having heart pains. Is it an empty stomach?

10:31 am Funny how when they zap fry you it is so difficult to fall back asleep. All my nerve endings are ‘aware’ and tingling. Now wide awake. Going home.

11:07 am Still feeling the after effects of being jolted awake at the restaurant. Now sitting at the kitchen table trying to read paper. Wide awake. Better rested. Mind not fuzzy, but clear with a big empty space.

1-4 pm I think there were a couple of mystery shoppers the _____ and the _____ No cell phone – no buzzing or tracking of me.

9 pm Buzzed briefly when _____ took _____ home.

9:29 pm Hang up phone call for _____, it’s the spies again. They do it to him a lot. Attack Attack Attack Went downstairs to pee, now in bed they’re homing in on me.

1:24 am

1:27 am Loud hum reverbing in Right ear increases steadily to full bore blasting

1:35 am Patterned reverb begins

4:00 am Rolled over in bed, now it’s reverberating humming profoundly irritating, waking me up. Despicable it hurts I’m exhausted I don’t know why they keep pestering me sick thoughts are going through my mind again I feel like crying.

4:21 am _____ parking lot trying to sleep sitting up in the car. They gave me a headache.

4:32 am They’re homing in on the car, they’re targeting me I feel that same funny buzz in my chest cavity I felt minutes before in bed.

5:47 am Buzzed in car

6:47 am Woke up and left for home

12:00 pm Mailed three ‘whatever’ packages, buzzed constantly in my room while working on it both before & after

8-9 pm Post office ____ & _____ closed

9:37 pm Bedtime & they’re buzzing me LOUD. They’re not happy campers I’m mailing things. Again.

12:51 am Totally blasted awake

12:59 am It hurts so bad I went to pee and drink water.

TUE November 12 1:05 am Of course they heard everything through the hung up phone and saw everything with the cameras pointed at the kitchen window on our neighbor’s property. Back in bed the attacks resume. There is no escape. I am tracked wherever I go. I leave the house they follow me and attack. I go to another room it’s attack attack attack. They will get all the lies they want from me because If I do not perform they will kill me and my family. I know they can do it and easily get away with it. There is no one around to investigate them. It would be swept under the rug. This is the message they have delivered to me, "You lie, or this is how you will die."

1:16 am On kitchen table

1:18 am They are blasting me here again as well, relentlessly

1:25 am Not only are my ears humming but there’s now lots of body Illegible

So what’s the problem? They can see me safe and sound. Airplanes / helicopters overhead.

1:48 am It stopped

1:45 am It started again

5:54 am Tossed and turned, they started buzzing me.

6:00 am Wide awake but lay there

6:45 am Got up and did the morning

Was this an entire day with no buzzing? I can barely believe it.

3:20 pm Lay down on couch for nap, tossed and turned a few times

4:40 pm Could swear they jolted me with a full body blast only because it was quite mild. My left leg, which was up at an angle, suddenly twitched out and went straight and there was the tell-tale tingling in the lower spine tailbone at the pelvis.

4:45 pm Got off the couch to write this. Look at the day as how much sleep they let me have. At their mercy. They have none.

TUE November 12 4:54 pm Could swear they’re buzzing me while I’m in the bathroom on the toilet.

6:42 pm In bathroom brushing hair and they buzz me. I’m thinking about how my nap on the couch I tossed and turned, then awoke abruptly to my leg spasming out straight. They’re using different types of invisible rays to blast me with. No buzzing in ears. It’s something else I can’t quite put my finger on yet. One thing for certain is my vision is rapidly deteriorating. If this is a normal thing unrelated to the ray guns or a direct symptom, I’m not sure. All I know is I can’t sit and read the paper early in the morning any more without extreme difficulty.

10:02 pm Standing in living room talking to husband they start buzzing my ears.

10:20-10:24 pm Buzzed in bathroom. What’s this bathroom thing? It’s new.

10:47 pm Bedtime

10:49 pm They’re buzzing me

11:18 pm They’re still buzzing me over half an hour

3:25 am Woke coughing, now they’re hitting me with bam bam bam LOUD verbs Turned over in bed. Punishment for moving

3:44 am FULL ON BLAST ATTACK

3:51 am Sleeping on kitchen table

3:56 am Blam Blam Blam its attack attack attack

4:09 am They’re still attacking me, it just doesn’t seem to let up.

4:12 am Ow! The top of my head hurts, skin scalp

4:29 am They’ve backed off the volume, I am wide awake. How will I fall asleep again?

4:25 am They’re reving it back up again, helicopter nearby. I can hear vibration pitch echo off objects in the kitchen.

5:12 am They’re still buzzing me and I’m still wide awake.

5:27 am They added a full body blast to the sound, there are two distinct waves whey’re hitting me with. I could feel this hit me with no other symptoms.

5:59 am _____ woke up and woke me up.

7:06 am How considerate of them. I slept through the two alarms that went off (My sons & my own) and they buzzed me awake so He’d get to school on time.

8:49 am Buzzed in driveway

8:51 am Buzzed LOUD in bathroom

10:12 am Buzzed in driveway at _____

11:20-11:40 am Buzzed constantly in house, they sent a hang-up call through on the line to listen in on everything I do and say.

12:23 pm I see the surveillance plane circling as I write this in the car, Buzzed constantly 10:30 to 2:30

2:47 pm Blasted loud and clear when I walk in front door @ home

2:50 pm Float plane flies right over house

2:54 pm They are just blasting me. I can barely stand this. It’s making me cry. I have to leave my own home to get away. I swear to god the only escape is to die. Obviously that’s what the evil spies want. Then die I will.

9:27 pm Bedtime

9:29 pm They’re blasting away

WED November 13 9:32 pm It’s getting so bad I wish they would just kill me now and get it over with. My mind goes in terrible directions now when they torture me. It’s been about two and a half MONTHS. I can barely stand it. All the time I wish I was dead.

THU November 14 1:15 am Woke up, turned over, plane overhead Buzzing me.

2:43 am Quick fried awake serious buzzing Blam Blam Blam

2:48 am Downstairs on kitchen table

2:53 am The attacks continue, but I’m in full view of the window. Maybe an assassin will strike me with a bullet, put me out of my misery.

3:00 am Attack Buzzing coupled w/two very mild full body blasts.

3:29 am Blam Blam Blam continues, couldn’t take it any more so turned over to left side

3:45 am 6 sharp twitches of arms w/o movement muscles only buzzing still continuous.

3:54 am Moved onto back because arms getting dislocated in shoulders. Attacked constantly now for one and a quarter hours in the middle of the night.

4:14 am They’re blasting me very hard now. It’s making me profoundly restless and uncomfortable. It makes me want to go screaming down the street. These people are criminals. Thoroughly despicable torturing criminals.

4:45 am I moved, they’re blasting me again

5:04 am They’re blasting me again. Two hours torture Bad/no sleep

5:12 am Blasting me so much I can feel the vibs in my chest bone.

5:30 am Outrageous ten to twenty second full body blast

THU November 14 5:48 am They’re Blasting me again.

6:22 am They’re still blasting me intermittently four hours of noxious, offensive pestering torture in the middle of the night.

6:50 am I am tired, physically weak, emotionally pliable and compliant. I don’t exercise regularly or at all like I used to, take baths intermittently, forget small details and run around in circles inefficiently and my brain is fuzzy, distracted and unable to recall things that just happened. My face is dark, drawn and I rarely smile. I’m very unhappy. My eyes are going real bad, fast. Everything on the horizon looks bleak. They have proven they don’t have to lock me up to torture me. I know they can kill me or my family in an instant leaving no evidence behind. The perfect crime. Courtesy of our government. What will they do if/when they get me into custody?

7:08 am So my husband asks me "What’s with the kitchen table?" Like, why am I sleeping there. I say nothing. If they know he knows what’s going on they will start torturing him and my son too. My husband has to pay bills, my son has to go to school. The functioning of the entire family will fall apart if they start blasting on all of us. The thought terrifies me. I’ve become a fearful, quivering simp. THU November 14 8:52 am Buzzing me hard in car at Ballard _____ Matter of fact they are blasting me more than usual

1:55 pm Buzzed in bathroom at home moments later light plane flies over house

8:32 pm Bedtime

9:28 pm Full on body blast. No symptoms whatsoever except the waves of energy peeling on/off around me.

FRI November 15 1:42 am Blasted awake at Blam Blam Blam BOTH ears very loud. It is utterly cruel and relentless

2:00 am Small airplane circling overhead, wide awake and and both ears humming and reverberating. Got up and out of bed not trying to sleep it’s impossible 2 illegible

2:50 am Airplane passes nearby

3:07 am Airplane circles overhead

4:01 am Airplane circles overhead, they’re totally

4:03 am Increasing the intensity, circling, circling

5:15 am Took shower, naturally this woke my husband up, disturbing his sleep as well.

5:36 am Decide to try and nap on couch

5:40 am Moved to my bed because they will make the phone ring to wake me

5:49 am Could swear they’re homing in on me twenty feet out

5:51 am Helicopter flies overhead

5:54 am Reverb starts in ears. Funny how they stopped attacking me when I took a shower and sat at kitchen table from 4-5:45. They could hear my activities from the phone. Soon as I go back to sleep, they send planes overhead and start blasting away at me.

6:00 am One big long blast, they’re cranking on it, followed by Blam Blam Blam another plane flies nearby

FRI November 15 6:10-15 am Three or so full body blasts no ears

6:33 am Three or so more BULL BODY BLASTS

6:42 am had to pee

8:30 am Buzzed LOUD when I entered our house, oh yeah, several planes, helicopters especially, overhead on a trip to _____ this morning (I notice my spelling is getting bad)

1:00 pm Sit on chair in front of heater

1:03 pm They start homing in on me Twenty feet out.

2:12-13 pm Buzzed @ _____

2:23 pm Buzzed at _____ & helicopter

2:32 pm Full body blasts, helicopter nearby

2:36 pm Could see helicopter hovering in one place over _______ shopping district as we left

3:15-4:30 pm Slept in car in driveway, prone horizontal out of sight of neighbor’s cameras

8:00-8:32 pm Sitting in chair in living room they home in on me and gradually up the verbs until it is so profoundly uncomfortable and both ears are ringing that I have to get out of the chair and walk away to write this. My whole body is ‘humming.’

9:03 pm Trying to sleep on couch, after they gradually cooled it down from 8:30 – 9:00 but they’re homing in on me a full body intelligible blast.

10:08 pm Full body blast woken from a deep sleep felt like an earthquake several attacks then holding

Intelligible

10:10 pm Woken from a deep sleep can hear another long full body blast. Helicopter overhead & rhythm of blades in vibs.

SAT November 16 4,5,6 am Because I was awoken at 2 am yesterday and simply gave up and stayed awake all the rest of the night I was so utterly exhausted that rolling over, grabbing the flashlight, notepad and pen to take notes during the night did not occur. However, I do remember being buzzed awake countless times during the night including several mild FULL BODY BLASTS.

2:15 pm Buzzed in basement -----

2:45 pm Buzzed in car in driveway and upon entering house

5:52-10 pm Slept on couch in living room, husband turned on TV to watch King Kong. Slept through first half hour of that, they did not buzz me except later when I woke

11:15-11:30 pm Buzzed in bathroom readying for bed

11:50 pm Noxiously buzzed in both ears while in bed writing this

SUN November 17 11:59 pm They are completely bearing down on me and running it full blast. This is more than annoying it is utterly and deliberately cruel. It is MEAN spirited. Viscious. Criminal. Despicable Minutes ago when I woke up about 10 pm I was fine. Now I want to …… it is not printable, but sadly self-destructive only to end the misery. This is justice? This is America? Would any citizen report a crime knowing they could potentially be subjected to torture sponsored by the government? Help me, I’m dying on the vine! Helicopter overhead.

12:09 am Sinuses hurt from the vibrations, ear canals too.

12:19 am Loud persistent background hum surrounds my entire being, 2^nd tone of rhythmic patterned . Blam Blam Blam rata tat tat Blam Blam Blam etc. This continued until about 1 am though I didn’t look at watch

SUN November 17 Woken one more time in middle of night, did not look at watch

5:30 am Woken decisively

5:39 am Blam Blam Blam noise continues, had to get out of bed.

5:55-6:00 am Buzzed in bathroom

8:53 am Sitting at kitchen table they do a full body "homing" in on me. It is so unpleasant I leave the seat to write this. Thinking of leaving the house. What to do? Where to go?

8:55 am Going outside to do gardening, it’s cold, rainy and overcast.

9:08 am I don’t know what is they shot me with, but I feel vaguely yucky all over.

9:15-9:30 am read paper in chair in front hill right out in the open. Neighbors across street opened & closed down ____ played music.

9:30-11:30 am Buzzed a whole bunch working in garage, front yard, and walking in and out of front door to house

12:49 pm Buzzed in car in front of open house, have cell phone plane w/wheels goes overhead

[stick drawing of airplane]

1:23 pm Buzzed in living room, cell in kitchen, alone in house

1:26 pm revved up

2:32 pm Very annoying buzz, airplanes two circling opposite

[stick drawing]

2:48 pm most unpleasant eardrums hurt

3:04 pm way louder, hear airplane again

3:12 pm It’s a float plane!

3:45 pm One hour of constant unpleasant buzzing airplane

9:40 pm Bedtime

SUN November 17 9:46 pm Wow, it’s the beginning of a full body bore and ears at the same time, two different types of vibes at the beginning of being revved up. Oh, yeah! It’s Sunday night, they always like to ruin Mondays. They set off alarms to signal everybody I went to bed

9:54 pm Blam Blam Blam

11:03 pm Blasted awake

MON November 18 Woken three times during the night, did not make note of the times

5:39 am Woken up with regular, pulsating blasts

5:53 am Forced out of bed because of the discomfort.

8:35-8:50 am or so Buzzed in car in driveway, buzzed intermittently around the house

2:00 pm buzzed in home driveway

2:05-2:18 pm Buzzing me around my house

3:23 pm trying to take a nap on couch. Full body homing in on me. Airplane overhead

3:40 pm Full body blast

3:42 pm Full body blast causes jolt-like seizure hips/arms flail. They succeeded in waking me from a sound nap. Airplanes overhead. Their cruel torturous policy of sleep deprivation and seizure jolts continues alone in the privacy of my home. They woke me in the middle of my nap. I never got back to sleep. They used airplanes, satellites, video cameras and phone taps from a distant location. The airplanes zapped me with rays that caused my entire body to jolt and flail.

4:03 pm Alarm went off. I leave to get _____ My whole body is buzzing now. Words do not describe my emotions.

MON November 18 4:38 pm Buzzed at _____ big tree

9:10-9:22 pm Loud reverberations in both ears in my bedroom, and at bedtime one SOLID HOUR of Blasting away at me while homing in on me in my bed. Too loud, cannot fall asleep

10:21 pm Went downstairs to pee, back in bed, changed mind and decided to address envelopes

10:38 pm Two hours of addressing envelopes, try to sleep again, but they’ve got it quite persistent. It’s been constant the entire time since I first lay down three hours ago.

1:51 am They won’t let me sleep, they’ve revved it WAY UP. Back to addressing envelopes

1:40 am went downstairs to eat

2:05 am Came back up to bedroom to write more addresses. Miraculously, buzzing noise has stopped, NO homing in on full body – nothing except a very far away twenty-five feet low reverb. Will try to sleep.

2:15 am in Bed

2:17 am The minute I lay down they started homing in on me. It’s back to writing/addressing letters

3:17 am Now they’re homing in on me, after about an hour of nothing, Must have something to do w/ the conversation I just had w/ _____ who asked me to be quiet.

3:33 am Totally wasted will try to sleep I hear verbs I know they’ll buzz me LOUD when I lay down. Guess I’m not allowed to sleep, they’re revving it up. Back to writing.

3:41 am Will try sleeping sitting up w/ the lights on at desk hunched over pillows. I can’t believe it. When I stop moving they up the verbs and Blam Blam Blam.

TUE November 19 3:47 am

It’s the reverse of before. Before If I moved while sleeping they slammed me w/ vibs. If I lay very still, eventually it would stop. Now, it’s the opposite. Every movement causes them to stop and when I stop moving to sleep they attack, attack, attack. This is cruel and sick treatment.

3:56 am Try to sleep again in bed after writing more addresses

6:17 am Blasted awake w/ vibrations in the ears

6:25 am They won’t let me sleep, got out of bed

8:38 am Buzzed when I got home from dropping kid @ school

2:43 pm Buzzed when walked in door, went straight to bed and buzzed for ten to fifteen minutes.

3:49 pm YES! Buzzed awake after less than one hour sleep

3:54 pm They upped the verbs so it was difficult to lay there. Simply woke up. This after about two hours sleep the night before and four hours labor. They deliberately woke me up out of a dead, exhausted sleep in the middle of the afternoon.

4:25 pm Funny. Now I’m up awake & moving around they’re not buzzing me. Only when I sleep and only to deliberately wake me and cause serious sleep deprivation.

8:05 pm Buzzed when I got home in house

8:08 pm Buzzed real hard till both ears really hurt, being blasted bad.

8:20 pm They stopped buzzing me when I took a shower

8:36 pm buzzed when out of shower

8:42 pm Bedtime

11/20/2002 WED November 20 8:47 pm Grinding, wining, hawing vibrations start faintly

8:55 pm They’re cranking on the verbs

9:06 pm They are completely blasting away at me now. The FISC Court gave them a whitewash for the past and a green light to torture me with the CONTELPRO programming & Homeland Security passed congress today. I am a completely vulnerable victim of government sponsored torture.

Thinking of checking into a hospital.

9:43 pm It finally stopped one hour

9:44 pm They sensed my movement and immediately started blasting at me again.

9:47 pm Airplane overhead, not a jet, they buzzed me for another Woken several more times during the night as well. Let’s see, try to sleep and am buzzed constantly for two hours during which time I cannot fall asleep. Am finally ‘trained’ into not moving and writing things down, because they will punish me with an hour of constant irritating noise. Too utterly exhausted to write the two to three more times I’m woken during the night because I only got two hours sleep the night before.

4:44 am They wake me out of a deep sleep quite early. Have no choice but to leave my bed to get away from it. Went downstairs to pee. They can hear me through the hung up phone/speaker phone as usual. They know I’m writing this because they could hear the paper rustle. They started buzzing me in the distance

4:55 am on couch will try to sleep airplane goes overhead.

5:01 am FULL BODY BUZZ Plane flies overhead, full body buzz

6:03 am Got off couch could not sleep

6:45 am Utterly bone numbing, exhausted and wide awake. A walking shell

9:15-9:30 am Slammed a bunch of doors around the house, tried to make Dr. Appt. Left early for _____ hope to sleep in car nearby

9:55 am Arrive at _____ and am buzzed in car, race to front _____ and go in saying I need to take a nap because the rude neighbors kept me awake all night. Just wants me to not wake two sleeping children one up one down and she reads book on couch up while I sleep on couch down.

10:20 am Am very faintly homed in on while on couch twenty feet out.

10:40 am They home in on me a little stronger. No cell phone, no talking near phones. They "Looked" at the four bodies in the house two one-year-old babies a 170 lb female and me a 110 lb female and figured out which was me.

11-2:45 pm _____They did not buzz me once.

3:00 pm Home Buzzed in driveway and house. Made doctor appt for 9:15 am tomorrow for exhaustion. ‘They’ heard me and hardly buzzed me all evening long.

8:19 pm Bedtime

8:26 pm They’re homing in on me very lightly very far away 50-100 feet

8:35 pm Gnawing, sawing, wining hard left hear two off out

8:46 pm Full body homing in.

THU November 21 1:30 am Buzzing in ears

1:43 am Wide awake from reverberating in both ears, two tone slowly ratcheted up.

1:46 am Sound bouncing back and forth in the middle of my head, hurt ringing off each ear

2:30 am They stopped

2:43 am started faintly again

2:59 am eardrums still clicking and throbbing in pain

3:04 am they’re illegible me in the distance. This really hurts because my eardrums are so sensitive already

3:18 am Blam Blam Blam so illegible but it hurts

3:20 am Six full body blasts light

3:36 am Very intense body blast woke up just as I was dozing off. Blast again airplane

5:11 am ears ringing woken illegible vibrating w/one sharp blast

6:17 am sharp quick buzz fries me awake out of t deep sleep again

6:50 am Brain hurts deep down inside and in the middle

9:15 am Appointment Dr. Christopher Smith – he doesn’t believe me, suggests he can ‘help me’ medication to make it all go away. Yeah right.

12 pm noon Buzzed _____ Richmond Beach

1:40 pm Buzzed

5 pm Buzzed

5:30 pm Surveillance plane directly overhead down low in driveway, I gave it a one finger salute.

7:10 pm Bedtime Totally exhausted

7:27 pm Buzzing begins a lot legs flail

7:33 pm Total body blast

FRI November 12:47 am Airplane overhead Blasted awake Blam Blam Blam in right ear

12:52 am Got up and out of bed, am going to hospital 1:09 am Buzzed in car @ hospital parking lot. As I walked to emergency room I could see the surveillance plane overhead.

1:14 am In emergency room next to TV trying to sleep

1:53 am The intake receptionist said my illegible they’re looking me up on the computer. Spies told them, not me. They turned off TV

2:00 am Now they’re talking about how all visitors need to register and contact security if they’re a problem

2:04 am Alone in waiting room. Could it be that they homed in on me this way be deliberately vacating the lobby. They called all the other patients earlier. Now there’s an employee sitting across from me eating & reading. Could swear this is what the spies had them do. Vacate the room so they could home in on me through the large windows.

2:20-2:15 am Tried the switcheroo by getting up from my seat and walking next to the employee who had gotten up from her seat and was walking away. Then another patient came into the waiting room three minutes later and I got up, walked between her and her child and returned to my original comfortable spot by the TV.

2:25 am The lady and her kid, the only people in the waiting room were called out and I was alone. Immediately they buzz me. I can feel it, it is so faint under ordinary circumstances it would not be recognizable, except for the fact that after three months of 24/7 I’m getting to be an old hand at this. They isolated me in the hospital waiting room in the middle of the night in coordination with hospital personnel. I’m going to try to go back to sleep.

FRI November 22 2:28 am

2:35 am Maybe it’s just the motor for the two vending machines warming up. Maybe I’m just imagining it.

3:15 am Alone in lobby they upped the air conditioning to make it cold.

3:35 am Helicopter outside hit me w/ 3 full body blasts Big fat beefy security guy is planted on chair parallel to me. He looks at me writing. All I want is sleep.

3:48 am Three more full body blasts first gave sharp pain right ear.

4:35 am They’re blasting me awake again. Helicopter overhead Oh. Yeah, the security guard left he got bored with babysitting a tired, sleeping scrawny little middle age lady

4:48 am Helicopter still hovering overhead

5:15 am Moved to other side of hospital, saw no helicopters outside

5:35 am They homed in on me here

6:00 am ? Could swear they homed in on me here again. This means they had a ‘fix’ on me from the first lobby which tracked me as I exited the side of the building and re-entered around the corner through another door. Then when I was in the second lobby they tortured and tormented me repeatedly.

7:40 am They’re homing in on me at home in the house

8:08 am Buzzed in car parked off _____ Trying to get some sleep before 9 am

8:14 am Moved to get another pillow from back seat & they’re buzzing me again. This is a deliberate campaign of sleep deprivation, pain and torture.

8:19 am They’re slowly ratcheting it up. It’s reverbering in both ears

8:25 am It stopped – stole fifteen minutes of my forty five minute nap and get half an hour

8:42 am Two full body blasts, small plane overhead near

FRI November 22 8:48 am Joggers went by two.

8:54 am _____ cruises me w/ U-turn. They left me alone all day

2:00 pm Pulled into driveway w/ on they buzzed my ear

4:35 pm Lay down on couch for nap

4:50 pm They start humming in on me

4:52 pm I get notebook

4:58 pm Try to sleep again

5:03 pm They’re reverbing it & homing in intensely

6:00 pm Several full body blasts dressing for bedtime

6:12 pm They’re reverbing my right ear. I’m going to make more copies Stayed home did paperwork & tidying moving constantly & talking.

AT NO TIME DURING THIS PERIOD DID THEY BUZZ ME, THOUGH BRIEFLY FOR 10-20 MINUTES THEY PUT A ‘FIX’ ON ME WHICH MADE ME QUESZY.

10:32 pm Bedtime. I anticipate a few hours sleep followed by hourly if not constant buzzing. The word DREAD describes anticipated TORTURE TIME.

10:38 pm They’re buzzing my right ear

10:40 pm Homing in on full body chest bone vibrating

10:43 pm They’re upping the verbs, this is cruel abuse. I can’t stop it. I simply lay in my own bed as the minutes slowly tick by taking torture. There’s no escape they follow me in my car and attack in buildings use security to locate me and attack ( _____ books, Northwest Hospital, campus)

FRI November 22 10:47 pm I can’t imaging anyone calling 911 knowing this government sponsored torture is a even a remote possibility. This thwarts justice & liberty. Oh, man, my right ear drum hurts they’re blasting it so loud, constantly and slowly increasing the volume

11:14 pm Still being constantly blasted, can’t sleep

2:44 am Woken to constant loud ringing in ears

SAT November 23 2:44 am Supported by rhythmic ringing

3:05 am They’re still blasting away and I’m wide awake

6:00 am Constant buzzing/ring in ears to roust me out of bed

8:00 am After dressing, eating & reading the paper I’m still so tired. I decide to take 1 ½ hour nap before going to _____

8:01 am The minute I lay down to sleep, very faintly, in the background the humming starts. My eardrums are quite sensitive, bruised if you will, so it doesn’t take much to aggravate them. I have to get up off the couch, get my note pad and take notes. Anticipate a rocky road ahead. There’s way too many bad buys in my life. The bad guys who committed the crime and the good guys, who turned out to be bad guys, committing even more crimes. Where are the good guys?

8:32 am It starts again

8:36 am Helicopter overhead they’re doing a full body fix. They must have done a full body blast to wake me from a deep sleep. They still have the fix on my full body. I feel it, subtle but after three months recognize it.

SAT November 23 9:15 am Only got half an hour nap, Repeatedly disrupted over the one and a half hours time. Woken early. Can’t fall back asleep. The helicopter is way in the distance above the fog/cloud cover. Can only sense it’s presence from the distinction between types of vibrational bombardment.

9:30 am When driving _____ could swear I saw three undercover surveillance vehicles leaving the neighborhood. They petered out on Lake City Way.

9:54 am Sitting in car in driveway of new client/house with

9:56 am Cell phone off and they are buzzing then reverbing then blam blam blam blasting me.

12:35-12:45 pm Two surveillance vehicles posted one Big white truck & LFP Police when I return from store w/ lunch

12:53 pm Been buzzed past five to ten minutes eating lunch in car

12:54 pm _____ white van goes by & looks at me

3:00 pm Buzzed briefly when snacking in car

5:45 pm Buzzed briefly when leaving job in car. NO CELL.

That is _____ they had stake-outs and could not buzz me in house

8:04 pm Took shower, in bed, within of laying horizontal they started it in the distance

8:08 pm They’ve revved it up so it’s reverbing in my right ear

8:13 pm Blam Blam Blam they’re drilling into my skull I’m so exhausted and want to sleep but can’t

8:16 pm Loud & Steady

11:35 pm Woken by slowly ratcheted up reverbing right ear

11:40 pm I am wide awake from the pain

11:42 pm Can’t take it anymore going to hospital

11:56 pm Of course now I’m up and about they stopped

SUN November 24 12:05 am Drove into Northwest Hospital parking lot. As I walked away from the car a helicopter that was way over to the other side of the cemetery on the other side of Aurora made a beeline for me and as I approached the Emergency Room just before the second story sky walkway the helicopter flew directly over me low. They were making a beeline fix on me. !

12:12 am In waiting room, after talking to receptionist who was here before about checking in and putting the seventy-five dollar charge on my credit card. I told her I was in here two days before and she probably recognized me.

12:15 am Lay on couch to try and sleep

1:00 am apx. Called by intake nurse, told her to write down NWYHS arson attempt, material witness, associate of terrorists, they’re security department monitored me Thursday night. They _____ never took my insurance # or other information. Well preserved In room waiting for doctor_____ checked me in _____ told her entire story, receptionist w/ took me to second room R. Holmes took my insurance # and had me sign form heavy, friendly long hair.

2 am Dr. King (redhead) told him everything

2:45 am Drinking water to give urine sample

3:04 am Susan H.

3:42 am Answered five to six pages of questions, assessment over she left to write summary. Requested several times they tell Dr. Christopher Smith that when I was in reception room Thursday night 11/21-22 Security was alerted as to my presence. This will illustrate to Dr. Smith I am telling the truth and my perceptions are accurate, there are no psychiatric issues.

5:15 am Discharged, diagnosis PSYCHOSIS. This is useless bureaucratic cowardice. I am exhausted by a campaign of sleep-deprivation.

SUN November 24 6:00 am Read paper ate breakfast, will try to get some sleep. Can hear an exceedingly faint buzz as they place a ‘fix’ on me while I write this sitting by the phone. In bedroom, they sent airplane overhead

6:01 am They start homing in on me, went downstairs to retrieve newspaper article to have librarian look up addresses for me.

6:06 am Sitting at kitchen table airplane flies overhead & hits me with a very mild full body blast.

6:12 am Back in bed writing this

6:14 am They’re blasting away. I am going to try and sleep in a coma through this. Been up all night, every half hour helps. Will not take regular notes but try to rely on memory, great.

7:31 am Woken by dry throat to hear both ears reverberating loudly. Will try to sleep again.

7:45 am Airplane overhead, have not fallen back asleep yet. They’re still buzzing both ears reverberating loud & annoying

8:10 am Ears still ringing. Plane flies overhead, FULL BODY BLAST, very mild.

8:30 am Still wide awake. One hour of constant ear reverbs & blasts. Now it’s blam blam blam going to give up on sleeping and move around house. What do you want to bet the torture ceases while I’m awake. (one could digress into how even this is a continuation of the torture campaign to only really harass me at the most extreme when I’m sleeping.)

9:20 am Should have anticipated the disbelief at the hospital But they knew their security was notified

Thursday night.

SUN November 24 Whet I need is for someone anywhere (anonymously OK to mail, fax or write my primary care physician the name, address, phone and fax of a Doctor who specializes in patients who have been/ are tortured by government campaigns. A doctor who knows the drill because it is his/her specialty. Dr. Christopher Smith and Dr. Rick King (NW Hospital) are well intended individuals. What is occurring is simply outside their realm of expertise. I cannot be silenced by mis-diagnosis. I need the correct diagnosis by a specialist. Perhaps Amnesty International has a referral list.

Dr. Christopher Smith

PacMed Clinics

1101 Madison Medical Tower

Seattle, WA 98104

Fax 206-505-1111 (not private)

Phone 206-505-1000

Both these doctors, Smith & King are way-cool guys. Once someone else who is a specialist accurately educates/informs them I’m sure they will understand more thoroughly.

My most sincere concern is that I be censored/silenced by those who mis-diagnose me and seek to heavily medicate me. Were that possibility of medication to occur you can bet I would simply shut up, change my tune, continue to be tortured over such a length of time I lose the ability to fight back, become a total pawn of the spies, taken into custody, threatened with bogus charges, capitulate, become re-indoctrinated to the story and lies they want me to parrot in court, loose all sense of self, dignity and belief in the system.

SUN November 24 11:15 am _____ cancelled me permanently. This is a prime example of insider/favorites being tipped off to have nothing to do with me and no investigations being started on their family. Someone in the State Department warned them (Exactly as Feds & _____ compelled/induced. Temps to blackball me from employment.) _____ _____ Administrator and her _____ One got a law degree from Harvard and works for the State Department in "the Hague" as an attorney, is paid by the State Department in Euros They area _____

12:25 pm Float plane overhead at Greenlake. Half-minute later this kind [stick illustration of airplane]

12:31 pm Buzzed in car at Greenlake _____

12:30 – 1 pm Float plane directly overhead as I _____ Float plane directly _____ Greenlake drive right off the lake _____ third !!! Float plane cruises parallel over Greenlake

1:00 pm Sitting in chair and am being faintly buzzed in ear

1:07 pm In addition to the _____ I’m reminded that the _____ by Greenlake was recently cancelled "due to financial difficulties." Are they being investigated too? What about _____ briefcase was stolen out of _____ car, the one with every last bit of his financial information in it. And the people _____ There have been suspicious looking spy type people coming by. One day at the _____ the pain from the tortuous radar/vibs was so bad I stood in the corner for fifteen minutes crying in agony. Every night at home and during the day when I attempt to sleep I am tortured. Is this how the law works? Set a patsy/pigeon up, torture them ----- send spies by to do a sting operation, do investigation ----- ; feed information to local city, county & state departments and prosecute people for anything you can get them on. The entire time I’ve been doing ----- I’ve been harassed and tortured 24/7 daily and nightly. While in _____ an assortment of surveillance planes circle overhead zapping and frying me even to the point of breaking down in tears. Is this where our country is going? This seems entirely inappropriate to me.

1:22 pm couple came in and left, now I’m being buzzed, spies?

1:32 pm Airplane flies overhead

1:52 pm couple w/ five year old kid visits; I’m being buzzed

1:56 pm Helicopter overhead

2:11 pm Sounds like float plane overhead,

2:29 pm they’ve been buzzing me for awhile and just hit me with a medium strength FULL BODY BLAST

I’m curled on a big chair trying to sleep. They sensed I had stopped writing notes & flipping magazine pages. I wanted to sleep and they slammed me with a big jolt at the Greenlake _____ They’re starting investigations on and feeding ‘info’ to city, county & state agencies.

2:33 pm Plane overhead

2:38 pm Plane circling over & over

3:00 pm Two visitors

3:04 pm Airplane circles

4:10 pm _____ seemed to two young women doing a stake out outside. Must have been spies.

SUN November 24 4-6 pm Helicopter flew directly overhead _____ Absolutely no buzzing attacks while at home, awake, reading the paper and moving around

6-11 pm Lay on couch and snuck a five hour sleep with lights blazing and husband and son watching TV. Normally I could never sleep under these conditions. Only because of total exhaustion did I attempt this. However, it did not go without at least one series of BODY BLASTS and two events of sharp zaps causing my hands/legs to twitch/flail ever so slightly, but enough to wake me and for me to remember.

11pm Husband turned off TV. The phone tap/monitor of everything in the house could, of course, hear this. I continued to lay on the couch. Fifteen minutes later, off in the distance, the ominous sensation of the ‘fix’ on me reverbing to the feel of a helicopter. Sure enough, I could then hear it approach closely and hover/circle around the house throwing a couple of buzzes at me.

11:30 pm Got off couch, talked to husband, peed, got journal, turned TV back on.

11:41 pm Will attempt to sleep more.

MON November 25 4:30 am Woke up, lay here, remembering being roused only once, when my son turned off the TV around 2 am?

4:45 am Could feel slight buzz, then five minutes or so later hear helicopter in distance, or was it traffic?

5:00 am they put a ‘fix’ on me, can feel it, it’s locked on.

5:19 am Very light body blast, hear helicopter

8:46 am Buzzed lightly when I enter house

2:35 pm Buzzed loud when I enter house w _____

7:30 pm They saw me get mail from the camera across the street that peers into our living room window.

MON November 25 7:35 pm All my mail, coming and going, is intercepted at the post office. They know what is in each day’s mail. (Now I have the lock box, though lock easy to pick, they cannot readily steal my mail. Furthermore, they are supervised by the local postmaster & route carrier.) Likely they "read" through the envelope with scanners. They knew I was receiving a letter from the FSIC Court of review and would be disappointed.

7:40 pm Through the hung-up phone/speakerphone they could hear me rip open the envelopes and go into the bathroom to read the letters.

7:42 pm Upon leaving the bathroom one minute later they sent through a hung-up call, which my husband got up from in front of the TV to get, putting him in an unpleasant mood from the rude disruption.

7:43 pm They sent their message, "They" are watching and listening to everything I do, know everything going on in every moment of my life, can anticipate my reaction and are free to disrupt and antagonize me at every turn of events. Wonder how much they’ll attack me with sonic blasts tonight?

8:16 pm Bedtime. Prepare for nightly torture. Awoken from deep sleep by sharp twitch of left foot (on left side, left foot on bottom). Was this one of those invisible jolts? No buzzing in lower spine. Going downstairs to pee. They’ll hear me.

11:25 pm Can feel/hear the faintest distant homing in on me, However, it could also be traffic. Not the usual strong powerful thing fifty feet out. Stopped already

11:27 pm Gone

11:30 pm Buzzed lightly last five minutes, reverbing in both ears. Different tone than usual, lower. Distant. I’m sure it’s it.

TUE November 26 3:27 am Half hour of vibs very quiet but woke me. They deliberately woke me again and now it’s louder

3:36 am It’s still going on. Wide awake. They’re trying to pretend they’re not trying to wake me at the same time deliberately waking me. Disingenuous tricksters, liars. They know exactly what they’re doing. Deliberately waking me in the middle of the night with continual buzzing vibs in my head/ears. Creeps

3:39 am Now they’re blasting me harder since they could sense my movement and know I’m taking notes which I’m sure the Doctors at Northwest Hospital informed them about. Also, when I dropped off the large package addressed to Physician Referral Department, Amnesty International upon leaving the post office at 4:30 Monday afternoon a cop in full uniform, no market vehicle nearby, went in to his PO Box. Perhaps he was also going in to examine what I’d just mailed? Also, he gave me a really big friendly smile as we passed each other exiting/entering at the doors.

3:54 am Still buzzing like a rumble

3:55 am Now they’re blasting the reverbs again. It had gradually gotten quieter, but I took notes at 3:54 am Now they’re punishing me.

TUE November 26 4:08 am Helicopter in distance hovering for the past ten min or so. They just hit me with a very mild full body blast. Once again awoken abruptly from deep sleep inexplicably with sharp full body blasts that I only sense the lingering effect once I’m awake but slept through except it woke me. These guys are still playing the same dirty tricks

6:25 am Lay in bed wide awake for 1 hour, couldn’t fall back asleep. Up for the day.

8:00 am Spy airplane flying up north as I drive south on Roosevelt at 50^th. Seattle Police driving west on 45^th at intersection w/Roosevelt.

8:20 am Spy airplane does big u-turn as I get off I-t North at 45^th to _____

4:00 pm Spy planes on commute home overhead

4:30 pm Buzzed loudly when entering house w/son

7:20 pm Bedtime exhausted

7:27 pm Airplane overhead Both ears buzzed from fifteen to twenty feet out

10:19 pm Woken from a deep sleep by sharp total FULL BODY fry. No spasms however, Just wide awake

11:30 pm Again woken inexplicably from deep sleep.

WED November 27 12:32 am Went downstairs to pee

12:47 am Could swear I feel the slightest tickling on my quite (by now) sensitive ear drums. Under ordinary circumstances I would pay no attention to this

12:44 am Hear approaching plane in distance

1:00 am They upped the revs a bit back until now it’s quite recognizable in both ears at a low volume but reverbing.

1:07 am There goes the helicopter again. They can see my flashlight from the camera in _____ house

WED November 27 1:20 am Went downstairs to eat because of stomach acid.

2:24 am Back in bed. Helicopter They sharp zapped me again, my legs twitched involuntarily. There is no logical reason for this

5:28 am Two to three light full body blasts helicopter in distance Cannot hear or see, feel it from blasts

6:13 am Left arm twitches at elbow

6:32 am Blasted two times again

8:39 am Buzzed in car at _____

1:39 pm Buzzed in car at _____ Just like at Greenlake one then two planes doing counter circles

[line drawing]

8:50 pm Bedtime

WED November 27 9:08 pm They started homing in on me.

? Woken briefly at an undetermined time

THU November 28 2:30-2:41 am Woken slowly, then turned over to look at the clock. Could hear nothing. Lay there thinking "Why am I awake?" After awhile thought I heard something in the distance. Also thought I heard a helicopter, but dismissed the idea. Was thinking about how much sleep I’d gotten tonight and decided the "primary tormenter" (likely a military officer in the [so called] elite counter-terrorism Delta forces) went home to visit his mother for thanksgiving. Was counting how many days break I may get, three to four?? Was hoping against odds this may be permanent. Then, it became obvious there is a low grade rumble

3:00 am in both ears. Realized, "it’s back." 9-2 five hours sleep. Then Wake up call

3:21 am Went downstairs to pee. Upon returning upstairs hear a small airplane flying overhead

3:35 am Helicopter goes by

3:53 am Still a mumbling reverb. The common pattern. Three to five hours sleep followed by one to three hours constant torment until one is wide awake (yet totally exhausted) with high-pitched, irritated aggravation. Like what happens when you tease a caged animal with sticks and rocks.

3:56 am Helicopter buzzes back nearby, they can see my flashlight through the window with the camera posted at the neighbors. And their ‘locked-on’ radar senses my movement. Anticipate another full cycle of abuse. Punishment for taking notes.

THU November 28 4:36 am Full body blast

6:45 am My son’s alarm goes off, waking me up early

7:30 am Showered, changed, bone tired back to bed

7:33 am Hear small airplane in distance and ‘clicking’ in right eardrum only

7:53 am They started homing in on me. The typical twenty minutes after I lay down just when the average ordinary person would be drifting off to sleep.

8:00 am They’ve revved it up so it’s impossible to fall asleep. Both ears

8:01 am Helicopter overhead

8:05 am They’ve revved it up even louder, obviously they refuse to allow me to sleep in on thanks giving day. Hmmmm cruel, perhaps?

8:07 am I give up. I loose. The spies win.

9:22 pm Back home after walk around Greenlake and _____ & _____ in bedroom being lightly buzzed.

10:01 pm Bedtime

10:09 pm Humming in buzzing begins

FRI November 29 2:00 am

Buzzing starts lightly

2:15 am Get out of bed because both ears hurt and basically the ringing is maddening and essentially I am being rousted out of bed in the middle of sleep by a government sponsored torturous campaign of sleep deprivation harassment and cruelty

2:39 am Back in bed after peeing and sending son ___ to sleep. Buzing renewed

FRI November 29 2:43 am Small plane overhead

2:52 am It hurts. Can’t sleep. Will address letters

4:16 am They’re still buzzing me, two and a quarter hours straight in the middle of the night. Got newspapers, ate and read them. NOT BUZZED AT ALL while awake!

5:23 am Will now attempt to get some sleep

6:00 am They blasted me awake at 6:00 am. Buzzing continues

7:00 am I wake up. Look over at clock. Astonished at the time. My both ears are buzzing. Just flabbergasted they’ve woken me the last two hours on the hour.

7:07 am They’ve revved up until I get-out-of-bed. Can’t sleep. Can’t lay there ears both ringing. Again my mind is going into terrible, wretched territory. They are torturing me. This is despicable.

Slept fitfully on couch as I was zapped twice causing hand to clench involuntarily and foot to twitch, waking me briefly. Also several bouts of brief buzzes.

9:20 am Woke up

9:24 am Hang-up phone call sent through to say "Hi" and ensure I’m truly wide awake. Sleep caught in interrupted blocks of time three, one, one, two and a quarter. Offensive. Typically I sleep nine to nine and a half hours solid. Also, to get this three, one, one, two and a half, it took eleven and a half hours because of the intolerable three and a quarter hour block between 2-5:15 am Your TAX DOLLARS AT WORK.

FRI November 29 12:55 pm Took nap on couch, still real tired, w/washing machine going. Buzzed lightly at first, then they left me alone.

1:45 pm ? Abrupt jolt as all limbs flailed. Could hear small airplane scoot away. I was zapped awake.

1:55 pm _____ fried, _____ came over.

11:39 pm In my bedroom they’re homing in on me. Went to three and three quarters hour long movie. Big mistake Seven Samurais

SAT November 30 4:15 am Woken, got five hours straight. But they will prove to wake me every hour from here on in. 5:00 woken and buzzed continuously

5:15-20 am Woken and buzzed continuously

7:00-7:15 am Woken and buzzed continuously

8:00 am Woken and buzzed continuously for forty-five minutes! Could not fall back asleep

10:00 am crashed on living room couch, slept for an hour

11:00 am When they sent a HANGUP PHONE CALL through followed by ten to fifteen minutes of buzzing.

11:15-12 pm noon Slept more after being alert/awake for twenty minutes I SPEND MORE TIME LYING IN BED NOT SLEEPING BECAUSE I AM BEING TRASHED!

12 pm noon Couching up phlegm from lungs from lying prone so much. Too exhausted to get up and accomplish tasks, cannot fall asleep because I’m being tortured. Sick criminals.

8:57 pm Bedtime, a feeling of dread in the pit of my stomach

9:15 pm They’re buzzing me, airplane, this is nothing more than the cruelest sickest form of government harassment right in the middle of my skull in my bed in my room in my home torturous sleep deprivation.

12/1/2002

12:10 am They’re blasting away Blam Blam Blam

SUN December 1 12:12 am It really hurts. No way to sleep through this. Got up to work. They’re still blasting away while I work at desk. Went downstairs to pee. They could hear everything and got audio confirmation of their success at rousting me from my bed and destroying my sleep. In room now writing.

12:17 am They’re attacking me more

12:27 am Hear airplane, they’re still blast attacking me with blam blam Blam & ringing ears.

12:31 am They’ve revved it up even louder and its driving me quite crazy. Don’t know what to do. Trapped

1:02 am They’ve toned it down, not irritating anymore. Still there Changed my mind about waiting a month or two to mail all 552 addressed envelopes. Going to mail them right away These attacks are making me miserable and desperate.

1:22 am It stopped, will try to sleep

1:25 am Am I imagining this? Or are they slowly revving it up again?

1:26 am Oh god, they are!

1:31 am They’ve revved it up. To my now sensitive ears it is quite painful. I get out of bed to sit up and continue at the desk. Naturally, they can "sense & track" my movements within my bedroom and my body’s position, upright or prone, and place. I am a laboratory experiment. A caged animal being tormented.

1:43 am They backed it off, it’s almost imperceptible now.

1:49 am Will try to crawl back into bed again.

1:56 am As I dreaded and anticipated they’ve revved it up and are blasting away.

1:59 am My ears/eardrums hurt. I am being experimented on and tortured. I get out of bed again and return to my desk. TWO HOURS NO SLEEP MIDDLE OF NIGHT

12/1/2002

SUN December 1 2:10 am Four times Big catatonic, immobilizing blast attack, unconscious type memory fry arms levitated & frozen, how long? Five minutes, ten minutes, twenty minutes.

2:10 am As I work in my room they’re blasting me. I am bone weary exhausted. Reverberating Blam Blam Blam

2:14 am Hear airplane approaching in distance

2:26 am They’re really cooking on me

2:31 am Will try to sleep on living room couch

2:39 am Within 1 minute of laying down they’re homing in on me here too. My eardrums hurt.

3:49 am They fried me, over and over again three or four times. The fourth time my arms were levitated. I lay here almost unable to breathe. Think it also fried my brain cells to wipe them out. This is utterly amazing the only other time they did this was on the kitchen table. I lay here on the couch and they could hear my every reaction listening on the phone. If I had not woken up it would have been a mere dream or non-remembrance because it seems like that now. It was so strong and effective it could have wiped out my memory of it. When I was laying on the couch they had stopped zapping me w/ Blam Blam Blam and I was lying perfectly still in one position trying not to move so they would stop zapping me and let me sleep. I was on my back, arms gently at my side hands over pelvis.

3:20 am? When it first started I wanted to look at the clock on the TV but was immobilized and could not. As I write this I can barely believe it happened because the full body blasts were so powerful they almost wiped out my memory of the actual event. It almost seems like a dream.

12/1/2002 SUN December 1 3:38 am As a matter of fact, after it occurred, my first instinct was to finally get some sleep. The thought is compelling. But I must write this from whatever fragments of memory remain. As it was occurring a certain part of my brain was recording it. Also, when I awoke the three to four am zap event ended. I was having extreme difficulty breathing. The only reason perhaps I "came to", that’s it. The zaps were so powerful they almost knocked me unconscious, When it was happening I was thinking at first they intercepted my good drawing map of their entire operation on one page that I mailed to five people and somehow read them. This is likely. There were four lengthy frys, each increasing in intensity.

1. All over most peculiar buzz. When it started I couldn’t believe it. Wanted to look at clock & grab book to take notes but was immobilized.
2. The same thing, after a thirty second to one minute pause, again increasing to even greater intensity. Because they could listen on hone they could judge my reaction. I could not speak.
3. This was even worse in intensity. I wanted to yell to them to stop, but could not. At this point it must have been going on for ten minutes or so. I can’t be certain.
4. Like before, arms became levitated, arms & legs immobilized. I actually tried to yell at them to stop, but could not.

SUN December 1 2002 When it finally stopped I dreamed I went out the front door to protest to their cameras, but that my actual physical body was levitated 7 feet off the ground as I exited the living room and then my actual physical body floated fifteen to twenty feet above the ground in front of their cameras above our three parked cars. I was telling myself to slowly float my body down so it would not fall and yelling/complaining to them about how they were torturing me. This was in my dream. Then I woke up from inability to breathe and wanted to sleep. But forced myself to write this because I know it’s true and really happened. The FULL BODY immobilizing/levitating fries were so strong as to almost knock me unconscious and obliterate my memory of them. The implications are profoundly scary.

4:04 am They can kill me

4:05 am They are buzzing my ear, must try to sleep. Oh yes, when I was upstairs in my room I remember thinking earlier that the buzzing was not at that time being operated by airplanes but using the equipment in the neighbors houses and remotely controlled.

4:09 am They are blam blam blam punishing me for writing this which they can hear from the phone, going upstairs. Peed

4:11 am Good thing I forced myself to write this or none of it would have been written down. They could hear me walk & pee. I seem reasonably coordinated. If I had allowed myself to sleep all memory of the event would have been lost. Four IMMOBALIZING BLASTS

SUN December 1 am They must be quite upset about the ‘good drawing’ map I made of how their operations work. If they just left me alone I wouldn’t be writing and mailing all these things. They think that upping the punishment will persuade me to stop. On the contrary, it has the opposite effect, it only compels me further. And because they won’t let me sleep in the middle of the night there’s nothing else to do, because, quite frankly, it is extremely BORING to be wide awake, exhausted and unable to do anything interesting in the middle of the night. So as a measure of last resort I do something I would rather not do, hand address 552 letters, arrange and highlight and prepare large bulky copies. This is dreary stuff, I only do it because they’ve forced me wide awake. They’re buzzing me right now in the bathroom, I still am in shock that they actually did that FOUR TIME SULL BODY IMMOBILIZING (AND THE LAST (FOUR^TH) TIME LEVITATING ARMS AND LEGS) COMPLETE TOTAL FRY BLASTS TO THE POINT OF UNCONSCIOUSNESS AND MEMORY LOSS. I am being tortured. I cannot prove it. Nobody believes me.

4:21 am Glass of water then upstairs. As I brush my teeth I appear to be normally functioning with no residual pain. I am in my own state of disbelief that this actually happened. Everything around me is the same, I seem healthy and ambulatory. Yet, it did happen. This is an amazingly powerful military weapon. Oh, I’m remembering now. The News Hour w/ Jim Lerher was replayed in my mind, but Jim Lerher did some psycho antics in B & W with special effects on the screen, then spilled the beans. The zap/fry created this memory scramble of a watched TV show.

SUN December 1 4:27 am Going upstairs away from the phone so they’re not likely to do this in my room. Kitchen table, living room couch, What’s next? Four and a half HOURS NO SLEEP – 10 minutes Blam Blam Blam

5:22 am They’re homing in on me just like they did when I was on couch But I’ve curled myself on my side in a ball. They’re really hitting me hard now. Is that an airplane overhead?

6:45 am Buzzed awake

7:34 am Fourty-five minutes of constant, rude, noxious buzzing to wake the half-dead-me.

7:43 am Airplane overhead, Blam Blam Blam continues. Rousted out of bed. Three hours sleep – twenty minutes catatonic immobilizing fry – one hour sleep

BAD NIGHT

Took shower, got dressed, left alone

8:35 am Back in my room to work; they’re blasting me away. Hummmn… wonder why?

10:15 am They left me alone for two apx hours while I ate & read papers

10:16 am Can hear the ‘homing in’ while I sit in my bedroom writing this. Was thinking about what triggered early am 12/1/2002 attack. I drew the map Friday morning 11/30 and mailed it to five places, primarily civil rights types, Saturday morning 11/31. They must have used the computer at the post office to sort for my return address which I always print fully & clearly. They may not have opened the envelopes. Just the recipients names could have been enough to infuriate the spies/military enough to punish me. I am quite tired and run-down now. Simply never really thought they would do that again. This time it was FOUR TIMES WORSE – WHAT’S NEXT?

SUN December 1 am Will not take this journal _____ In case they try to steal it. Also, when I used the bathroom this morning my stool was quite soft almost to the point of diarrhea and a whole lot came out and briefly plugged the toilet as it flushed. Usually I’m prone to constipation and my stools are small and infrequent, every other day, if I’m lucky every day. To me this extremely large, soft stool is evidence my body was profoundly stressed last night.

10:41 am They’re really blasting away at me writing in my room, Productive behavior punished, non-productive behavior (eating, showering, watching TV, reading paper) rewarded. These people are so transparent.

NO MORE US POSTAL SERVICE. They track my mail recipients by my return address.

THEN PUNISH ME

What’s going to happen to the recipients? Scary.

10:56 am Except for (self-censored) yeah!

11:05 am The irony of this all is my husband & son still don’t believe me. We got in a one-sided bitter fight in the car Friday night at 11:30 pm after the movie, Seven Samurai at the Crest. I upbraided and chastised my husband for not being there for me when I need him, typical of our twenty-five year relationship and warned both my husband and son that in the future when they realize everything I’m saying is exactly true, they will have extreme remorseful regret for ridiculing me and closing ranks against me. Only my son has become mildly friendly toward me. I am most truly alone and isolated in this endeavor. Surely someone out there must believe me.

SUN December 1 11:38 am It finally sinks in, they plan on tracking coming and going. And keeping a record of every sender & recipient’s contacts. Like e-mail, only the government controls the database and all contacts. Does this prevent freedom of assembly, speech, god knows what else, I’m not a wiz at this stuff. Also, what about guilt by association? Perhaps a lot of private mail services will spring up guaranteeing anonymity. Perhaps that’s not economically feasible.

11:43 am Seems to me they’re already proving they plan on abusing the ability and power to do this. Extremely.

11:43 am I feel like a canary in a mine shaft, only no one’s paying attention and we’re all dying.

11:45 am Let the military-sponsored assassinations begin. Our spies must have been taking reciprocal training from the Russians all these years. The deep do-do is just beginning. We’re just a bunch of silly-partying fools caught flat-footed in the ‘60’s.

1-4 pm They left me alone, no buzzing, zapping or frying, _____ Because practically half the people who visited wee mystery shoppers doing sting operations. They all had weird pointed questions. Lots of airplanes flying overhead at first and in the end a float plane flew directly overhead _____. Perhaps today is why they spent all last night, from midnight until 5:30 blasting at me so I could not sleep and twenty minutes of four seizure-inducing FULL BODY FRYS. I only got three hours before and one hour from 5:30 to 6:30 of sleep. Today _____ I was definitely impaired and functioning poorly.

4:35 pm They are totally pounding my ears now I’m home.

SUN December 1 4:39 pm

It is very painful and insistent, an airplane just flew overhead. I ran outside to look, but it was hidden by fog & low clouds.

4:41 pm It stopped, they saw me looking at the sky.

5:10 pm They’re blasting me again.

7:00 pm Lay on couch while husband & son watched 60 minutes and dozed (could not fall asleep)

7:40 pm Fell asleep a bit for the last twenty minute segment and the first ten or so minutes of the next show.

8:15 pm They woke me by buzzing my ears

8:30 pm They’ve cranked it up so it is irritating and has me wide awake

8:30-9:00 pm They continued to blast me for another half hour making it forty-five minutes of harassment and irritation and SLEEP DEPRIVATION in our living room, on the couch, right in front of my husband and son, who are clueless.

two hours of laying down = THIRTY MINUTES SLEEP

9:08 pm Airplane overhead. They’ve been homing in on me on and off for the past hour as I walk around the house

10:19 pm They’re blasting me as I write this in my room. Airplane flies overhead. I’m utterly exhausted, miserable and dread the night.

10:27pm I’m experiencing heart pains as I get into bed, and some sort of panic attack as well. My ears are throbbing and reverberating with ringing.

10:38 pm They’re blasting me so intensely the skin on my scalp is crawling.

10:49 pm One continuous LOUD LONG blast from shortly after 9pm to almost 11 pm. 2 HOURS more aggressive than usual. Can’t even begin to think about sleeping.

11:40 pm They are always particularly rotten to me Sunday nights.

11:40 pm I got less than forty-five minutes of sleep before they started Blasting me awake again

11:45 pm wide awake have to pee going downstairs

11:49 pm Back in bed

MON December 2 1:40 am Last night I got three + one hours sleep. This will be a second night in a row where

I fare quite poorly. six hours

MON December 2 2:50 am

Double-barrel blasted awake both ears

2:56 am Wide awake. Helpless, sound continues

4:58 am Blasted me awake again

5:41 am They blasted me awake again

5:58 am They totally increased the volume and jammed the blasts rousting me out of bed. Needless to say, sick thoughts are going through my mind again, there is only one escape. [suicide]

6:47 am In my room writing after showering & dressing. They’re blasting away. Despicable

8:30 am Buzzed by helicopter on freeway near Boeing field

8:45 am [illustration] Was this an emergency hospital helicopter?

10:30 am Buzzed at Ravenna _____

12:15 pm Buzzed continuously (few breaks) for ONE HOUR

1:15 pm at _____ two plane flyovers hospital and float plane

6:10 pm Homed in on in living room chair when _____ sat next to me, half hour continuously

8:36 pm Bedtime

8:50 pm Over ten minutes homing in on me dull low grade rumble

TUE December 3 am

1:05 am Blasted away

1:10 am They’re just hitting me hard again & again

TUE December 3

I’m already wide awake

Their homing devices can sense my movement as I write this, the video cameras to the south likely saw my flashlight. I’ll be sending more letters. Sick and tired of this. They are destroying my health. I look in the mirror and see an ageing hag. Dark, drawn, weary with no joy, flat yucky.

three months of this have destroyed my simple pleasant beauty. I am a hag now.

1:17 am It hurts, I am desperately wide awake I can tell by the pattern of blasts they are deliberately tormenting me. Teasing and taunting. Blam Blam Blam they continual long blast. Blam Blam Blam Even longer continual blast. Then a rhythmic patterned Blam Blam Blam. Anyone who thinks this is not torture should volunteer for this exact treatment. How many days will it take for them to change their minds? Would anyone reading this like to experience this? And not be able to stop it or walk away from it. It became a permanent part of their life? How long would it take for them to decide this is torture?

1:30 am Oh god, both my eardrums really hurt. I’ve been successfully rousted out of my bed. I have to get up and walk around in the hope they stop briefly.

1:32 am Airplane, no as I go downstairs I realize it’s our heater kicking on

1:40 am I’m looking at our phone. I haven’t unplugged it in months. They win. They have used behavior modification, punishment, to train me that It is useless to unplug the phone. Again I loose. I stand here at the phone gazing at it knowing they are directly on the other side listening to me go to the bathroom in the middle of the night, reveling in their success at rousting me from bed. They have now stopped blasting me in the ears, Why press the buttons and levers. Again they win. They have awoken me in the middle of the night and know that I know that they win. They know that I know that I am standing here wide awake because of their successful campaign of sleep deprivation torture and am reduced to merely scribbling on paper. The silence is telling.

1:43 am They have stopped blasting me awake, I am awake, wide awake. I do not unplug the phone, I am trained by laboratory techniques, I am a mere lab rat. A snitch. A rat. I ratted out my co-workers and this is the punishment they know I deserve. They would never rat out each other. I am a scummy dirt bag and they are convinced I deserve this treatment. This is retribution for writing the civil rights organizations and congress. They seek to destroy me. They succeeded in teaching me the futility of unplugging the phone. They succeeded in teaching me the futility of leaving the house in the middle of the night to escape their punishing attacks. They chased me and hunted me down here and there, when I sleep in other parts of the house they punished me with immobilizing seizures with their powerful ray guns. It is futile. I die. They win. They get the primary instrument of their torture campaign, the tapped phone, continually listening and the ultimate instrument of their torture campaign, undetectable ray gun weapons, attacking me to compliant, obedient submission night after night after night, day after day after day week after week after week, month after month after month. They win. They have destroyed my instinct to fight back by unplugging the phone and destroyed my ability to escape by chasing me all over town, all over my house and trapping me in a corner and attack attack attacking me. Til now, it is the third night of 4 hours or less sleep. They will continue to gradually up the ante by slowly choking off my ability to function until I am a blithering idiot writhing in agony, inexplicably to others, in the closet, prison of my home. The bad guys win. We all loose. This is not democracy. This is not justice. This is evil.

1:55-2:00 am They stopped blasting me when I came downstairs to pee and while I was writing. Will now return to my bed.

TUE December 3 2:05 am

They could hear me brush my teeth and blow my nose. I go upstairs now. They could hear me walk upstairs to my room when I open the curtain for fresh air through the slightly ajar window their cameras posted in the neighbors windows will see me and transmit the images to their desks. How many people are on duty now and what do they talk about? They heard me flush in the middle of the night. They must know I have my period, I usually don’t flush in the middle of the night. They must count the days to determine if I am pregnant or not. After one and a half years of this they know everything.

2:08 am The homing in devices have focused in on me already. I hear the vibs.

2:09 am Will lay down and stop writing. Their sensors will see my body location, position and movement. They know every move I make soon the attacks will begin.

2:11 am The moment my head hit the pillow they upped the verbs. They have a precise ‘fix’ on my head on my pillow. Certainly they’ve averaged in it’s location inch by inch as I toss and turn during the night.

2:12 am They’re upping it even more.

2:16 am Blam Blam Blam, Now they’re making it louder and a steady blast.

2:19 am I got out of bed because they were making it even more aggravating, It took them 8 minutes.

TUE December 3 2:20 am

Sitting here in a cold bedroom. Wide awake. Tormented. Tired. Trapped. They’re just riding the controls at the console. Harassing me in derision. Taunting me with ray gun attacks from machines in my neighbors basement, large trucks and airplane fly-overs. Wherever I go. They attack me. Just think. This all started with a phone call to the fire department. They called the police. I complained. They called the FBI. I complained. They sent the military. I complained. The military tortured me in response. I complained. ! The FISC judges said this is acceptable, national security, besides they implied I’m imagining it; asked to be removed from the "mailing" list. Heaven forbid they be in a position to read my accounts of torture that they gave approval to !

I complained to congress. The torture continues. Who is next?

2:29 am The torture continues. I made a call to report a possible arson, I am tortured, stalked, blackballed from employment. Everyone who talks to me or has contact with me is investigated and criminal charges brought against them based upon their mere association with me. Everyone who has figured out I am the source of their investigation hates me. Everyone else who is tipped off by government insiders (_____ temps_____) brakes off contact or avoids me and does not talk to me.

2:36 am The torture continues. It is impossible to sleep. One and three-quarters hours continual harassment. Rousted from bed.

TUE December 3 2:36 am

Long repeated blasts, four to five seconds each. Now one second irritating blams. Back to long blasts. Irregularly patterned beats thoroughly rattle the nerves.

2:44 am Downstairs on the couch.

2:46 am They’re focused in on me and blasting me

3:42 am Blam Blam Blam woken again

4:00 am finally it stops after fifteen minutes

5:00 am Was laying prone on my back arms at side when they attacked me with two sharp hits that caused my legs to flail. Tell tale sign: lower spine tingles. Anticipating worse I turned on my side and curled into a ball. The two prior times (Nov 4 Dec 1) when they attacked me with seizure inducing blasts of (one for nineteen seconds and four for five to twenty minutes) I had been laying flat on my back with arms at my side.

5:45 am Husband is taking a shower. I notice this pattern of them homing in and blasting me when my husband or son newly approach me. Are they kidding? Are they going through a charade that they’re trying to protect me? What a hoax. Irritating buzzing continues for fifteen minutes until I am awake and stirring on the couch.

6:30 am Buzzed intermittently for fifteen minutes

6:45-7:00 am They ratcheted it up until it was so unbearable I had to get off the couch. Both ears could hear it.

7:05 am Woah! I have some sort of really weird headache in the middle of my brain

TUE December 3 5:00 pm

picking up _____ strafed by plane, buzzing so hard ears hurt. Leave car to get away

5:05 pm Return to car 5 or so minutes later. Again they really blast me hard. I turn off cell and leave car. They scramble two helicopters/planes to search for me. I hide behind van. Both my eardrums & canals hurt real bad for the next two + hours

9:59 pm Bedtime. I expect punishment tonight for turning off the cell phone. Lay exhausted through several hours, don’t know how many, of continual buzzing

WED December 4 2:31 am

Turned over because buzzing irritated me, woke me, and that’s what I do. The vibrations increased substantially

2:33 am It hurt so much I left my bed and bedroom. Rousted out of my bed from a deep sleep in the middle of the night.

2:40 am As I write this both ears hurt, hurt, hurt. Leaving house.

4:00 am Back to sleep on couch

4:22 am They wait until I’m just dozing off to start with reverbing hum in my ears. This is a painful campaign of torture & sleep deprivation They’re making it louder.

4:24 am They can hear me stir from the phone.

5:00 am They deliberately woke me half hour later with ten minutes of buzzing vibrations. I lay year still so as not to activate their sensors.

6:00 am? They woke me again with more buzzing. Dare not look at clock or grab notes. They stopped after five to ten minutes. This must have been the reward for not writing things down.

6:40 am

WED December 4 6:40 am They woke me on purpose, twenty minutes BEFORE my alarm goes off. With painful buzzing in my ears which stopped as soon as I moved a few times.

6:51 am As I lay here writing both ears just basically hurt, they are sensitive and bruised from all the attacks.

8:41 am Buzzed in car and home when I arrive home. They send a hang up phone call through

1:30 pm Buzzed in _____ upon leaving as usual, a _____ yesterday _____ buzzed me when I left. Also seem if _____ heavy

2:15 pm Buzzed so hard it hurt so bad after talking on cell by phone, by the home phone. Run out in traffic on 145^th two verifications of my location… whammy They totally jammed me at the kitchen sink trying to make brownies.

2.34 pm Threatened to kill myself. It hurts so bad. I can’t take the tension. Illegible bad they’re buzzing me. Called them evil, said they were torturing. Called them M.f. [mother fuckers] and creeps. Slammed the doors tons. Grabbed two knives and slammed them so hard one handle broke

3:50 pm Oh got My ears hurt my ears hurt so bad Headache late afternoon, early evening, bedtime. Said I’d kill myself and make my son very rich.

7:18 pm Bedtime, went downstairs to illegible heat down. They had started homing in on me when I lay down, but stopped while I was up and about. Went and bought 560 stamps [for congress]

7:47 pm Back in bed. Expect it to start again. UNHAPPY CAMPER TOOK ASPIRIN for headache from this afternoon’s total blast. This afternoon I spent three to five minutes weaving in and out of thirty four to forty five miles per hour traffic walking to try and shake the homing blast off me. It was horrible, very, very upset. I was screaming and crying at the top of my lungs telling them to stop it. I’ve never done that yet. They didn’t they’re breaking me and making me crack up. Their goal. They’re winning.

WED December 4 7:45 pm They’re buzzing and both my ears hurt so bad

THU December 5 1:30 am A woken inexplicably, turned over and went back to sleep buzzed lightly as I lay there dozing. They let me sleep all night long. I only woke once at 1:30 (was it then? Likely) The other 10 hours I slept solid.

AM They left me alone all morning long _____

12:15 pm Buzzed in car in my own driveway. In a better mood today, rested. I know this is a trick. A very deceptive trick . The calm before the storm.

2:10 pm I figured out what’s going on. It’s the first stage of being brainwashed. There must be guidelines on the process somewhere.

THU December 5 7:39 pm Went to bed early, still quite tired. They set off sirens & alarms at house _____ as usual.

7:44 pm The faint reverberations begin

8:01 pm They just hit me with a full body blast. My whole body is vibrating like an earthquake & electrocution at the same time.

12:29 am Did not fall asleep for about another hour because of continual harassing low level buzzing and vibs

FRI December 6 1:15 am They slowly ratcheted it up over forty five minutes At first, I thought I could sleep through it and perhaps it would go away. It did not go away, but continued and got louder. Then I hoped that, even though it had decisively woken me up, it would stop and I could fall back asleep shortly thereafter. It continued and got only louder even still. Then I thought if I could patiently wait it out it would certainly stop. It did not. I was completely wide awake and it got louder to the point of aggravating irritation. I got out of bed in disgust. Will write my letter to 552 people. I notice as soon as I left my bed and bedroom; the noise stopped. Rewards for being wide awake in the middle of the night when I should be sleeping and PUNISHMENT FOR SLEEPING, THIS IS A DELIBERATE CAMPAIGN OF TORTURE PERPETUATED BY SICK MINDS IN OUT MILITARY. CERTAINLY THIS VIOLATES A TON OF LAWS AND TREATIES.

FRI November 6 The last two days WED & THU they have blast attacked me in the car waiting at the _____ I’ve retreated onto campus into _____ hall where the kids practice drama. Thu they had an undercover surveillance vehicle. Are they torturing me to create a ruse to start investigations at the school?

4:30 am Finished writing the letter. Going to _____ make copies

6:45 am Finished copies came home

6:50 am On 150^th surveillance vehicle. Approaching uphill _____ does _____ Another vehicle at stop light going onto 145^th. Another _____ and across just as I pull in. 4 vehicles total. I wish they would have just let me sleep. Then I would never have gotten around (or it would have been another one to three weeks) to writing the letter, making copies which I’m going to mail today. If they had just left me alone.

7:45 am Seattle police 130^th & 5^th also Madison & Lake Washington boulevard

2:30 pm Lay down for a nap, too tired to work

3:30 pm buzzed wide awake after an hour. Was going to sleep twice as long. Back to work.

6:40 pm When I call _____ harassing alarms go off

7:30 pm Followed to Everett, undercover surveillance

9:38 pm Return home, see airplane overhead off freeway by 145^th They’re jamming the buzzing in both ears in living room and bedroom.

10:41 pm Bedtime, buzzed intensely as usual for a period of time as I fell asleep.

SAT December 7 2:39 am Was in a very deep sleep because of only about three and a half hours sleep last night preceded by about two hours of continually interrupted rest only. And then only an interrupted one (not two as I hoped) hour nap late yesterday afternoon. So, all in all, I got perhaps four and a half hours rest the previous twenty-four hours. Bad thing. So when I went to bed and was buzzed as usual likely fell asleep about 10:50-11 pm. Just woken at 2:39 from a sound, deep sleep. That would give me just over, wow! Three and a half hours sleep. Noticed it went this way. Turned over in my sleep unconsciously and was aware of being surrounded by the thickest fot/halo yet of heavy vibrations. Not in my ears at all, could only feel it. Then, I moved my arm to lift the towel over my head/eyes and see the clock very closely to my body, made one move slight body movement and the "halo, thick" broke and quickly faded away. That was one type of ray/vibration focused in and targeting me. It gave way to the slightest humming in my ears which was fairly quickly ratcheted up to the point that it became so uncomfortable and irritating that within the very minute of being awoken I got out of bed to get away from the sound. Successfully rousted out of bed in the middle of the night.

2:51 am As I write this in front of the heater downstairs they have found me, taken aim, targeted me and are attacking me with blam blam blam in my ears

2:56 am It is quite irritating now, they’re attack attack attacking me. Have a feeling it is going to be a long, cruel night.

SAT December 7 3:02 am Will try to sleep on the couch, had noticed previously the two immobilizing seizure attacks of Nov 4 and Dec 1 occurred about 3:20 am in the morning and both times I was sleeping on my back with arms gently at my sides. Tonight, as I was falling asleep in that, my favorite position, I turned deliberately to sleep on my side to reduce the likelihood of an immobilizing seizure attack. I will sleep on my side now. As I write this I can hear Blam Blam Blam verbs in my right ear and am becoming quite wide awake, drat.

1:00 pm Mailed big mailer to each individual in congress today. Homed in and targeted frequently throughout the afternoon & evening. Too tired to write it all down. Did notice they stopped when the furnace kicked in. Was this a fluke or is it a fire/explosion hazard?

9:33 pm Bedtime

9:43 pm As usual they are homing in on me with gradually increasingly louder reverberations in both ears as I try to fall asleep. Profoundly annoying to be TARGETED IN BED!

SUN December 8 1:30 am Constant low-level vibrations for one and a half hours woken at 1:30 tossed and turned for entire time as it buzzed my ears and woken at three.

4:24 am Woken abruptly and turned in bed. They rapidly ratcheted it up over the next f minutes until it became so unbearable I had to race out of my bed. Rousted from my bed in the early morning.

6:00 am My alarm was set for 6 am. Woken and out of bed one and a half hours early.

SUN December 8 7:20 am Buzzed at _____ when dropping off for one week ski trip. It was highly irritating. Also, radio went abruptly dead while driving and Seattle motorcycle cop passed us going there on freeway & me on way home passed & tracked by _____ security vehicle. No buzzing while at home reading paper but when I lay down on living room couch to take a nap the buzzing started, preventing me from sleeping.

9:25 am Also, retreated to my bedroom to write this and 9:25 they’re attacking me in my bedroom

9:45-10:55 am Took nap sitting upright in two chairs at _____ upstairs hallway.

11:36 am Buzzed in car at parking lot. Slept on couch in living room briefly in afternoon. Noticed buzzing stopped when furnace kicked on

6:45 pm Totally crashed on couch while husband watched 60 minutes. I wanted to watch but must have zonked out.

11:30 pm Slept on couch all night long.

5:30 pm Noticed the pattern of buzzing to furnace starting. Hmmm Am I imagining this. Why have I not noticed it before? What does this mean?

MON December 9 11:50 pm Bedtime, w/furnace going & greenhouse door open, hopefully the furnace will go all night long and I will sleep through the night until 6am [illustration three little hearts]

TUE December 10 5:15 am Buzzed intermittently whenever the furnace went off. They really jammed me hard at 5:15 in the morning and deliberately woke me, lay there and listened then got out of bed in front of the furnace on the living room floor at 6:20

12:15 – 12:45 pm buzzed _____ She was on a different floor at first, then they buzzed me while we were talking on the same floor but ten to fifteen feet apart.

1:15 pm Buzzed in car when I got home, Buzzed intermittently all evening long

5:45 pm Took nap again, still catching up on three months lost sleep. Was buzzed awake after an hour

10:18 pm Bedtime. Front door open two inches; door open, door to back of house open. Hopefully furnace will crank all night long and I’ll sleep like a baby.

11:38 pm Rolled over in bed they’re blasting me real hard while fan on gas furnace.

WED December 11 1:23 am Turned over woken by buzzing furnace blower fan on

3:00 am woken

4:30 am woken

5:40 am Got out of bed floor in front of furnace

WED December 11 11-11:20 am Buzzed _____ for twenty minutes, most irritating and uncomfortable plane overhead near end.

12:00-12:20/25 pm Buzzed again for quite a long period. Also, it was just after a hang up phone call on their answering machine. Obviously, while the machine was going they could definitely hear me work. Again, plane overhead near end. The thought crossed my mind they are doing humming & targeting experiments intelligible different methods and in competition with one another. The first had benefit of the original ‘fix’ on me when I drove up, got out of the car (buzzed briefly) and entered _____ Likely they were using the highest level of phone tap. Hear everything all the time. They then buzzed me from 11-11:20 am to get the absolute best "reading" on my position. This is the standard. Then another "competitor" was given the hang up phone call info only and did a fly-by /over to place a targeting ‘fix’ on me. They then compared their results. I could tell the difference, the first, more accurate one, hurt considerably more.

1:15 pm Buzzed when I got home in car before entering house. Buzzed when I entered house until I turned the furnace on.

2:30 pm Go to work in back yard

4-6:30 pm Lake Forest Park _____ w/ one stake out. Buzzed when I get home

8:30-9 pm Buzzed in bathroom, telephone room, etc.

9:00 pm Bedtime, living from floor by two propane tanks in front of furnace while husband watches TV. Third tank by fireplace w/heater element attached. Windows open.

9:10 pm They buzz me for ten minutes while I try to fall asleep. Turn on furnace & open back of house & green house doors and back heater vent.

THU December 12:12 am midnight Woken two times lightly woken w/ loud ringing in ears.

?? Fan going only 1 am living room back sides arms they hit me with brief sharp startle

2am

THU December 12 12:45 pm Buzzed in car when returning _____ Buzzed briefly a few times in the afternoon especially hard in the garage three to four times.

9:30 pm buzzed in car when returning

9:42 pm Bedtime

?? Woken twice during this period by irritating buzzing

2:17 am Woken again, opened front door 4 inches and back greenhouse door so furnace will run continuously

2:29 am Furnace has not kicked on yet, they’re slowly ratcheted it up intelligible they’re really blasting it w/ double reverberations in each ear. Blam Blam Blam it’s unmistakable the intent is to wake me. Particularly since, except for a few buzzes in the car it was quiet all day and early evening long.

FRI December 13 3:41 am They’ve been ringing my ears for the past hour and kept me awake the whole time. Opened front door more and turned furnace up more. It was not going enough before. Ears hurt

12:36 pm They start buzzing me at _____ putting extra time into

12:46 pm They are deliberately blasting me out, painful

12:56 pm It is finally almost over and I’m leaving _____

?? Buzzed in home driveway in car

2:30 pm Buzzed in ears in front of furnace as I prepare to leave house Car warming up.

4:30-5:45 pm One and a quarter hours on phone w/cell nearby – buzzed continually with various patterns for one and a quarter hours

5:45 pm In front of TV they’re buzzing me w/blasts and interfering w/TV reception. Also, earlier when it started to hurt my ears I turned the furnace on. Then they stopped blasting me at that pain level, until now, just before the 6 pm _____ news hour. Buzzed briefly when talking to husband about him enforcing building codes at work successfully

9:01 pm Bed time

9:38 pm They are totally blasting my brains out.

9:39 pm Opened door to back of house & turned on furnace P.S. They woke me from a deep sleep. I had fallen asleep and they woke me up completely.

SAT December 14 ?? Woken at least twice

1:49 am Woke and turned up furnace and opened front door

5:00 am woke up

6:00 am got out of bed

SAT December 14 9:20 am Went to _____ store. Did not have a cell on me. I had spent an hour or so calling many stores ten to fifteen out of the yellow pages; this was one of them. "They" knew I was going to this store. The airplanes had a "fix" on my car. When I parked and went in the store they kept the "fix" on me. I felt nothing. Went into the store and walked with a salesperson to a corner of the building. The sales person walked away from me, back to his station. At that point in time I was "BUZZED" as the "fix" on me was recalibrated and reaffirmed. Returned to my car, drove home and was buzzed again in our driveway.

7-9 pm Buzzed several times briefly and faintly at home in living room, bathroom kitchen.

9:25 pm Bedtime

10:00 pm finally got living room to myself

SUN December 15 12:45 am Woken

2:00 am Woken

2:34 am The very second the furnace motor stops they start blasting me. While the fan goes it used to not be a time of blasting me, but now it seems they blast me at a reduced rate. So, it is on, off, on, off, on, off. The only respite is when the furnace motor goes. Went to pee, they heard me go pee. Opened the front door wide, the video camera _____ the street saw me open the front door wide.

SUN December 15 3:38 am Sleeping on my back, arms at side, fan on furnace going they hit me with a full body blast. They’re homing in on me and attacking their target,

4:50 am Woken abruptly

{Many days have passed, I will reconstruct them. Am now at my kitchen table after having been hit with a full body blast, sharp powerful jolt, at between 3:30 and 4 am Friday December 20^th. Woken after four hours sleep. Lingering physical effect of the blast prevents me from falling asleep again. It is 5 am. I had been sleeping outside on our cement front porch in full view of their cameras. (They cheerfully have their windows wide open, lights on with sparkling multi-colored Christmas tree in the center of the living room) Surrounded by three propane tanks with one of them going with a heat on top blasting an open flame.}

SUN December 15 Was home most of the day as _____ cancelled. Noticed that I had been buzzed frequently in the afternoon when my husband and son were awake and interacting with me. They always do that when I am interacting with them. When either my husband or son and I initiate a contract and greet me, I am buzzed. If the conversation becomes ‘heated’ or ‘controversial’ I am buzzed. At any rate, I figured that when the furnace kicks on it is an ignition point to a power source of the gas lines. Evidentially, this poses some level, undetermined, of hazard. So I decided to drag out my three full propane tanks and set up the large heater that clamps on the outside of the twenty-lb propane tank, It took some effort as I had previously buried the tanks in the backyard. I set up pillows, sleeping bags and comforters on the front porch and placed the three tanks nearby. Scrupulously following all safety measures and rereading the directions several times and holding the directions in my hands, referring to them at every step as I assembled the heater unit. Bedtime on the front porch with heater unit blasting all night long.

FIRST FULL NIGHT’S SLEEP IN THREE AND A HALF MONTHS.

6:10 am Woke up by my internal clock. For decades I have gone to bed regularly nine to six, though as I have gotten older I seem to have been sleeping to 6:30 more often.

8am Drove _____ to school. Was that a helicopter monitoring us as we travelled down Roosevelt by 90^th? Was I imagining the surveillance vehicles?

9:45 am Went to _____ and was buzzed continuously for about two hours (!!). They figured out which of the two of us _____ was me, put, or activated, the fix on me, and buzzed me continuously. Very irritating and menacing. Likely a punishment for getting a regular night’s sleep. In spite of this it was an energizing day. Finally thoroughly rested. Though, the previous week, when I discovered keeping the heater blasting all night with the doors wide open gave me much needed rest, it was not until last night that I experienced the first normal night’s sleep in three and a half months.

MON December 16 Twice last week when I picked up _____ at school I was blasted so hard sitting in the car at the _____ that I was compelled to flee in pain from the car and retreat on campus to _____. I noticed they had surveillance vehicles monitoring me. The second time this happened it occurred they were creating an ‘excuse’ to instigate investigations on campus of anybody and everybody. So this week I made sure to not go on campus, but flee to the other side of the public street’s sidewalk (with no overcoat in winter) to get away from the pain in my ears and head caused by the blasts from the widely circling airplanes and helicopter overhead. They are attempting to create a contrived, phoney-baloney scenario as an excuse to circumvent the constitution & Bill of Rights and go on an un-ending, ever-widening fishing expedition on every individual associated with the institution, the school itself and any other entity associated with the school. As usual. As they have done countless times before with anyone and anything that has contact with the set-up, framed stool-pigeon, sucker-bait me. Let’s see, they hover helicopters and circle airplanes overhead that physically pound me with invisible ray-gun blasts. The pain causes me to flee my car to any nearby warm building. The people in the building are investigated for ‘associating with an associate of terrorists!’ Huh? What’s wrong here? So now I flee shivering to a cold street to protect teenage children in drama practice after school. And their parents. And their teachers. And the school administration. Ad nauseam

MON December 16 9:30 pm Bedtime Slept soundly until 3:30 am when the fuel tank ran dry.

TUE December 17 3:30 am Got out of ‘bed’ (the pillows & blankets on the outside cement floor) to turn off the fuel tank. Immediately upon returning to my bed to sleep they started zapping me. Dozed awake for another hour

4:30 am Zapped wide awake again, dozed another hour

5:30 am Zapped wide awake again. Got out of bed, read the papers.

8:00 am Took _____ to school. Had cell on me, noticed the precise timing of the float plane as it flew directly over me as I drove across the _____ I-5 over Union bay overpass. It occurred this was deliberate, But I dismissed the thought and event as coincidental. Over the next few days these ‘interceptions’ by float planes as I travelled up and down I-5 would occur again and again. They are doing practice mock/drill military exercises on me again. Only with greater urgency and frequency.

9:40 am Greenlake _____

10:30-11 am Buzzed real hard in ears, full body vibs, heard helicopter overhead, went outside & there it was just over the _____ with the camera hanging out front in full view. Gave them a one-finger salute with both hands and a scowl.

9 pm Bedtime on front porch w/tanks. Notice I was somehow zapped awake at eleven, one, three and five. It may have been because I ran out of fuel last night and did not have a heater on a tank lit. There was no ignition on, just two full tanks and one empty.

WED December 18 Morning Even though I was woken four times last night, there was no continual reverberating buzzing in the ears or any blam, blam blam. It was light enough to roll over and go back to sleep. Spent the day at home all day doing my chores. Generally rested & happy. Oh, sure, they had surveillance planes buzz the house a few times and I was buzzed countless times lightly in the house, but I turned the furnace on each time they started in on me and the buzzing immediately stopped.

9:30 pm Went to bed on the pillows by the front door on the cement patio again in full view of their cameras. Still shopping for a smaller propane tank heater, that consumes less fuel. Decided to put the 2 full propane tanks right by my head, and go to sleep that way.

THU December 19 1:30 – 2:45 am It will not work, as the night pans out, for one and a quarter hours continually my brain is totally fried as I lay there sleeping. They are "cooking" my brain. They started out slowly and gradually increased the zaps until at 2:45 am I was so uncomfortably zapped I woke up. Lay there for about another hour, head absolutely hurts through and through, cannot fall back asleep again.

3:30-4 am Got up and out of bed completely, it was hopeless. Could not sleep. Brain absolutely fuzzy for three to four hours essentially not able to ‘think’ properly.

12-3 pm _____ _____ Buzzed there repeatedly. When I left at 3:10 there was a TRUCK out front that abruptly left as I exited the house, plane overhead.

3:40 pm Picked up _____ school. Exhausted, non-functional

8:30 pm brought small Mr. Heater attachment for propane tanks 8,000 BTU instead of 45,000 BTU

THU December 19 9:30 pm Went to sleep outside on the front porch w/three propane tanks and one heater going in full view of their cameras (and beautiful xmas tree). Got a good night’s sleep. Though noticed I was sharply fry/zapped a few times that caused extremity twitches which woke me.

FRI December 20 9:30 am At _____ While working unplugged phone. Then the buzzing began; they ‘activated’ the ‘fix’ they always had on me. Did leave cell in car. Had never been at this location before but they already had the phone tap in and were listening to my conversations with the _____ the entire time. When I unplugged the phone they used their radar fix. Went outside _____ and a surveillance vehicle drove over by me checked me out and started taking notes. I remember this _____ guy from before, walk over and I stand defiantly in the middle of the street and stare back at him.

SAT December 21 12:30 am Stayed up very, very late watching a movie with my husband. Was able to do this only because in the past two weeks I’d been getting more (low quality) sleep, between blasting the furnace all night long with the doors wide open (Expensive and hard on out fifty four year old furnace) and sleeping outside with propane tanks small ovens going all night long (about four dollars per night for fuel). Still, I’m a little more at ease and able to enjoy entertainment.

9:30 am _____ No cell. Never been here before. They actually buzzed me while I was standing next to the client in _____ several times! The Nerve. They’ve never been so bold before.

SAT December 21 am These people have a large picture frame window with views from Mt. Baker to Mt. Rainier 180 degrees, perhaps the airplane (which I saw earlier) simply looked in the window to verify which one was me before shooting me with a buzz. At any rate, they really do not need a cell or land phone to keep tabs on me. It’s just for verification purposes. From being buzzed in retail stores _____ and new job assignments where I carried no cell, it is fairly obvious to me that with a ‘fix’ on me they can track me anywhere and everywhere, inside and outside, including a car and determine which is me when I’m standing by others.

12:30-1:00 am Went to bed late again because my husband and I watched a video. Slept like a rock, but got up early

SUN December 22 6:30 am Alarm went off to take son on ski trip.

7:15 am dropped _____

10:30 am Took a nap on floor in front of furnace. Turned off cell and unplugged phone to prevent "wake-up""Hang-up" phone calls. Set alarm for one and a half hours later. Opened front door wide.

11:15 am Buzzed awake after only forty-five minutes during an interlude when furnace ignition was off and only blower fan was going. Lay there for half an hour dozing, but not in a deep sleep as I should/could have been.

1-4 pm _____ Greenlake. At first they left me alone but about 2:30 the ringing/buzzing in the ears began. Illegible

SUN December 22 am The next day I thought "was that guy a spy?" Are they going to now investigate _____ school not where all the _____ kids go? Is this innocent sharing of common knowledge going to be used as a ruse/crowbar to have an excuse to investigate the school and all our finances? When are they going to get a search warrant to haul out closets full of boxes out of our house and comb through twenty-five years of scraps of paper? There’s nothing to find, our motto has been to always pay all our taxes, and then some. Besides we’ve always been poor. We have no investments, no retirement, no valuable objects. But they can break our backs simply because we can’t afford to hire attorneys. As if attorneys would have anything to do with us. No attorney will get near us. They all run in fear, and with all the letters I’ve written everywhere no attorney or law firm has called to help. They will brutally pummel us. Likely they will plant things in our possessions to set us up and frame us. That is the only way to nail us for something because we always paid our taxes and have little of value except a forty-five year old house and one twenty-one year old car and three eleven year old cars. All they can prove is that if they spend five hundred thousand dollars and send in five auditors they will discover that, yes indeed, the only criminals around are the federal government itself. We are a POLICE STATE and investigate people upon penalty of TORTURE and MENACING, HARASSING VIOLATIONS OF THE CONSTITUTION & BILL OF RIGHTS. This is just the beginning.

SUN December 22 pm Things have been going steadily downhill. For three weeks I took only brief notes on 3 X 5 cards and small legal pads. Today is 1/11/03. All I can do now is transcribe my notes over. They reflect perhaps one half to one third of the daily and nightly attacks. Sunday night.

10:15 pm Bedtime. Homed in full body

10:221 pm Second full body home in blast. Propane tank going

MON December 23 1:47 am fried awake

On back

Nerves buzzing

1:58 am Wide awake can’t sleep

5:50 am a fix on me

6:45 am Buzzed pooping on toilet! !

TUE DECEMBER 24

11:15 pm Bedtime ‘fix’ made by phone

11:45 pm Hit w/ full body blast on porch

12 am midnight Propane tank between legs in an attempt to get them to stop hitting me and let me sleep.

1:15 am Buzzed awake

2-3 am briefly on back sleeping

1:20 am I feel sick & icky. They hit me hard. Wide awake nerves jangled can’t sleep.

1:45 am Same type of blast made to make immobilization seizures as before. Still wide awake. All over nerves Stinging. Nauseated/dizzy (in bed!) Livid furious suicidal

2:00 am still wide awake. Sick icky nauseated. Lying on side, not on back. Wish I had never made that phone call [to the fire department and police] Wish I was dead. Merry xmas.

2:30 am Still completely wide awake. Nerves, nerve endings everywhere completely jangled. Can’t fall back asleep

!!!!!!!!!!

WED December 25 Christmas Significantly alienated from everyone and everything. Isolated. Despairing. Husband & son still don’t believe me laugh and make jokes. Two weekends ago my husband threatened to turn me into the authorities, have me forcibly medicated and put in jail. I’m aghast.

2:50 am My body itself is a torture chamber. Wherever and whenever I lay down the cruelty begins. I get no rest. No reprieve. My mere existence and presence on this earth anywhere & everywhere, my actual existence in my corporal body is it’s own chamber of horror. This is psychological & physical death. This is why I constantly wish I was dead. It is the only escape from this body’s prison of cruelty. Intangible, so fantastic as to be unbelievable to even those living with me.

3:55 am Went to pee

4:00 am They’ve placed a ‘fix’ on me on the toilet , again.

4:20 am Hit again w/ another twenty second full force full body blast that for an additional twenty seconds tapered off. Forty second total just below immobilizing intensity.

6:15 am Slept through the repeated blasts, but woke & turned over feel the liquid like waves of after affect and wide awake. I got hits. I have no autonomy and am controlled by pain from the inside out at the whim of countless distant others. My body is its own torture chamber, wherever it transports itself. Yet the instruments are seemingly nonexistent and the torturers not present. For all intent my life appears normal. I seem to function wherever I go. Yet, constantly 24/7 I am zapped, prodded, attacked and made perpetually weary. This is artificially induced, government sponsored insanity. Yet I appear normal. I know that for the rest of my life they can swoop down, invisibly, and attack me. And anyone else.

WED December 25 Christmas4:45 pm Full body jolt. Entire lower extremity twitches out. Semi-quiet interlude while awake

6:00 pm Full body blast two to three times on living room couch. Lay down an hour earlier for a nap at about 5 pm. They deliberately woke me after an hour.

6:10 pm Feel after effect tingling all over extremities. Nauseated. Sick, wide awake.

6:15 pm Sitting in chair feel dizzy, off kilter, woozy. They hit me hard.

Nobody watching from the outside would see or hear anything other than someone who abruptly woke from a nap, moved to a chair and watched TV. All appears normal; but, it is not. An act of cruel torturous harassment just occurred. I made no verbal comment.

6:25 pm Sitting in chair. Feel woozy, still half an hour later.

6:35 pm My husband has sat next to me for ten minutes. He is unaware of what just happened. I did not tell him. What I have told him he does not believe me. Under his nose I am tortured and he either does not believe me or is unaware because I do not complain. Still woozy, nauseated and nerve endings on all extremities still tingle under the skin. Wide awake.

7:50 pm lay down on couch to watch Tony Bennett and they home in on me and make a prickly fix.

THU December 26 am 5:29 am fix on me

5:30 am out of bed. It is irritating and twitching begins. Sleep by furnace.

4:20-5:30 am Woken intermittently

5:25 am Woken decisively by ringing inn ears which had been going on for five to ten minutes.

5:30 am Involuntary twitching of various body points/parts.

5:30 am Went to furnace

6:25 am Ringing in ears starts louder, had been going on five to ten minutes

7:15 am They rev it up every time furnace goes off.

7:50 am Get up and out, notice they had cleverly switched ringing to only when fan on furnace was going, not when furnace is actually off. Trying to disguise the noise.

THU December 26 pm 1-1:30 pm _____ buzzed so faintly

2:30-2:45 pm Full body fix at library when I sat to read paper

3:00 pm fix still on me at home.

4:05 pm nap

5:39 pm nap over

7:00 pm fix on me sitting in front of TV

7:25 pm Pricklies from fix increase

7:59 pm Clicking right ear

8:40 pm Sparkly fix on me

9:20 pm Bedtime front of furnace

10:19 pm Hit w/ sharp invisible abrupt brief something. After effect only thing felt, not the attack itself. I Was sleeping on my back.

10:22 pm Hit again, right hand clenches. Arm twitches. On back.

10:25 pm Light plane overhead

10:43 pm They keep hitting me w/blasts that make my extremities twitch. Just now left arm moved over. Moments ago, when a second light plane flew over, my right leg twitched and moved several inches away

FRI December 27 am 3:22 am Hit again. Body-crunch type. Spasm causing blast, can only feel the body crunch. Furnace fan on. Sleep on side.

Have tossed and turned all night, likely because I’m being attacked repeatedly w/blasts that cause total body movements. No ringing in ears, whatsoever.

3:41 am Small plane overhead in far distance

7:30 am Buzzed sitting by furnace w/blower fan going

7:32 am Small plane flies nearby

10:15 am Lay on couch for nap

10:22 full body blasts

FRI December 27 pm 12 pm noon Phone call from _____ about wind at airport wakes me

3:50 pm Tingling ‘fix’ placed on me after 4 hours of nothing

7:15 pm nap starts, lights blazing

11:00 pm ? Zapped awake, turned over back to sleep

SAT December 28 am 12:00 am midnight Zapped awake again, ringing in ears

12:08 am wide awake. Middle of night.

12:12 am Ringing in ears as a taunt, they know I’m awake

1:00 am They buzz my ears again

1:24 am back to sleep

1:52 am Lights out, they’re ringing my ears. Airplane overhead

2:04 am still buzzing ears

3:02 am Buzzing ears loud. Went to sleep by furnace. They’re buzzing me loud as soon as furnace turns off.

3:18 am They’re still buzzing me. When furnace went off. Opening doors & windows, turning off furnace, Bringing propane tanks inside. Lotsa blankets on couch.

3:48 am Still buzzing me very lightly & faintly but it doesn’t hurt & I can sleep through it.

4:03 am Two sharp brief twitch causes 1 full lower body blast

4:04 am They’ve kept me awake for 2+hours in the middle of the night.

4-5:00 am Two full body blasts

5:05 am Sleeping on right side hit w/full body twitch which caused my body to bend in half.

5:05 am This caused my spine to hurt at movement joints/vertebra where I bent just below solar plexus. They had just hit me moments before when I was sleeping on my back/side. Mush have turned over in my sleep (routine now) only to be hit by a big jolt on my side which caused pain at the vertebra where I bent.

7:45 am Woke up

8-9:00 am Walked around twin ponds. Shoreline police on first turn right at 155 toward fire station. Float plane has ‘fix’ on me entire time.

SAT December 28 pm They left me alone all day while I was awake.

9:20 pm Bedtime

Woken 2 x turned over

SUN December 29 am 5:45 am Woken when on back. Turned quickly, it stopped

9-10 am Buzzed lightly at kitchen table

11:00 am In parking lot hit w/something that ruined my vision. Half circle, watery, fuzzy both eyes Stroke? Aneurism? Gone half an hour later illustration of vision

SUN December 29 pm pm Buzzed lightly in room while working

3:15 pm nap

3:20 pm They are blasting my brains out as I try to nap in my bed in my bedroom upstairs.

3:23 pm Airplane overhead

3:28 pm They blasted it so loud and hard it hurt stomach I retreated to the furnace downstairs

3:47 pm On back. Full body blast, not on side

4:15-4:20 pm They blasted me good ‘n hard full body while furnace was off.

They left me alone the entire time I’ve been awake.

9:55 pm Bedtime on front porch. Spies _____ street get in car and drive away.

10:42 pm On side. Sharp brief body convulsing spasm

11:11 pm Went to pee

11:28 pm back in bed

MON December 30 am 3:19 am Awake. Tossed & turned from being lightly zapped after high intensity homing in on.

3:45 am Hit hard w/ all extremity flailing body bending at solar plexus jolt.

Wide Awake

This is what they plan on doing to dissidents who write letters like I said I would.

4:35 am Another hard solar plexus body arching with arms and legs flailing. They’re watching me. Abruptly hit every hour.

5:37 am A pattern emerges every time I move in bed am hit with a brief sharp full body piercing stab which causes my entire body to spasm. As if to say "we saw you move". We’re marking & monitoring your every position to make a fix on you for more blasts to be accurately aimed. A machine can be programmed to do this.

6:09 am Left hand only for one to two seconds. Hit by electrocuted type spasm. They are showing off how they can target specific isolated parts of my body and cause them to involuntarily move.

6:30 am zing zap

6:45 am zing zap

Full body "water jet"

Full body "water jet

Zing zap

Zing zap full body

Full body twitch

They deliberately rousted me from bed

Fireworks display sound blast that hits the body and is felt as well as heard.

MON December 30 pm Went to bed late

TUE December 31, 2002 12:33 am Bedtime LATE!

Zapped thee to five times before falling asleep

1/1/2003 FIREWORKS

WED January 1, 2003 3:30 am seven (seven!) zaps awake

7 am woke on own

9 am-12 pm Buzzed at _____

3:30 pm apx Buzzed while on toilet (THIRD TIME!)

10:45 pm Bedtime on front porch, helicopter right over house.

THU January 2 12:07 am Bedtime. Waterbed. Made my hand twitch. Made my leg spasm. They homed in on me, made my ears ring.

12:45 pm Bedtime . Front of furnace

1:00 am Homed in on me when furnace was off [am/pm off]

Woke me w/ full body blast spasm. Got fed up

FRI January 3 3:24 pm So upset I unplugged phone & cell & moved to couch. Woken w/loud buzzing in right ear

3:30 pm Woken w/ buzzing in ears

6:30 pm Woken w/ ears ringing

SAT January 4 4:55 am Woken w/ twitches

5:05 am They deliberately cause twitch Left fast (?) sticking out and me [illegible]

8:30 am lay down for a nap, still tired

9 am they hit me again w/sharp one woke me from sleep.

4:55 pm zapped wide awake again

12:35 am 2 zaps on back each side

1:23 hit again so faint. Designed to wake and disturb me without me knowing or understanding why

SUN January 5 10:39 pm Bedtime. Phone unplugged. Cell off. They still have a fix on me in front of heater. Two helicopters & 1 plane have flown directly over the house since I unplugged the phone this evening.

11:26 pm Laying on back. They put two times and three times the fix on me. Search all over, match. Bingo, I am doubly targeted by airplane. My whole body vibrates.

11:35 pm Full body spasm jolt after hand twitch. Got in car drove up our tiny hill to stop sign, circled back in bed

11:42 pm Turned on furnace and peed pronto

11:55 pm My left arm is sticking out & they caused it to twitch

12 am midnight Slight full body jolt. Enough to wake me were I to be asleep. Briefly before It I could feel a ‘fix’ on my solar plexus.

12:03 am They hit me again even harder. These people are vicious.

12:20 am Helicopter loud and clear

12:23 am Feel fix

MON January 612:28 am Heater kicks on. Left foot twitches. I got the message. With these special helicopter/airplane ray guns they can zap me by the propane tanks & furnace.

12:38 am Moved to couch

1:06 am Fix "re-started"

5:15 am They homed in on my solar plexus. Inexplicably woken. Must have been lightly hit.

They left me alone all day long…until now.

7:00 pm Lay on couch exhausted, they put full body buzzing fix on me. Especially legs. Like being electrocuted before it grabs you.

7:54 pm They got a solar plexus grab on me. I’m ‘fixed’ for the rest of the night.

8 pm Spoke out loud when cake was cooked from couch.

8:23 pm Blast causes both arms to twitch & jolt. Previously they had been together in praying position sticking out from my body on my left side. Also, have instant headache that was not there before.

10:05 pm Entire right shoulder twitches/moves Slept more this night. They allowed it, they’re in control of my body functions. Think they gave me about six hours sleep.

TUE January 7 8:13 pm Fix on me watching TV

9:00 pm lay on couch to sleep

9:32 pm Hit w/ full body silent poisoning causing all extremities to jolt

2:12 am Have been tossing and turning for no specific reason. Felt no hits or spasms. Are they doing something lightly or am I being left alone and sleeping poorly?

2:54 am Sure enough they homed in on me about ten minutes ago. When I was on my back for the first time all night. Then just now they struck. They hit my left shoulder causing my arm to flail.

3:07 am I had turned over to my other side. Right shoulder was sticking up. They just hit it. Now hear airplane overhead.

3:53 am Fried all over with complete total skin all over body sparkling, buzzing fry. Airplane. My skin everywhere has a sparkling, tingling burn.

4:01 am I feel slightly nauseated, sick & wobbly like water.

4:53 am Hit all over w/full body tingling hit. Especially on throat which made me cough. Earlier hits this hour? On left elbow. Four sharp hits; all full body.

5:16 am Two more sharp brief hits all over. Two right half three left half of body. Four full body again

? Tweaked my left thumb and left hand which were sticking out and up.

6:42 am Two sharp hits to skull second full body hit.

7:00 am Full body light spasm jolt. They ‘allowed’ me five hours bad sleep between 9:30 and 2 am. The last two nights was the most (two days) consecutive sleep I’d had in quite awhile. Feeling comparatively rested. Feel like I want more sleep, Like I should be feeling this well and better all the time. Everything about this torture stinks. I need to gain control and fight back somehow for more sleep. I know the ignition trigger on the heater causes them to stop buzzing my ears when the furnace is generating heat. That is why I dug up the three large propane tanks and slept outside with them going _____ all night long. The furnace goes off and on, off and on all night long. They adapted and turned their ear buzzing mechanism off and on which allowed me some respite, some sleep. But not enough. The continual ignition of the large propane tank kept the ear buzzing at bay. It stopped. But they adapted new tactics. They sent airplanes. And helicopters. They zapped me briefly and frequently with accurately directed something, lasers? Whatever, they simply avoided the propane tanks and pinpoint targeted me sleeping outside on the front porch. So I grabbed a large propane tank and wrapped my legs around it. To no avail. They just targeted my torso top rather than bottom.

WED January 8 The thought occurred to me today, what if I cover my entire body surface with tanks? Then they could not hit me. So I went to Home Depot and bought 8 four packs of small camping tanks the size of water bottles. I wanted to make sure they don’t accidently ignite them so in front of their cameras on the front porch I duct-taped them to a sleeping bag and slept on top of the thirty two tanks. Here’s the results.

WED 5:00-6:45 am Slept on floor by heater. They woke me between 6:15 and 6:45 by zapping me repeatedly at this, then that body part. Essentially tweaking, tinkering with and toying with my body. Pestering me. Hands or feet that ‘stuck out’ then solar plexus blasts over and over repeatedly until one final big jolt. Jerks.

10:48 pm Bed on eight times four equals thirty-two small propane tanks. Let’s see if they leave me alone in front of heater. Will try again to sleep

11:00 pm Hit repeatedly during the night

2:55 am Hit full body, while furnace going!, on top of thirty-two propane bottles.

THU January 9 3:08 am They hit my left hand only. Causing it to spasm at the wrist sharply as it hung out of propane tank range. Sharp.

3:20 am They hit my ring finger on left hand as it was prominently placed.

3:24 am They hit my left shoulder as it sticks up and out while I’m on my right side. Furnace fan going.

4:10 am Laying on back they do a two minute full body homing in blast. My whole body typically "maintains & holds" this vibration for several hours about two to six hours. It just lingers. It feels like water and it won’t go away for a long time. Thinking of the Aurora bridge. [suicide]

It was a helicopter earlier they were planes, they sense my every movement and position down to the last finger and toe at any angle. My solar plexus is hyper-vibrating from them. I am constantly under attack, all night long, every night. I can’t sleep on my back, my favorite position, I’m forced to curl into a ball on my side. Most uncomfortable, to dodge the worst of the attacks. They then hit my protruding feet, hands and shoulders intermittently with my fingers and toes and boring down, focusing, on my skull. My body is its own torture chamber. Wherever it goes my torture chamber is transported to attack me repeatedly with various implements, lasers, radar, microwave, sonar etc.

4-6:15 am They hit me several more times in the morning, including a sharp full body jolt at 6:14. Very funny. One minute before I told my son to set the alarm for. They woke me at 7am yesterday when I slept through my son’s 6:40 alarm.

THU January 9 1 pm Slept sitting up with head on table at kitchen table.

2 pm Woken inexplicably from a deep sleep, head back down again.

2:20 pm Phone

2:45 Wide awake (finally) and alert. About two hours gone in the middle of the day because exhausted.

6 pm Realize they really fried my brain two hours earlier when I was constructing my "safe cave", propane tanks my sleeping spot in front of the heater. Lots of planes and helicopters flying overhead.

8-8:30 Brain fried from TOP at _____ school meeting with fifty present in _____ building. They bored down through the top of my skull. Was followed by helicopters and another float plane to this meeting. Now know why ….. oh yeah.

Which reminds me about something that happened this morning. To back track.

9 am Helicopter over _____ ‘buzzes’ me. I hear the planes and go outside to look. The helicopter had put the ‘fix’ on me, the target and guided another airplane which climbed high, straight up in the air with a white stream.

To return

9:15 pm Got home from school meeting with a helicopter overhead.

9:45 another helicopter

10:23 pm Bedtime by furnace twenty-eight small propane tanks

10:57 When husband left the front of the TV to go to sleep they shot me hard full body. I was on my back sleeping. It woke me abruptly. Whole body watery. Curled into ball on side.

11:11 pm They’re sending another helicopter, I hear them. The propane tanks placed above me do not work.

11:11 pm They planned their sick blast assault on me for when my husband moved. All I want is some sleep. I think they want to kill me and all I want is sleep. At this point permanent sleep is OK by me. [suicide]

11:17 They’re blasting me with reverbs in my ears –

11:35 They stopped the ringing in ears. My body is a nervous jittery wreck. Wide awake. Half an hour earlier I had been sound asleep on my back. Had gone to bed an hour before. Am now wide awake and am a nervous wreck. Can’t stop the physical buzzing. This typically lasts one to four hours after they blast me. Average two hours. This conspiracy of torture includes my recruited neighbors.

FRI January 10 12:01 am My left toe, left shoulder, small of lower back, right wrist. They hit me all over in quick succession, even with the furnace on. Just as I was falling asleep. Woken repeatedly every half hour.

12:07 am Now they’re buzzing my ear again. No furnace on.

1:15 am Woken w/ buzzing in my ears

1:40 am It has continued for half hour solid. No sleep.

5:00 am Woken, inexplicably.

5:25 am Buzzing in ears, helicopter. So what have they proven? That five or six guys with the most combined power the world has known can rally & organize enough forces to spend four and a half months invisibly beating up and torturing a small, middle aged housewife? So they’ve proven that if they use hundreds or thousands of well-trained specialty personnel to track, stalk, menace and surreptitiously torture a pathetic fluff-job they can drive her to suicide? To leave the country? Or simply drive her stark-raving mad?

FRI January 10 So they’ve proven they can blackball her from her usual line of work, start active criminal investigations on every employer, anyone she talks to, friends, family, make tens of people she associates with despise her because they’ve figured out she’s the stool-pigeon, sucker-bait source and reason for the investigations. So they’ve proven they can create lots of enemies for her by simply violating the constitutional rights of anyone she associates with and harassing them with investigations. So they’ve proven they can pretend to ‘protect’ her from countless new found enemies they’ve given her by continually stalking their new found prey, sucker bait/stool pigeon with so-called ‘protective’ surveillance. So they’ve proven that the primary secret weapon against her to ‘keep her in line’ ’manage her behavior’ ’control her reactions and bad attitude’ ’remind her who’s in charge’ ’maintain her framed set-up position as a lucrative investigation-churning stool-pigeon’ ’lock her into a technological, virtual real-time jail’; the primary secret weapon against her is assault & battery, cruel & unusual punishment. The primary secret weapon against her is the continually applied torture of being attacked, hit and beat up from the inside out by invisible ray gun blasts whose damage is also invisible. These weapons are hidden in buildings, cars, helicopters and airplanes. So they’ve proven they can so psychologically isolate someone in the middle of a seemingly ordinary life that family and doctors (who themselves are not personally experiencing any of this ) are convinced ‘she’s crazy.’ So they’ve proved they can do all this to cripple someone so the only personal control they have over their own life is the same thing that releases them from months and months of hourly, day and night, torture; the only act of personal control and prevention of further torture is suicide. So they’ve proven they can physically and mentally break someone with torture, brainwash them with propaganda, change the laws, create ‘military courts’ and have the very same people who are torturing her, the military, be judge & jury in sham trials.

"Military tribunals are readied; they will try terrorist suspects" Seattle times; Seattle, Wash; Dec 27, 2002 Frank Davies… "By the end of the year, the guidelines might be ready, including a definition of war-crimes offenses. Each military service is putting together teams of officers who will act as judge and jury, and military lawyers who will serve as prosecutors and defense counsel, [Maj. Ted] Wadsworth said. [a pentagon spokesman.]

_____ BACKTRACK_____

TUE January 7 Another most unusual thing occurred, Tuesday night my son said the back hoes digging in the public right of way between the _____ School _____ campuses "accidently" severed the Telephone; Internet and INTRANET connections. He said the [so – called] city workers jumped up and down swearing a lot when they realized their [so-called] mistake.

WED January 8 The next day I realized it was spies who deliberately severed the connections so they could surreptitiously place wire taps on the connections and cover them with dirt, permanently covering it up.

WED January 8 I have seen this before. First at NYHS, the Monday after the Sunday when MI Police stopped the first attempt on the building, Just before 8 am Monday morning. Out in the clear, I saw workmen placing the first wiretaps on the control box at the street corner. Again, months later at _____ I saw, right in the open, workers placing wiretaps at the street box and permanently camping there for weeks on end a telephone van or two pumping water out of the street level control box. (whom I accidently stumbled across while visiting _____ temp services next door and overheard a conversation by accident) Was told the phone company work was ‘routine repairs’ while the entire wall, ceilings and street level access was ripped apart and rewired, and again I myself, witnessed the phone company van and person who placed the tap from a few poles down on out home phone. I believe the so-called innocent repair work being done to the _____ school’s entire communication apparatus is the placing of telephone, internet and private INTRANET surveillance intended to last for and never be uncovered.

_____CONTINUATION_____

FRI January 10 Nothing all day except lots of helicopter and airplane flyovers and light ear buzzing at _____. Absolutely exhausted from no sleep the night before, they deliberately tortured and tormented me mercilessly because it was my second night with small propane tanks, an effort to get them to leave me alone and let me sleep. Last night they were on wood planks above me. The night before I slept on them. (ow) I had hoped the tanks would prevent them from attacking me with ray guns. Instead they were even crueler than before, attacking me continuously and mercilessly.

5:30 pm Pulls car into driveway, I had the seat down horizontal and was sleeping. Because I was not visible (trying to remain in the car and sleep more) they blasted my ears with noise.

5:35 pm I was livid. I came inside and unplugged the phone.

5:40 pm They sent a helicopter directly overhead, I went outside and flipped the plane off in the driveway and slammed the front door.

Followed by helicopter to _____ market. Slept in Honda.

7:55 pm Lay down to sleep, first full body hit

8:05 pm Second full body hit. Followed in sequence every few minutes by hit on right shoulder, hit on left thumb, hit on right leg, and two more body parts before stopping. Did I get the point?

8:55 pm Woken inexplicably, homed in on when I moved to look at the clock, In car in parking lot

9:05 pm Full body blast of thirty seconds to one or two minutes.

9:10 pm Very awoken, wide awake, sickening watery feeling that typically lingers one to two hours. I heard a vehicle start nearby, sat up abruptly and saw no other vehicles around me for 50-100 yard radius except the one vehicle behind me that started. I surmised the _____ pickup License # _____ was a spotter on the ground to verify my identity for the helicopter overhead to attack me. I followed it to _____. Returned home.

FRI January 10 10:35 pm My husband and son were watching something on _____ computer and invited me over to watch. I lay down next to my son on his bad while he sat there watching TV. Immediately tried to fall asleep.

10:49 pm They homed in on me and sent an airplane/helicopter overhead.

11:08 pm They blasted me awake again for ten or more solid minutes. Low grade buzz right next to my husband and child.

11:40 pm Buzzed on right cheek of my butt.

11:57 pm They hit me with whole body buzz to wake me and made a sound come out of _____ CD on computer for one to two seconds of a door opening and slamming shut.

SAT January 11 12:10 am Hit my upper shoulders causing spasm

12:55 am Hit two times full body blasts causing both shoulders to spasm. Airplane goes overhead.

12:59 am Top left inner thigh two times (this has been done before especially in car earlier tonight in parking lot.)

3:57 am Woken by ringing in ears; airplane approaching from distance.

4:08 am Ringing in ears is now profoundly irritating. Now WIDE AWAKE. Do not anticipate it ending, it only pauses when the furnace is actually going. Likely it will increase in intensity until I am rousted from bed.

4:11 am Ringing stopped, but right ear just plain hurts. I know they were watching my body movements on some monitor.

SAT January 11 4:32 am They started the ringing in ears up for five minutes just before the next volley. Then they stopped it and moved on to the next.

4:32 am Full body blast causes my entire body to recoil into a ball. All encompassing, low grade, but intense & non-stop, Lasts two full minutes.

4:35 am They can see me write notes.

5:03 am Hit by full body blast one to two minutes followed by ringing in ears five minutes

5:13 am Hit by full body blast which woke me. Again. Right hand (sticking up over my left shoulder) spasms & twitches followed by immediate full body blast – low grade – one minute, but enough to wake me just as I was dosing off.

5:34 am Lying on right side. They actually hit first my right foot causing it to move. Then R shoulder also causing a twitch. More weight on shoulder, less on foot, it moves.

5:36 am I adjust to be on my back, two twitches few minutes later

5:40 am Ringing in ears only stops when furnace kicks on left alone all morning except planes that buzzed me at Carkeek park and Twin Ponds park.

1:00 pm Fix placed on me when sitting on the toilet. Believe it was done by a helicopter which flew over on the neighbors say so.

1:20 pm Exhausted, will sleep sitting up in front of heater

1:38 pm Hit with a full body blast when the heater went off. It disturbed me as well as made me furious. Obviously, I can be awake anytime 24/7, but they intend to disturbing me anytime I try to sleep. Sleep is forbidden and they will prevent it no matter what I do to try to get sleep.

SAT January 11 1:54 pm One thing about a Full Body Blast, it jangles our nerves so that it becomes difficult to fall back asleep right away. It’s more than adrenalin, it’s some sort of brain-central nervous system, nerve ending, hyper-excited and frazzled pathology. It results in "tired & wired" yet not able to relax enough to sleep. Like a two to three year old sometimes gets.

2:09 pm Moved to the couch. They sent a plane over. I can feel the new ‘fix’ on me. 2 passes overhead.

2:26 pm They just hit my left hand (sleeping on left side and arm out at angle) causing it to clench hard and spasm back at the wrist. Heater going full blast [illustration]

2:41 pm heard planes, raced out into driveway to see both the helicopter and small plane they (the neighbors) sent over to blast me while I tried to take a nap because of exhaustion from being woken every hour last night.

6:20 pm Lay head on kitchen table to sleep. They had placed a fix on me about half an hour earlier. About two minutes after laying my head down they sent a plane directly over the house.

6:37 pm Got up to brush teeth, talk to _____ turn on the radio and placed it directly on the telephone. They sent a plane back over the house. They may have lost their fix on me because when I was standing by the TV they blasted the TV set causing interference, but maybe missing me, I felt nothing.

6:38 pm Will try to sleep with head on the kitchen table.

6:48 pm I think I feel a fix on me.

7:07 pm Hit with sharp Full Body Blast for forty seconds.

SAT January 11 I went to the phone & blasted the radio upside down onto it.

7:15 pm Went to the spot by the heater to sleep. Curled into an oblong shape w/ feet together and hands under head. First they burned a spot on my left cheek of butt (that joke I got, I am a pain in the ass); Then my left foot (but they could/did not make it move, twitch or spasm); then my left shoulder; back to my left butt, etc, etc. Fell asleep, woke and turned to the other side when they "tweaked" lightly with me in a few places. But I did get a nap. Only. Woke.

9:35 pm Woke. Lay on back finally, curiously at this point they really homed in on me and placed a strong "fix" on my solar plexus. This I had to think about. Why?

10:00 pm I think the stronger and more anatomically accurate the fix, the stronger and more accurately they are able to aim the attacks.

Two days this week I did not bathe, but simply wore the same clothes in a row, sleeping in the clothes I wore the next day, I’m falling apart.

A complete wreck, wrote nothing internal clock off

SUN 2 am Going to sleep late in spot by furnace.

2:21 am They had a fix on me and made my left leg spasm while on the left side. They can sense my movements and see me move and write these notes.

2:38 am Full Body Blast Jolts entire body just as I’m settled and ready to doze off.

SUNDAY January 12 3:04 am Sharp Full Body Attack woke me as drifting off. Each time they blast me a full body jolt it is a greater intensity than the last. Full Body Blast. There’s a helicopter or airplane overhead.

3:22 am Upper lip grimaces involuntarily, they’ve begun tinkering with and tweaking my face. Fix placed on entire body. Got that watery-sick feeling, did not feel the blast itself, only the after effects.

4:03 am They keep blasting me with low grade buzzes that don’t hit or jolt; but don’t let me sleep either.

4:05 am Went to pee. Cannot keep my balance. It’s like I’m drunk. I’ve never had problems with bouncing out of bed before. Ever. Never ever. Now it’s like a falling down drunk.

? They jolted me again, hard.

4:53 am Still awake, got pillow to sleep propped on other side because left side hurts. Originally lay down to sleep three hours ago. They’re buzzing my ears now, forcing me to get up again and open the door to the outside (wasting money) to keep the furnace going continuously, turned on furnace.

7:19 am _____ Wakes me to go skiing. Took a bath for the first time in three days. Usually I shower twice a day or once a day; but not every three days. I am going downhill fast. Sleeping in street clothes without changing or bathing.

? Buzzed by plane going to _____

9:30 am Buzzed by plane/neighbors when in car and house

12:43 pm Greenlake

12:58 pm Hear airplane, ears lightly tickled

SUN January 12 1:09 pm Slept as best as I could the entire three hours curled in a chair. _____ It was needed and helped a lot. I was an exhausted zombie. _____ I was interrupted constantly, Yet I rested more than at home. Bad sleep. Ok rest.

1:09 pm Left arm flails off chair; hit by zap from airplane

1:15 pm Fix on me left a watery feeling

1:35 pm Spy. License # _____ Told him I’m being tortured, sleepy, not feeling well. Buzzed in ears. Mostly spies _____

2:12 pm Float plane flew by window. I shook my finger & frowned.

3:08 pm Zapped while on back in chair. Left leg flips up and out. Spasm. (Like at the doctors when they hit your knee)

3:20 pm Ears still buzzing. Must still have a solar plexus fix as I’m lying on my back still.

3:30 pm Two to three light hits with spasms, ears still buzzing

3:54 pm Fix on me leaves watery feeling. While two people are here I suddenly acquired a headache like they really pounded my brain. Woozy watery fuzzy feeling. Spies?

8:11 pm Bedtime. They already have a fix on me. I can feel it tingle. On living room couch

8:25 pm I just got hit hard, my whole body lurched with a jolt. Airplane overhead.

2:00 am They placed a fix on my solar plexus when I was sleeping on my back briefly. The machines sensed my movement and body position. They were waiting like hawks. They then targeted me with the buzzing in ears most accurately. I thought during this time they were buzzing my ears but dismissed it as noise from the furnace fan because it stopped when the fan went off.

2:00 am Woke up gradually rather than fall back asleep as I expected I would. Turned over on the couch readjusted pillow.

MON January 13 2:22 am I realized that very faintly my ears were being buzzed. Just could not believe it. Just got five and a half hours sleep. For decades, my entire life, really, my usual amount of sleep nightly is nine to ten hours on a consistent, regular, clock-like basis. Rarely have I gotten less than 8 hours a night for more than two to three nights in a row. I simply crash. Hard. Once, in my mid-20’s I got by for one and a half years on seven and a half hours a night. Then I hit the wall and crashed back to nine to nine and a half hours per night. For two years my young child woke me three to five times a night. That stopped when he got old enough to understand words. Then several times I lambasted him, he finally got the point and let me go back to my regular nine to nine and a half hours per night sleep.

2:26 am Got out of bed, went outside looking for airplanes, none. Oh yeah. It’s the buzzing in my ears, that’s what the neighbors _____ do. I made two ugly frowning faces at side clenches for their cameras, no words. These people are directing a deliberate campaign of torture at me. The airplanes directed by them and satellites are in charge of the full body blasts. Came inside and unplugged the phone. TOTALLY WIDE AWAKE, and furiously livid. THEY ARE CRIMINALS,

2:46 am Gave up. At kitchen table. Will work & write notes.

Torture is more than physically anguishing, it is murder of the heart and soul. It makes the victim long for death. It permanently alters the psyche and personality.

MON January 13 mid-morning 3-4 am There have been two articles, one in the New York Times and the other in the Seattle Times about torture. This week’s economist has an article about torture Jan 11-17, 2003. Personally, I’ve always been appalled at torture, but recognized it’s value when used in brutal societies against wiley bad guys.

2:56 am They stopped buzzing my ears because it succeeded. It woke me up completely and their sensors know I’m sitting at the kitchen table. No need to buzz me anymore, mission accomplished. And. If I go back to the couch to sleep? Back to the usual, more of the same. After about twenty minutes just as I’m falling back to sleep, blam! They’ll start rousting me again.

4:55 am Will try to sleep again. Quite tired. Still.

8:08 am Woke abruptly from deep sleep.

8:23 am I know why. My ears have been ringing ever since. At first I thought I was imagining it, but slowly it’s been ratcheted up to irritatingly wake me and roust me from bed.

8:24 am I got up and moved about. The ringing , buzzing in ears stopped.

8:33 am Float plane flies over out house. Leaving after mission accomplished.

9:12 am Mildly dizzy, don’t know why.

Buzzed at _____ w/ airplanes floating over

Buzzed repeatedly at _____

Buzzed in driveway of our home.

8:52 pm Bedtime couch

9:07 pm Hit twice in right shoulder, airplane overhead

10:38 pm Zapped awake, almost inexplicably, but felt the last one

10:45 pm Body cavity turned into river, rafting water !!

? Feel as if my brain is being slowly cooked, but I’m not being hit per se.

TUE January 14 4:40 am Woke inexplicably with a headache. As I suspected earlier they aimed for my skull and . This is sick. Who does this kind of thing? Can’t sleep. Have an absolutely intense headache. Now they’re ringing/ buzzing my ears loud to force me out of bed. I can’t stand it: headache, ringing ears; obviously I’ll go. Behavior modification and control of my body functions and ….. Can’t think, it’s so bad… of the worst kind. Furnace kicked on, thank god.

So what’s next after an "attitude adjustment?" ??Thought Police?? By the way, I’m not the one with an "attitude" problem, if you think belief in my basic constitutional rights and the Bill of Rights is an attitude problem. The torturers with their fingers on the buttons of their mad machines are the ones with !

6 am Went to the bathroom; they buzzed me faintly on the toilet, then sent an airplane overhead to get a better ‘fix’ on me. Turned on furnace and raced over to it.

7 am Oh, now I get it. While sitting at the kitchen table reading the paper I noticed my headache had almost worn off. Then, now, at 7 am, I noticed it has returned with a vengeance. I wonder why? Easy guess. The fix they placed on me while on the toilet was aimed directly at my skull as I read the paper. They slowly increased the burn until I was uncomfortable enough to move from my primary sitting/ workplace. As a lucky souvenir they’ve given me a headache to remind me of who’s in control.

TUE January 14 This seems quite mean to me. Is this the purpose of being "in control?" The ability and permission to effectively enter someone’s brain and do cellular damage? Is this ethical? Seems like belligerent bullying to me.

7:13 am Headache mostly gone; moving around the house working.

7:50 am Been back and forth to the garage because installing electric can opener. They are definitely blasting me with sound waves to my skull. Lo-vibrational, inaudible, no buzzing, no squealing. Just an incredibly low hum. Right at my brain. Instant headaches that come & go depending on their whim and focus.

8:15 am Went to car trunk for supplies after going down to furnace to change furnace filter (that stopped them cold.) Outside at car trunk, miracle of miracles NO HEADACHE. Wonder why.

11:53 am Moved around and did lots of chores until now when napping in front of heater. Dismantled hide-a-cave and propane tanks. They did not work. Will try something else later. Will take nap.

12:15 pm _____ called and I had turned off the constant beep on the phone.

12:18 pm They are now hitting me again & again as I try to continue my nap. They got a fix on me. They made my left hand clench sticking out.

12:25 pm They hit my left lag making it jerk & spasm on left side.

12:28 pm They hit me again

12:33 pm They hit my head and made my entire skull jerk back.

12:34 pm Sharp, light full body zap

12:36 pm Left thumb under head by ear

12:37 pm Left foot sticking out faintly

12:40 pm Left thumb sharply, notice vehicle drive by house

TUE January 14 12:44 pm Discovered I had left the car warming up for one and a half hours. Simply forgot. Further sign of my deterioration. I have never done this before. Along with only four baths last week and wearing the same clothes day and night for two to three days in a row. Usually I do a intelligible. Wear different clothes each day of the week. Religiously.

7:14 pm Lay on couch for nap. Very tired

7:41 pm Jolt across both shoulders causing them to move after I stretched out two to three minutes ago.

7:46 pm Very light, but distinct full body blast.

7:50 pm Full body blast again

7:54 pm Two full body spasm bends at the solar plexus. The second was worst.

8:34 pm All over body jolt, two times

12:00 am Midnight WED January 15 Had just rolled over in bed from one side then to the other. Was I awoken half an hour before and this my body’s response? Looked at watch. Midnight. Within five minutes it would be apparent. Their scheme to awaken me was in full progress, the noise had started faintly.

12:12 am Revved up so loud I’m rousted from bed. I could sleep another five to six hours were I allowed to. But these despicable, heinous, lithesome creeps have destroyed my life. I only am getting an allotted and highly interrupted five hours of crummy, crappy rest. This is not sleep/ It is a mere pause in five months of misery. They have destroyed my healthy sleeping habits. Here I am, wide awake in the middle of the night. Furious at criminals posing as good guys. This is law enforcement?

WED January 15 If I had not made that first phone call to my friend _____ Arson investigator for the City of Seattle, this would not be happening to me. It has taken 1 ½ years of harassment and five months of torture to make me wish I had never made that first phone call. I am being tortured by the US Government.

2:34 am Sitting upright in front of heater. Will try to sleep.

3:15 am Still trying to fall asleep propped sitting upon pillows on the floor in front of heater.

3:37 am About ten to fifteen minutes ago they deliberately homed in on me and then blasted me two to three times. Then stopped. Prior to that, about an hour, it was the noise in ears like a heartbeat, mine’s much slower. I think this is artificial.

4:00 am ? Blasted again, full body. My thinking becomes frantic. These people are planning and plotting to destroy democracy, bring in the secret police, and install a totalitarian, military regime that can never be defeated because of its technological foothold.

? Full body blast, again.

6:20 am Woke up

6:40 am out of spot/bed

1:15 pm ? Took food out to front compost pile. The spies deliberately timed their harassment of me when I had my back turned and exited their home and entered their car with much fanfare. I fled back behind the house, came around to sneak in the front door and slammed the front door seven to ten times and unplugged the phone. These are the very people who have been torturing me for almost five months. They are wicked.

8:23 pm Bedtime on couch

8:29 pm They put a fix on me and sent a helicopter overhead.

THU January 16 12:15 am Abruptly zapped awake. Entire body spasms out of a deep sleep. Within one to two minutes absolutely wide awake. Hear ringing in my ears. Get up. Start writing. Hear approaching helicopter to put fix on me. Turn on furnace.

12:20 am In front of furnace to sleep. Peed first, opened greenhouse door.

12:35 am Arranged pillows, not trying to sleep.

12:52 am They’re ringing my ears, furnace off.

1:43 am They homed in on me with the circling planes and fried me about five to ten minutes ago. Before they fried me they tinkered with my body parts. Middle toe, Left foot, thumb left hand, right shoulder zapped to move, Left leg (which I’m leaning on curled into a ball sitting up on my left side propped by pillows.) They the Big Fry. Zap. They finally stopped the ringing in my ears.

2:33 am Still awake about ten minutes ago. They twitched my left thumb because I had moved, adjusted my sleeping position on the pillows. They rang my ears and sent a helicopter over.

3:30 am Zapped 2 more times. Switched over to left side from right. They’re not ringing my ears.

? One more full body zap

6:10-20 am Woke for good, buzzing ears got me to sit up, then it stopped.

7:00 am Out of bed (pillows by furnace on floor)

7:45 am Took aspirin for headache

8:45 am Tracked from _____ school home with high speed fancy airplane behind car. Gave me a bigger intense headache.

11:10 am I think they are homing in on my skull to give me a headache. I took an aspirin but it’s become significantly worse. Most unusual for me.

11:15 am Headache lessens considerably, helicopter flies directly over house immediately afterword.

7-7:22 pm They have more accurately set their fix on me by my talking and my husband talking. Slowly homing in.

THU January 16 At office meeting earlier today they announced that the state government is requiring that the company do certain things differently and also the state government is behind the introduction of five new forms. This information was fed to the state government on the mere coincidence that phones were being tapped because of something that happened on Mercer Island one and a half years ago. Whatever happened to the Constitution? Bill of Rights?

7:53 pm Bedtime on couch

8:00 pm Migrated to front of furnace

8:04 pm Migrated back to couch

8:40 pm Hit with several full body blasts. They make left hand clench and twitch.

8:41 pm Homing in on me as I write

1:14 am Ringing in ears move to front of furnace

1:15-45 am Woken by continual ringing in ears

2:00 am will try to sleep

FRI January 17 Left thumb and wrist hit Foot hit Thumb again two body blasts

2:45 am Still ringing in ears when furnace off

I rolled over in "bed" to other side and the entire process was repeated. Thumb hit, foot hit, mild body blast over the next ten to twenty minutes

4:15 am Woken with ringing in ears

4:20 am Woken again

6:00 am Woken, early why?

6:40 am got up and out of "bed"

8:45 am Returned home from taking son to school. Upon entering the house I was hit unusually hard by ringing/buzzing in ears just before turning on the furnace. I then turned on three radios in the house at three different locations to mask my whereabouts physically in the house by the sound I make.

FRI January 17 Skipped today’s bath. Have a headache.

8:45 – 10:20 am This headache was caused by my brain being bombarded all night by ray guns. There is a huge fuzzy cotton ball between my eyes, behind my nose, right in the middle of my skull. It makes it almost impossible to think.

10:20 am Only now am I able to articulate this. Is this a swollen brain? Cellular damage? Vascular damage? I don’t know what it is but can certainly feel its effects.

11:10 am Went out the front door and the female neighbor across the street exited her front door at precisely the same time I exited mine. This is the second time in two days. That plus yesterday afternoon when I left the driveway at 3:10 pm and turned around to look over my shoulder to back out someone was sitting in their white car and put their red brake lights on as if they were exiting their driveway at the same time. As I drove up the hill I noticed in my rearview window they took their foot off the brake, the red brake lights went off and they never backed up and left their driveway. These are three total incidents of stalking, tracking and menacing harassment in w days on the part of these ‘friendly officers.’ Since this morning, ten minutes ago, I had essentially tip toed quickly and quietly out the front door to avoid a repeat of the prior incidents I believe they actually wait for hours on end by their front door for a cue from someone else who is viewing a monitor with video from a camera planted in our house. If this turns out to actually be true this raises a lot of questions from me. Like what are they doing with over a years worth of footage of our private home and living room, what rooms are they looking at. Oh my god! This is so outrageous I can’t think! I am sick with distress and beside myself. This is despicable.

I think they are going to wait a few months or a year or so until this country is destabilized and chaotic and go for a secret military tribunal. My thoughts of a highly likely worst case scenario. I really think this is what they’re going for.

12 pm noon I sit down at my desk by the phone and they put a fix on me.

1:24 pm Drove to Post Office & _____. Nothing. But I pulled into the parking lot at _____ and my ears blast a loud with reverberations. Hear the helicopter/plane coming.

3:55 pm Have cell on me. Drove to _____ before picking up my son. Followed by float plane.

4:05 pm Leaving _____. In car, looking west out car window putting on lipstick when lo and behold a slow, low moving helicopter cruises by me, obviously getting a close up I look at them , they at me, It’s a helicopter with floats for landing on water! Coast Guard?

4:14 pm Splitting headache out of nowhere. They, the helicopter,. Obviously blasted me with something.

7:55 pm Get out of shower. I had forgotten they usually remove the ‘fix’ when I’m covered in water in the shower. BUT. When I returned to the kitchen table where I had previously been sitting an airplane approached. My son had removed the cloth curtain covering the kitchen window where the neighbor ______ with the video camera could spy. Woken with plastic on the outside of the window the glow outlines the shadow of my being there. Blam I could feel the fix being targeted at me and tightened up. Blam Blam and the waery, wavery feeling of the vibrations. They have locked me in so they may torture me all night long. I am at their mercy. They will do whatever the heck they want. Another bad, long night ahead of me.

8:20 pm Bedtime couch. They can hear everything in the living room from the phone and see everything from their hidden cameras and picture everything about my body and it’s position/posture down, to the toes and fingers on their monitors. Where they have a ‘fix’ on my body and sequentially blast/toy/tinker with my body parts before they really slap me around with their ray gun punches. Good night, sleep tight, don’t let the bed bugs bite.

12 pm Noon? Hit on shin splints of left lower leg.

? Full body tingle from attempt to home in on solar plexus

12:55 pm SAT January 18 Woken inexplicable, wide awake Why?

1:04 pm Can hear faint buzzing in background, it

1:07 pm Grows louder

1:08 pm moving to front of furnace

1:27 pm adjusting bedding now sleep

2:20 pm So hot by heater cannot sleep, readjusted vents. Curiously no buzzing in ears, body part tweaking and body blasts.

SAT January 18 2:21 pm Will try again to sleep. Been awake in the middle of the night for 1 ½ house. Did they stop pestering me because of my pro war stance, or do they have cameras above my desk by the phone that read what I wrote in this journal? Whatever. Ringing in ear with furnace fan gradually increased over half hour forty-five min and then stopped

4:20 pm Woken by 2-3-4 body blasts that caused my torso to shake and rock back and forth and ringing/humming in ears. Hear plane in distance

4:41 pm Sound asleep. Hit in next. Which caused my whole head to shake violently. Felt the light homing in and them heard a plane.

6:18 pm Left leg on top shakes/twitches Humming in ears Starts, then hear plane approaching Lay on back because awake, body aches from sides.

6:42 pm Pointer finger on left hand resting on stomach twitches with thumb.

7:10 pm I can imagine these two, the neighbors _____ being put in charge of "the killing machine." They think that I am the target and their job is to ‘soften me up.’ Really? They are simply trainees being ‘hardened’ for future assignments. They will then be promoted, get raises and more challenging assignments will go their way, with much greater latitude, discretion and escalated goals. Perhaps they will even be shipped overseas, they are such a charming unassuming couple. Who would guess? They are the ones being groomed, not I.

SAT January 18 10:25 pm I am alone in a house that has NO PHONE. I do not have my cell, and never called the cell number of the woman who’s house I’m in. Her cell number was written down on the sheet that was faxed to my home. She left the house half an hour or so ago. Likely taking her cell with her. I am being buzzed.

10:27 pm Still being buzzed

10:32 pm Airplane flies overhead. Obviously they do not need a nearby telephone or cell to home in on me and target me. All they needed to know was I was there alone at a known location. Then bam, they hit me.

2:00 am Loading my gear into the car and an airplane flies kind a low overhead going north. 2-3 Minutes later another (or the same one?) flies even lower overhead going south. I believe they were making visual ID’s of me.

2:15 am Returned home and quickly turned on the furnace as they were homing in on me.

2:45 am Put radio on top of telephone.

5:00 am Sleeping/crashed on pillows in front of heater, got up for something

5:20 am Lay down again to sleep. Plane flew over to make fix, rested only

6:00 am got up

6:10 am down again, twitched right thumb, clicking in ear. Airplane.

6:40 am They’re homing in on me with something new to stress me out. It’s not the usual, all I experience is the symptom – not the ray attack. The symptom is high pitched stress. Can’t fall asleep been trying since 5 pm

6:43 am Think I hear the sound faintly, not sure, will know later.

SAT January 18 Eight pm or so Misery, anguish, sleep-deprivation. This is America? There are officers of the Peace? My son’s friend from kinder garden dropped by out of the blue. We haven’t seen him in two to three years. Now they are going to start investigations on a teenager _____ , because I spoke with him briefly.

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9:55 pm This reminds me of an article how DARPA is doing sleep-deprivation experiments on soldiers. I believe these same people are illegally experimenting on me as well. "The No-Doze Soldier: Military Seeking Radical Ways of Stamping Need for Sleep" by Amanda Onion ABCNEWS.COM Dec. 18, 2002 DARPA = U.S. Defense Advanced Research Projects Agency. Perhaps this can explain how I’ve aged five years in five months and now have permanent raccoon-like bags under my eyes. I always looked ten or more years younger than my age. Now I look like road kill. And my attitude is crabby. Sleep deprivation and cruel menacing torture totally stinks.

What really gets my got is that these people absolutely know that I am totally innocent. This is just a sick, despicable game for them. They are having fun being ‘winners.’ They love making a miserable ‘looser’ out of me. Bet they can hardly wait for their secret military tribunal. Bet they’ll try to hold it out of the country. Bet they are now drawing up plans to kidnap everybody. Haul them out of the country and god knows how the rest of it works. They are buzzing me as I write this in my bedroom, both ears.

6:45 SAT January 18 6:50 am Clocking in left ear, hum in right ear _____ airplane. No it’s a vehicle going up the hill airplane definitely.

6:55 am I think it’s a combination of a very high pitch and a very low pitch and I’m being squeezed in between. Both inaudible. But I felt the low vibration in my left ankle on the bedding. Maybe the low pitch is just the vibration of traffic driving by.

7-8:50 am Buzzed while working in bedroom.

8:50 am Homed in on while in bathroom

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4:45 Which reminds me. When my husband and I returned from shopping for a new toilet seat at _______ we drove up and parked in the street outside the driveway because our son had trimmed the bamboo hedge alongside the driveway and filled it with huge piles of dry wood/twigs. The neighbors across the street pounced at the opportunity. As I was entering the driveway towards our house husband getting out of car, son playing games in driveway to block my path, the "Friendly Officers" exited their home, front & screen door banging, got in their making lots of noise and drove off. I never looked at them, simply said something to my son about assholes, went inside the front door and slammed it loud. Creeps. Stalking, tracking, menacing, harassing and torturing with blasts from ray guns as well as directing an armada of airplanes, helicopters and various state, county & city vehicles after me. They orchestrate mock military war games with me as the stool pigeon sucker bait being bombarded by frequently two of various types of aircraft and torture me nightly (and daily) causing pain.

SAT January 18 2003 10:15 pm Bedtime on living room couch, took bath tonight, put on pajamas. (My son’s friend left a bit ago and they started blasting my ears with sound. I dozed back to sleep.

SUN January 19 1:42 am Woken abruptly. Notice my ears are reverberating with sound. They have deliberately targeted me (My husband has been sitting across the living room since 10:115 doing paperwork) and woken me up. I sure wish somebody would help me make them stop. Certainly this is illegal.

1:49 am It is quite loud and irritating now will move to in front of the furnace on the pillows on floor. My husband turned off the lights and went to pee. They set off their alarms in the middle of the night! Who are they trying to kid? They always do this when I am alone with my husband in the house. As if there were some danger. The only danger is them continually torturing me.

2:28 am They blasted me awake with reverbing as I was drifting off. Forty minutes.

2:43 am Twenty minutes later! They are blasting my ears out with reverb s. Between times when the furnace is off and only when the fan is going or nothing. They have not tinkered with my body parts or sent airplanes to blast me with full body blasts. Perhaps their cameras are angled such and powerful enough to read what I wrote at my desk by the phone!

SUN January 19 2003 Then they can see me with their monitors, my body position and movement, as I write this and hear me turn pages with the phone. They also know they succeed in waking me up. They are such winners. The entire group of them in the neighborhood. A conspiracy of torture.

3:04 am Reverbs stopped

3:15 am Sharp itching pain on my upper lip causes me to have to scratch and be disturbed

3:19 am Same sharp, pointed itching pain on my right middle toe.

3:22 am They caused my palm of left hand to spasm

3:24 am Caused that same itchy pain on my left hand to scratch.

3:29 am They hit my right palm causing not only the hand to spasm but my entire arm lift up with the spasm !

3:33 am They started the reverbs in my ears ever so faintly. Likely this will be slowly ratcheted up over a time span until I am totally unnerved and absolutely wide awake. Two hours of torturous harassment in the middle of the night in my bed in my home.

3:43 am They hit me with a full body blast. As soon as I moved my arm to adjust the sheet over my eyes to see the clock they stopped.

SUN January 19 2003 3:49 am They hit me again with another full body blast. Less powerful, but enough to wake me. Who are they trying to kid?

3:59 am Another full body blast even stronger than before. This is so cruel, it defies description. Furnace off Just this moment they started to ring my ears.

4:03 am They hit my eyebrows, right between the eyes, causing the skin to move and my eyebrows to scrunch. A movement I do not make.

4:07 am They hit the palm of my right hand sticking up, causing it to spasm.

4:13 am Two sharp hits to the middle of my back between the shoulder blades causing my shoulders to move. Left spec right one on which I have my weight sleeping on right side. Obviously this disturbed me. Boom Boom in quick succession

4:26 am Left leg completely spasms and raises three sharp itchy little toe followed immediately by full body blast almost three hours from 1:42.

5:18 am Woken inexplicably, rolled over

5:28 am I’m being focused in on and blasted full body blast to back. Airplane? Can’t tell

6:56 am Woken to buzzing in ears

7:06 am Oh god, oh god, they won’t stop. All I can do is get out of bed to make them stop. I’m tired, it just keeps getting louder and louder. The heater just kicked on. I’ll lay here on my back a few moments longer.

7:14 am Heater went off, verbs in ear louder and they hit my right big toe causing the entire foot to spasm. Now wide awake. Got the message, they want me up.

SUN January 19, 2003 9:00 am I wonder what a graph of these five months sleeping pattern would look line in a chart? Sitting at the kitchen table and they buzz my ears, airplane approaches. I’ve been sitting here quietly for over an hour. Plane gone, buzzing gone.

12 pm noon Left alone in kitchen, When I was at from 10:30 -11:30 was dive bombed only once by a plane as I printed privacy/civil rights/secret military laser & Electrocution airborne weapons articles. Now, In my bedroom, where I presume there are no cameras, they are blasting ears with reverberations.

12:10 pm Airplane overhead, reverbs louder

12:15 pm I think they may have sent a second airplane _____, buzzed when I drove up by airplane I hear overhead. Buzzed inside _____

1:20 pm First _____, usually a spy _____

1:32 pm The buzzing plane overhead placed a fix on me.

1:39 pm House & me buzzed when _____ _____ I slept thru it.

1:42 pm I am being buzzed hard now as I sit next to my cell phone. It hurts my right ear. A float plane I see it. It goes away. The pain diminishes but buzzing renews.

2:03 pm They’ve been buzzing me hard ever since, Just hit me with a blast to the back of my neck that caused my entire head to jerk/spasm, Since 1:20 in forty-five minutes, most of them likely spies. So is that why they are hitting me?

2:06 pm They hit my left hip bone causing my entire left leg to jerk and lift up slightly. A distinct visual movement. Left ear vibing most loudly.

SUN January 19, 2003 2:22 pm Whole body startles awake from light sleep naturally. Some guy came in, I never opened my eyes.

The buzzing began again in earnest while he was here.

2:25 pm Buzzing continues

2:30 pm Another couple I don’t recall looking at at all came in and when they were here I was buzzed continuously. Just as they said they were walking downstairs the airplane blasted and hit my left foot causing it to jerk and spasm.

2:39 pm _____ is here and I’m not being buzzed. This is nothing more than criminal bullying thuggery while I’m being tortured and set up on a sting operation. Is this for real? You gotta be kidding me!

2:45 pm Airplane

2:49 pm Airplane buzzing right ear hard

2:58 pm Continual regular throbbing reverb in my right ear. I don’t move

2:29 pm As soon as I move the volume and pitch goes up. The sound goes flat line with no throb and is even more irritating, as I do not move any more it reverts to a continual throbbing pattern.

I think I’ve noticed this before as I sleep. They pester me non-stop with continual throbbing until I can’t take it anymore and move. At which point it is ratcheted up a notch. This sequence repeat over and over, the pattern shortening in length of time until I am rousted in livid dismay from sleep.

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3:06 pm They have sent an airplane overhead to look in the window at me, perhaps even read my notes on the couch. The specifically targeted body hits indicate to me they have a monitor of my body position and movements. This lets them register their success at attacking me and reassess their sending in various members of their cadre of spies conducting the sting operation.

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3:21 pm Helicopter flies directly overhead after two separate single illegible came by. Oh yeah, hit w/ light full body blast immediately before the first one entered the door as she was climbing the steps.

SUN Jan 19, 2003 3:25 pm Highly irritating ringing in both ears continues

3:27 pm Airplane approaches and passes overhead. Reverbers increase in intensity then fade is it leaves.

3:28 pm Reverbs start back again as another plane passes nearby.

3:45-4:00 pm !!! Separate airplanes illegible me while two single illegible airplane illegible

3:50 pm a fifth plane

4:07 pm Helicopter cruises me

4:11 pm Buzzed loud in front _____

So I am trying to figure out why are they so brazenly torturing me so despicably? All I can think is the unthinkable: they have labeled me an enemy combatant, are certain of my guilt, consider me disposable garbage, plan on secret military tribunals, plan on rounding everyone up, torturing lies and falsehoods out of me and any/everyone else involved, plan on holding the trials on ships at sea, plan on giving everyone the death penalty and burying everyone immediately at sea.

"The president’s precedent; Bush looks to ’42 case to justify military tribunals for terrorism," Seattle Times, Seattle, Washington, Dec 5, 2001, Ray Rivera Section ‘Protection, Intelligence’ paragraph nine "The Trials would likely be held behind closed doors on military bases, on or even in other countries." Paragraph six "Bush’s controversial Nov 13 order authorizing the use of was modeled directly on Franklin Roosevelt’s 1942 edict for trying the Nazi saboteurs."

8:15 pm Buzzed loudly in both ears, airplane flies overhead, in my bedroom

8:43 pm Lay on couch to go to sleep & they set off their stupid alarms again.

SUN January 19 8:44 pm They’re still at it, like who cares if I sleep on the couch in the living room while my husband works at his desk! Are they Kidding? We’ve been married twenty-three years, together twenty-six years.

9:09 pm Left knee zapped by them causes left leg to jerk out illegible strait and full. It’s all vibed out now my leg that is.

MON January 20 Tossed and turned all night but was so tired I did not make notes. Whenever they sent an airplane over to buzz my ears (four to five times!) I lay still even though it was maddening. After each time they sent a plane over I did not move they then tinkered with a body part one or two times before they left me alone. Hands, feet, hips to make the entire leg with my body weight on it spasm, They tweaked the tip of my nose once then twice grabbed both my entire nose, both lips squeezed and twisted this way than that way. They hit me in the shoulder and did one arching fully body home in and make my body bend in half. Still I made no notes and essentially slept through it all. I was that tired, like in a coma, even though I had rested for 3 hours during the _____ it was not oblivious sleep because people kept on coming in and waking me. Still those three hours rest got me through the early and mid evening, without them I could not have made it to 9pm last night. Last night I sleep from 9-3 while all these things were happening, the first long 6 hour stretch in perhaps one and a half to two weeks. I was still so zonked I retreated again from three to six. They still interrupted me repeatedly though.

MON January 20 8:55 am Woke at 6:05 am, lay there until 6:45, wrote these notes until 7am. Up now.

Turned cell off but buzzing hum in both ears at _____ just down the street.

9:00 am-12:00 pm Buzzed a bunch _____ no cell, she had no telephone, they listened for my voice, standing right next to her talking they repeatedly found me.

12:30 pm Buzzed in parking lot leaving _____

1:10 pm Buzzed at _____ sitting in car, loud in right ear. Buzzed a ton by airplane

5:15 pm Buzzed when I left

6:00 pm Buzzed when I got home and in door. It stopped when the furnace kicked on.

7-8:00 pm Buzzed by airplanes, upstairs working in my bedroom

9 pm Bedtime front of furnace

9:15 pm Buzzed really loud & hard for the last fifteen minutes as I lay here in both ears. Airplane just left.

9:38 pm They hit my right sticking up shoulder, total head spasm/neck forward, two hand sticking out

12:00 am Got up to pee and take an aspirin.

12:33 am Ever since I got up and returned to bed at 12:10 They’ve been blasting both ears with a regular drumbeat of reverberations. Then they twitched my left thumb. I’m guessing it’s going to be another a half to one and a half hours of this torturous crappy abuse until they stop briefly before they start again later. Very bad mood. This gives me high motivation in my resolve to write more letters. More torturous abuse = more letters !!

12:47 am This really, really hurts my eardrums, it’s like labor pains in the middle of my skull. These people know exactly what they are doing, relish it, and repeat it over and over with glee. They are sadistic torturers.

TUE January 21 12:59 am First they twitch middle finger left hand sticking out, they pointer finger then they give my whole head/skull a big grab/jolt/twist on the top of the spinal chord. Back to the thumb on left hand and again a stronger twisting jolt at my entire skull.

1:26 am My entire body spasming medium strong jolt that lifts my left arm briefly off the bed and causes all arms & legs to flail. Reverberating humming in both ears starts again.

1:37 am Squeeze left forearm, right thumb, left front twitched, hum becomes louder as I write. I’m being punished for writing and moving. The vibrations through my whole body cavity have caused gas to move through my intestines and made me have to pee.

4:22 am Woken turned over

4:38 am The faintest buzzing in my ears, did they pick up that I was writing things down?

4:46 am Buzzing in both ears much louder. I think I hear an airplane sleeping. I got sleep last night from nine to eleven = two hours and three to four twenty = one and a half hours. Bad thing. Very bad thing. Now this.

4:55 am Tweaked middle toe on right foot sleeping left side. I have to stay absolutely still like an obedient submissive, cowering, terrified, exhausted possum. While they abuse various parts of my body and menacingly deny me sleep to the point of useless livid delirium. I Die.

January 21 6:05 am Full body jarring hit to wake me up

6:18 am They twitched my left hand at wrist and

6:19 am Now buzzing both ears.

7:18-10:00 am (!!) hits in the last hour of escalating intensity

Left shoulder

Left toe

Solar plexus – mild

Left hand

Solar plexus – full body jolt

Right hip

?

Right hip and thigh/leg spasm

?

Solar plexus – hard full body blast

All extremities spasm, flail

Basically, they slapped me around and beat me up while I was essentially too exhausted to even move. Laying there prone in bed trying to sleep. The U.S. Government in its finest, most honorable hour. Wow, shining heroism.

So relieved I did the right thing and called my girlfriend the arson investigator to report a possible arson. So relieved that absolutely countless (ten? twenty? fifty?) people that obviously are in no way connected to the original incident have had absolutely every constitutional & civil right violated, been investigated, persecuted or coerced into hosting grand-scale investigations of entire industries.

TUE January 21 7:45 am Too tired, not ready not able to drive my son to school. In fourteen years of school this has NEVER HAPPENED UNTIL TODAY. These people are ruining our family life. Furthermore, my husband and son don’t believe what’s happening. Still. These despicabolids have succeeded in driving a wedge of disloyalty and mistrust within our nuclear family unit. So reassuring to know they represent the U.S. Government and are coming soon to your neighborhood.

9:00-12:30 pm No buzzing. No airplanes at the _____ This is what I have to say:

NO NO NO

FOUL PLAY !

THIS WHOLE THING

STINKS TO

HIGH HEAVEN

NO FOUL PLAY

TUE January 21 12:48 pm Both ears being buzzed at Greenlake.

4:53 pm Took medicine, sick, sleeping

6:46 pm They deliberately woke me starting at approximately 5:00 with several hits on various body parts of greater increasing intensity until I could sleep no more and was wide awake. SO CIVIL. NOT.

I am sick, exhausted from three and a half hours sleep last night (courtesy of them), just took medicine and went to sleep. What do they do? WAKE ME DELIBERATELY. The U.S. Government at work. Feel safer?

7:08 pm Wide awake. I could have slept six to eight solid hours, instead I got one hour sleep one hour rest. Is this freedom from tyranny?

7:55 pm Will try to sleep again

8:01 pm They’re reverbing my ears with some new low-pitched sound. Gave son a bunch of news articles about fancy high tech weapons. He’s still skeptical as I lay here in agony. His father is even more disbelieving, decidedly hostile (airplane flies over 8:03) and talks to our son to convince him I’m out of my mind. The spies have driven a wedge of disbelief in our family. Quit trying to sleep, will eat

8:41 pm Back in front of furnace trying to sleep.

10:43 pm Harassed continually with twenty-two tinkers with various body parts, spasms, twitching and full body hits with ringing in ears. Still have not slept. They can monitor every move, down to the last muscle adjustment for body comfort and match it with punishment. They even cause slow burns to the top of the skull for lingering headaches and burning tingles all over the surface skin of an entire thigh. As well as precision, pinpoint burning that morph into an incredible itch. Additionally, there is a pattern to it all always starts out faint and almost undetectable with gradual ‘time release’ pauses as it is slowly ratcheted up in intensity and frequency until one is hit with a ferocious blast. In spite of my psychological will otherwise this leaves they physical body and nervous system so jangled and over-stimulated it is impossible to simply fall asleep once it stops. Additionally, the stop is never permanent, but merely a long pause that tricks the body into ultimately relaxing, drifting off to sleep, perhaps even beginning the second or third level of sleep before REM dreams start. Only to be prevented from acquiring the most beneficial state of deep third level REM sleep because a new cycle of disruption has begun. The quiet ringing in the ears that gradually becomes louder, the gentle nudging of fingers and toes escalating into a persistent irritant in the ears, twitching of hands feet and hits on shoulders, hips and thighs until finally the screech in the ears is matched by full body blasts, spasms and contorting jolts. BLAM. You’re wide awake before you know it and robbed repeatedly during the night of dreams, REM sleep, nourishing, pleasing, refreshing sleep. You are an absolutely agitated, irritated, exhausted, tired and wired physical and mental wreck. You barely function to perform the minimum for survival and have no resources for anything else. Nobody around you believes what is happening. Doctors, lawyers and family members decide you are ‘crazy.’

Really it’s nothing more than the FBI in conjunction with the CIA and the air forces special operations Delta forces conspiring as a group with super sophisticated equipment to conduct mock military war exercises at the behest of the Justice Department which has conveniently petitioned the FISC (Foreign Intelligence Surveillance Court) and Congress (Patriot Act, Homeland Security) to change laws over and over so they can change your designation from Federal Informant, to Material Witness to Associate of Terrorists to Enemy Combatant.

All I did was guess something fishy may be going on at work and report it to the authorities, an arson investigator. Their response is to torture me. How reassuring for the American Public. They can feel safe in their homes. Perhaps, were they to know what really happens they might race to their phones to provide TIPS to the U.S. Government, then they too can experience this kind of treatment. Do you think they would be tripping over their own two feet to grab that phone and make that call?

11:10 pm Five minutes ago the noise in my ears stopped. They want to encourage me to be awake. How decent of them.

Other things have become apparent to me. The airplanes that blast my brains out may be close by, but just as frequently they are far away. Perhaps five to ten miles. And they still are accurate in targeting my body parts. Additionally, it is quite obvious this is a lean, mean, clean assignation machine. I could be given an aneurism in the brain, a heart attack, ruptured bowel, you name it. One time they even goosed my anus with a buzz blast. So civil and courteous. But, really, it just demonstrated vividly to me the accuracy of their pin point precision and not only fingers, toes, arms, legs, skull, body torso, but internal organs. The concept is scary.

11:16 pm Buzzing in ears started again. There’s more. There are so many different kinds of planes attacking me, and sometimes, I dare say, they seem to be either slow in their response or not available. This indicates to me they are busy with others. When you think about it, how many large metropolitan cities are there in not only the US, but the world? It is likely these types of operations have been going on for a considerable period of time in many different locations. One wonders how many people they are experimenting on. How many targets have been ‘eliminated.’ How many secret files they have and, who’s next? Do they have lists of people? What kind of people would have their names on their lists? There’s more, it is quite obvious to me I could be eliminated effectively in five minutes or less. What is the efficiency factor in 24 hours for one plane? (They maintain a ‘fix’ from a phone or cell that is no longer with/around me, follow me all day from place to place, then at a convenient time or place ‘buzz’ (eliminate) me. A ‘fix’ is all they need) It is also quite obvious to me they don’t need a phone or cell to target me. All they need to know is I’m alone in a building or visually target me in the street. The beauty of all this is there is no evidence and no body to dispose of. The unsuspecting grieving relatives are delegated that chore. A lean, mean, clean killing machine.

11:32 pm Will try to sleep. Took cold medicine, turned furnace up opened greenhouse door more.

WED January 22 3:03 am They blasted my ears with reverbs loud enough to wake me to a completely alert state. Wide awake. Airplane flies nearby. Three and a half hours sleep only because the medicine knocked me out and let me sleep through the other attacks of reverbs and hits. I vaguely remember being subjected to but chose not to write down but remain perfectly still like a possum. Medicated and it passed. Who knows what the rest of the night will bring? There’s four hours ahead of me. In dread I return to the arduous job of forcing myself to attempt to sleep.

3:43 am Six tinkers w/ body parts

6:40 am Awake slept through three hours, was I imagining did turn a few times, did hear the buzzing in my ears, toes & fingers were tinkered with, but slept through

8:20 am Buzzed lightly upon returning home from dropping _____ at school

12:15 pm Buzzed at Edmonds _____ lightly

1:48 pm Lay down to nap at home five minutes later they homed in on me on my back. five more minutes they twitched an extremity

2:05 pm humming in ears

2:10 pm humming in ears louder and more intense

WED January 22 5:00 pm apx When our son pulled into the driveway the neighbors across the street conveniently and coincidently walked to their car and pulled out of the driveway at the same time we were entering our front door. Cell on me.

8:20 pm I went to _____ btw 7:30 – 8 (Tracked there by airplane there and to my next destination.) Upon stopping the car in the driveway when I returned home my ears were both buzzed real hard.

9:43 pm Managed to ‘shake the fix’ by taking a shower then having the heater going full blast then not speaking out loud. Going to sleep on pillows in front of heater.

[deteriorating handwriting]

Woken 2 times but rolled over to sleep They then got a better fix on me. I knew they had a bad fix because they set off alarms of protest from the homes _____ the street. The nerve.

2:21 am Woken, could feel the hits

2:48 am Huge military helicopter flies directly over our house, hits me, light solar plexus.

3:28 am Cleaned rain gutters on roof, they just buzzed my left foot, had walked down the hill and back to try and shake the fix, turned the furnace on immediately, but it went off. To no avail.

4:14 am They are slapping me around and knocking me in bed again. Hit my left thumb once, zapped right thigh, which side I’m sleeping on Left thumb again then left thumb a third time. Back to right thigh was that a left foot? Then the ultimate at the top of my spine, base of the back of my neck a precise hit so jarring it causes my entire skull to jerk back and forth a whole bunch of times, like a whiplash. Only smaller movements, perhaps 1/8" to ¼" in movement. But they grabbed my head and jerked it around while I’m trying to sleep in bed. There’s something about having your head slapped around that’s worse than, say, a thumb.

4:29 am Ear buzzing begins faintly

4:30 am They just ‘burned’ my right thumb as a punishment for keeping a journal and upped the volume of the revs, this is a sick psych-out.

Last night the Guantanimo Bay news interview showed the detention base, commander, hospital supervisor, cafeteria supervisor, cells where prisoners are held, prisoners in detention, fences, land patrol outside the base and helicopter air cover over the base.

This is how it works. Only a few people are aware of how the torture of detainees is accomplished. In all likelihood even critical performers may be unaware of their own role. In fact, even some of the people conducting the interviews may be unaware of the reasons for their success or lack thereof.

Obviously the individual sound proofed cells where the interviews take place are ‘bugged.’ All the people who have access to that information may not be known. In other words. More people are listening in than is known. The place where the prisoner sits has a GPS reading. The helicopter overhead shoots the ray guns at the prisoners on command, there may be ‘storage rooms’ scattered throughout the base crammed with electronic equipment.

9:15 am Bedtime, kept the fix off me by taking a shower then, while the water was running, hopping out to turn on the furnace. Everything had been prepared beforehand, so I just hopped into bed while furnace was running. Oops, accidently moved a hand, they got a semi-fix on me. Then they hit my foot, then most audaciously, my jaw, my bite guard was not in, is that why they did it? It felt like I was strangling on my tongue. They then sent a helicopter directly over the house low and got a super good fix on me. Then they real hard. They really let me know they control my body. Then they taunted me by setting off sirens and buzzers (9:30 pm at night) from the house _____ of me.

9:54 am So I decided to write this down. This is how these guys work. Call the authorities and you will be surrounded by a taunting, torturing . This is not what I was taught in school.

9:57 am My entire body is humming like an appliance with an electrical short, from the fix they have on me.

10:09 am They just hit me upside the head, smacked my foot and gave me a full body jolt, firm, as a retaliation for of writing things down

THU JAN 23 Not subtle. They consider me difficult because I am defiant and non-obedient. Has it ever occurred to them it is because I am totally 100% innocent?

6:05 am Awake

6:38 am out of bed. Which reminds me of the armada of helicopters four in a row two to five miles apart parading the night before last down the I-5 corridor.

FRI JAN 24 9 am Helicopter cruises me in U-District after I use pay phone to call cell at home. They did a real good visual of me getting into car. Did they do an instant phone tap of the business I was at? Bought an old used copier. _____ !

10:30 am Buzzed ever so faintly once only at _____

2:30 pm

2:45 pm Buzzed briefly when I entered house was homed in on at kitchen table while eating.

5:30 pm Buzzed briefly when returning home from getting _____.
6:30-8:45 pm Went to crest movie saw James Bond. In the car home my son told me that "Lasers that work like that do not exist and are fifty years away." I said "that’s reassuring," Did not mention those very same lasers are being used every night for six months to fry my brains and torture me mercilessly. He and my husband just don’t get it.

9:15 pm Bedtime in front of heater. Tinkered briefly with hands & feet. Again later that night.

2:29 am Woken by ringing verbs in ears. Not loud but woke me.

SAT January 25 2:50 am They are definitely pestering me awake in the middle of the night again. They know I have had a long day of __________ work tomorrow. Slow gringing reverbs in ears, low pitch. It has increased in pitch & volume as I write this.

3:12 am Wide awake

3:20 am They’re really aggravating & irritating me with reverbing noise in my ears. Eardrums hurt chronically now.

3:31 They stopped the noise in my ears but hit me with that same pinpoint burning itch in the same spot top back of left hip (sleeping on right) which causes my entire leg to spasm out five to six inches and twitch ferociously.

3:40 am They’ve started the reverbs in my ears up again. One hour of cruelty down. Another hour or two of cruel, bitter harassment and sleep deprivation ahead of me in the middle of the night alone on the living room floor. Nobody believes me. Any freedom I appear to have is an absolute illusion. I am nothing but a tortured circus animal. All [performance based on imprisonment and cruel mistreatment including torture in privacy. Unproveable and hidden from watchful eyes.

[deteriorating handwriting]

3:50 am? Sharp hit in thigh causes leg to spasm

4:15 am? Sharp hit (again) in thigh causes leg to spasm

4:41 am Sharp hit (third!) in thigh causes leg to spasm

SAT January 25 4:45 am Alarm sent off briefly at house that sets off and sent these "message" alarms left shoulder sticking up because I’m sleeping on right side hit hard with a smack that causes it to move one to three inches forward from back to front.

4:55 am Reverberating noise starts again in ears

5:03 am Hit in right calf causing entire leg to spasm

I am being slapped around and roughed up in my own bed and denied sleep. My ears are reverberating loud. This is totally despicable torture brought on behalf of the US government.

5:09 am Hit in the face

5:11 am Hit in my right foot and calf

5:24 am Total full body slam hit. Full body jolt.

6:00 am? My own arms crossed across my chest w/hands resting on a opposite shoulders are used against me. Both arms are grabbed and furiously shake my own body.

? Alarm goes off again.

6:43 am My alarm wakes me up. Woken continuously for four hours from 3:30 to 6:30.

8:10 am Buzzed in car at _____

8:20 am Buzzed while talking to _____

8:45 am Upstairs where there’s no phone, I have cell off but the ‘fix’ on me was affirmed by _____ phone and they tracked me upstairs.

10 am am Being buzzed again alone in house. Very tired and very tired of living.

1:10 pm Went outside _____ and saw the airplane circling. They’ve been buzzing my ears ever since. My ears are and bruised from continual buzzing. Lately I’ve been thinking of ways to simply stop the torture. The only solution is to cease to exist. This seems to be what they want anyway. A dead snitch.

6:17 pm Nap exhausted

9:22 pm Buzzed so loud in ears I get up. Buzz follows me to toilet.

9:25 pm Lay back down again. Ears still buzzing.

11:48 pm Woken inexplicable, furnace off, could not help but turn over to other side. Buzzing very faintly. Starts in distance five to ten minutes later.

12:00 am? They hit my foot

They hit my hand hard

SUN January 26 12:10 am ? Full body blast, sharp. Entire body convulses. This definitely gets my attention & wakes me up. Persistent buzzing in ears, very loud, begins, a reverberating irritant. I can feel my brain twist, like caffeine withdrawal. Can’t stand it anymore, though I’ve tried to lay perfectly still like a possum. Get up to turn up the furnace and open the green house door.

12:32 am They are now blasting away at my ears. It’s at times like this I run through the possibilities slit my wrist, duct tape knives to my wrists and jam them into an electrical outlet, do the Aurora bridge. I never felt like this or thought this way until the U.S. military started torturing me six months ago. I am so totally an innocent citizen and really don’t understand why they want to kill me. I’ve written congress, the governors ______ ______. No one has helped me.

My husband and son are disbelieving. Right under their noses I lay on the living room floor, blocking the walk way, in front of the furnace and for months I’ve been telling them the government is conspiring to torture me. I’ve given them both written descriptions inches thick and still they don’t believe me. I am mere feet or inches away from them while the neighbors _____ conspire with people thousands of miles away, pushing buttons and leavers to activate their ray gun, sound blast, hitting, convulsing, pain causing machines. Right under the noses of people standing near me, for example _____ this morning, _____ Standing next to her upstairs talking in big new empty house the government conspiracy was sending airplanes overhead circling and circling blasting away at my quite sensitive ears. I stood right next to her talking, she was clueless to what I was going through. Have to make money to pay for copies and postage and bills. My husband & son refuse to believe because it lets them off the hook, then they don’t have to help me. Blame the victim. My husband in particular is a total moron, at least my son has glimmers of hope and concern. But he himself said he’s a kid in high school and thinks these are my problems and he should be able to have his own life. And I agree, he has to study, take tests constantly and get good grades. Still it would help if he were sympathetic.

12:47 am The buzzing stopped when the refrigerator motor kicked on. I’m going to open the front door now aw well, for more cold air to keep the furnace going.

1:53 am Buzzed in ears, hit and woken

SUN January 26 5:15 am Turned over and lay on back. They, as I suspected they would, although it took them half an hour, had homed in on me and finally gave me a sharp, bracing full body hit. They then tinkered with my fingers & toes. Which reminds me, previously when I was trying to play possum and they were continuing to thoroughly aggravate me one of their ‘torture techniques’ which they had done only two to three times before was the pinpoint of laser-like accuracy at the top, back of my hip that burns and itches outrageously. Perhaps they do it there only because they’re trying to avoid major body organs. That would be fun on the eyes, wouldn’t it? Or the brain, or heart or spine. Sounds like delightful fun for the torturers.

5:30-6:19 am Buzzing in ears increases in volume

6:55 am My brain is still fuzzy, just can’t seem to focus. Eyes have trouble reading paper, eardrums hurt feel "swollen" and hyper-sensitive. Won’t listen to radio.

8 am Buzzed at house _____

9:06 am Home. I’ll bet the sadistic torturers have a bureauocratic name. Compliance Technicians.

9:23 am So I went upstairs to my bedroom to turn on my copier and arrange papers. The very precise moment I pressed the on button the spies _____ set off their alarms, they then started blasting my ears-loud. Guess they have cameras in my bedroom, where all this work is prepared. Downstairs making notes in this journal & they’ve upped the revs.

SUN January 26 9:25 am I think the intent is to so utterly demoralize me that I stop sending out mailers, lay down, and die. Well. Have copier will mail. !

1:05-1:18 pm They are buzzing my ears loud now, I’ve been here since about 12:30. I think they’ve sent a first sting operation or two or through now already.

1:25 pm Plane flew directly overhead & buzzing stopped.

1:33 pm Ears buzzing again as someone else ‘tours’ the house.

1:49 pm Plane overhead buzzing stops.

1:59 pm Oh, I get it now they’re still buzzing me continuously to prevent me from sleeping, dozing, or napping or resting in any way. A continuation of their torture technique of sleep deprivation. I am being tortured at the _____.

2:36 pm As I lay here this past half an hour they hit my left thumb, right shoulder, then a full body jolt blast. I just continued laying here because I need to grab a wink if I can. Woman just came in & left.

3:08 pm Buzzing starts again

8:35 pm They started buzzing my ears as soon as I got in the bathroom preparing for bed. Opened front door wideish, turned up furnace, camped out on floor by furnace. Will try sleeping on stomach.

1:45 am Woke up. Perhaps it’s because my son is noisily awake in kitchen.

2:37 am Still can’t sleep. Told my son to go away and be quiet.

MON January 27 3:05 am They hardly buzzed or tinkered with me while I was, for the first time, sleeping on my stomach. I hate sleeping on my stomach. Piled mountains of pillows and blankets up. Hey, they let me have six hours sleep. Usually I sleep nine and a half to ten hours. I look like road kill. This has permanently aged me.

MON January 27 am My looks are definitely gone for good. Six months of cruel torture, sleep deprivation, menacing harassment by U.S. Government THUGS has permanently altered my personality, attitude and it shows all over my wretched face. Welcome to the world of ugly. Just had a snit-fit argument with my son, the center of my life. He basically doesn’t believe anything I’ve written or said. He’s not with me, he’s against me. He thinks it’s all in my mind. Essentially he’s been my entire reason for living for almost twenty years. To lose his support, encouragement and confidence is the final, ultimate morale breaking cruelty. I have no other reason for living. I told him he would regret t his the rest of his life. But perhaps he’s right, perhaps it is just too much for a 17 year old kid to fathom. He’s just trying to have a senior year in high school, ski, do homework, pass tests and prepare for college. I can’t help but wonder if he just isn’t simply ‘moron light’ like his father the total idiot, Perhaps it’s a cruel twist of fate to be born to parents such as these.

3:20 am Will try to sleep again. Talking to _____

3:40 am Talking to _____, back to sleep

5:26 am Had, in my sleep placed my left hand by my face, left thumb was at my jaw. They aimed for my left thumb and socked me in the jaw. They punched me out in my sleep. My thumb twitched my jaw was hit. They then buzzed my ears for quite a bit before I fell asleep.

6:46 am Alarm woke me up on time.

6:53 am They’re buzzing my ears reverberating, as I sit here

7:02 am It is really loud and most unbearable on my bruised, tender eardrums.

MON January 27 7:03 am Airplane flies directly overhead & buzzing stops.

7:04 am As it flies away buzzing starts again. Somebody knew from looking at a monitor with a picture of my body & listening to the phone/speaker phone and bugs in the house and camera planted by the telephone room & front door, that I was awake. When I sat down again after peeing they saw I was comfortable and told the plane to buzz my ears loud and likely place a ‘fix’ on me.

9:38 pm Bedtime in front of furnace on floor. They already have a ‘fix’ on me, I can feel it.

10:45 pm They totally hit my brain only with a complete sharp, hard, vicious jolting smack. This does promote freedom and liberty. This is sadistic, cruel tyranny. Completely despicable, heinous. I am wide awake, and completely buzzed. How will I get back to sleep? My heart is racing a mile a minute. It is a complete adrenalin shock. I am LIVID! These are sick, evil disgustoids. These people belong to the U.S. Military? Please. They belong in JAIL. This makes you PROUD TO BE AMERICAN? Get real. Shame on these people and shame on the people who sent them. I am on American soil, an American citizen. They ABSOLUTELY KNOW FOR CERTAIN I AM A TOTALLY INNOCENT bystander who called the authorities to report a possible, potential crime. I have not been convicted of anything because not only is there ABSOLUTELY NO EVIDENCE, but there is nothing to convict me of. I have not been arrested because there is nothing to charge me with, Yet, they have locked me into a virtual, technological jail with bugs, phone taps, cameras, helicopters & planes, all manner of surveillance vehicles AND CONTINUE TO TORTURE ME DAY AND NIGHT with super-sophisticated ray gun attacks of laser guided SONAR, microwave, ultrasound, high voltage electricity and god knows what else. Why are they torturing me? They have turned me into a basket case who’s only escape from six months of misery is to simply cease to exist. This makes you proud to be an American? Shame on these evil despicabaloids.

11:06 pm Will try to sleep. When will the next attack occur?

11:16 pm The entire top of my brain inside my skull still stings.

11:16 pm hit right foot, left thigh, left foot , left thumb then nausea

11:26 pm Hit with a 30 second, almost imperceptible full body warming buzzing FRY.

11:40 pm I seem to have acquired a definite headache

11:42 pm Ears buzzing, will get up to open front door wide, adjust heater vents, turn up furnace and pee. NO SLEEP ONE HOUR.

12:36 am Hit again REAL HARD two long blasts in a row. Feels like I’m being electrocuted !

TUE January 28 am Had only fallen asleep around 12 midnight. These people really want me dead. They are killing my heart and soul. There have been four Horrible Blasts tonight. This type is the worst, I’ve only had one and a half hours of grossly interrupting sleep and its twenty to one.

12:40 am I wish I was dead and they wish I was dead. Bad combination. I always wanted to live before they started torturing me. The only reason I wish I was dead is to escape the torture, otherwise I would want my life. Drempt I ran outside hurling explosives at them but my tongue wouldn’t work and arms & legs would not work. Kept falling and tripping and missing arm hurls while mumbling, blubber. A hideous dream. Heard no airplanes before or after. Likely work of people on the ground, neighbors _____ the street and/or very high up planes.

12:49 am Buzzing in ears started again, they sensed my movement and every position, like a movie, as I wrote this.

12:58 am They’re really blasting me loud with the buzzing Decidedly unfriendly. Those two were total body blasts Hit a fifth time briefly & sharp as falling sleep

2:46 am Woken inexplicably

3:36 am Woken inexplicably

4:15 am Woken inexplicably At some point here they popped me one in the jaw without my thumb being near.

4:37 am Another sharp smack jolt, they keep smacking me tonight again and again.

TUE January 28 5:07 am They then hit me in succession

5:07 am Right foot

5:08 am Left foot

5:10 am Right arm

5:11 am Right shoulder, hard

6:40 am My alarm woke me.

8:30 am Buzzed hard feeding cats

9-10 am Stake out with dogs in front of new assignment intentionally catches my eye and smiles. I smiled back. Then they sent the airplanes to buzz me at work. Highly, noxiously RUDE.

8:45 am Talked on phone, they put a ‘fix’ on me. Feel nauseated & watery from it. Anticipate a difficult night. Already feel like jumping off the Aurora bridge. Highly distressed.

9:29 am Prepared bed for sleeping on stomach. Bedtime

10:53 am Four, five, six small sharp body part hits.

10:59 am I moved to write this when the furnace went on, but it went off before I could get back to possum position and they gave my left leg a spasm producing big jolt. Got up in disgust. Microwaved husband food. Peed. Turned furnace up. Will open front door when husband goes to sleep. J

WED January 29 2:12 pm 12:30 pm full body hit

1:54 pm Woken. Inexplicably

They’ve totally homed in on me since I got up and moved around. My whole body is buzzing, extremities & skin. Wonder if they are going to punish me for taking a leak and closing the front door half way? All this heat blasting all night long gets expensive

2:45 pm My back was hurting from a second night of sleeping on my stomach. So I switched over to my side. With my arms crossed across my chest and hands in fists.

3:00 pm? First they twitched MY LEFT EYEBROW then buzzed my two clenched fists. Homed in on my crossed arms then zapped my crossed arms. It was awful. But I played possum.

3:15 pm Then they homed in on and pinpoint twitched my LEFT LOWER LIP ONLY then they gave me a from the solar plexus only on down complete LOWER BODY BLAST.

3:27 pm Back to my stomach.

5:20 pm Woken, don’t know why

6:40 pm My alarm went off. I’m totally beat

7:30 pm From their video monitors placed in our living room and complete audio from the phone/speakerphone and assorted bugs the neighbors across the street perfectly timed the opening of our front door and my exiting it with them appearing within complete view on their front door step.

As we entered our car they came out and pretended to be entering their car, but it was a menacing, stalking, harassing phoney-baloney ploy. They never left their driveway.

9:15 pm Home cleaning my house before going to _____. I seem to be functioning, but really I’m tired to the bone and only want permanent sleep.

THU January 30

8:16 pm Exhausted, will try to sleep

1:10 am Totally blasted awake w/reverberating sound in ear. Five hours sleep allotment. EVIL THUGS

1:48 am Got aspirin for headache peed

I know what they are going to do, because they’ve left me alone while the furnace is blasting. Wait till I"ve fallen asleep and am still for twenty minutes and tinker with body parts then BLAST ME AWAKE AGAIN.

2:03 am They’re watching my every movement. They know they’ve succeeded in waking me for on hourly, they know I am in pain and took an aspirin. They plan to continue their pattern of torture. Fear, anxiety illegible, exhausting pain overcame me.

THU January 30 2:15 am apx Airplane flew overhead five minutes later. Right thumb (wrapped in my clenched fist) TWITCHED

2:23 am Light full body blast

2:30 am They hit and jerked my whole right fist at the wrist. Punishment for writing.

3:27 am Left Leg entire leg spasm. Headache had gone away now back, are they blasting my brain?

Got up to make copies

9:03 am Lay down for nap, five minutes later they hit my left fist (thumb hidden)

9:28 am They lightly jolted my left side

9:40 am Woke INEXPLICABLY, lay there twenty minutes could not fall asleep again.

10:01 am They lightly hit my left fist again. Got up Nap interrupted and ruined. _____ I’m wrapping up a mailer.

[neat handwriting]

Articles on the web that ‘fill in the blanks’ and explain what I’m talking about and make it seem plausible. Time.com/time/covers/1101030127/nmicro.html Nation "America’s Ultra-secret weapon" by Mark Thompson is about "HPM – High – power microwaves" "e-bomb" "dial-a-hurt" "man made lightening bolts’

Wired.com/news/spring/0,1294,54598,00.html "There’s no Place to Hide" by Lakshmi Sandhany "holographic imaging technology to provide full-body, 360 –degree coverage of a person in near real time. I figured out something like this was being done to me BEFORE I read the article.

Time.com "The CIA’s Secret Army" by Douglas Waller Jan 26, 2003

ABCNEWS.COM "The No-Doze Soldier Military seeking radical ways of stumping need for sleep." By Amanda Onion Dec 18 "To Strive toward creating the no-sleep soldier, DARPA (Defense Advanced Research Projects Agency) has funded a multi-tiered program for tinkering with a soldier’s brain? I figured out they were conducting scientific experiments on me and using me as an involuntary guinea pig long before I read this article.

WIRED.COM/news/conflict/0,21004,49186,00.html "A Pitch for Smart Postal Stamps" by Julia Scheeres. I figured out they were tracking my mail before stumbling across this article. (Is the US taking advice from secret service agencies in other repressive countries?)

"Military Tribunals are readied; They will try terrorist suspects" Seattle times Dec 27, 2002 by Frank Davies

"The President’s precedent; Bush looks to ’42 case to justify Military Tribunals for Terrorism" Seattle Times Dec 5, 2001 Ray Rivera – Bush’s controversial November 13 order authorizing the use of secret military trials – The trials would likely be held behind closed doors on military bases, on ships at sea or even in other countries.

New York Times "The Office Where Law Meets War" Sept 23, 2002 by Elizabeth Bumiller "It was his [Alberto R. Gonzales, the White House Counsel] office that conceived of the term "enemy combatant" as a way to indefinitely detain American Citizens accused of terrorism, to enormous criticism from civil libertarians, public defenders and some constitutional scholars" Title 10 US Code per librarian.

So the way they torture prisoners at Guantanimo Bay. Look at the 11/2002 drawing I made. The people physically present with the prisoners may know nothing of what’s going on, perhaps even some of the interrogators. Some of the interrogators may not know what’s going on, but not all of them. The most senior interrogators have to know. Video and audio information from the rooms is fed immediately to ‘compliance specialists’ at a distant location on the east coast of the U.S. Those distant compliance specialists either in tandem with explicit knowledge of the interrogator (or implicit knowledge, or no awareness at all,) directs the ray gun attacks from the aircraft circling overhead and even miles away, buildings on the base in proximity and/or driven vehicles. So the ‘compliance specialist’ is the ‘bad guy’ invisible to all and the physically present interrogator seems to be the ‘good guy.’ But they’re really working together. And there may be teams of five or even ten people assigned to a particular prisoner. Invisible multi-person teams. How do the torturers sleep at night?

Parked car outside. Thought they had homed in on me, cleaned purse after mailing three mailers. Lay down to sleep.

4:47 pm They wacked me awake with Big sudden hit. This had to have been one of the high-up airplanes that circled earlier. Their screen monitor showed my body position and that I was trying to sleep/nap. They hit me awake! Who is giving the orders to punish me like this, and why?

4:56 pm They can see me sit up, move around and fumble with my purse for a watch, write these notes. It is so aggravating and humiliating. This is why I wish I simply did not exist. They wish I was dead too.

4:58 pm Will try to sleep again. No buzzing in ears, I am reminded of the many times they acutely and painfully buzzed my ears to chase me onto campus with an undercover vehicle across the street watching as an excuse to start surveillance investigations on the whole _____ school. Then two and a half weeks ago they had city maintenance (undercover spies) dig up the internet, telephone and Intranet wires by "accident." It was no accident. It was a total ruse and hoax.

5:14 pm Full body blast

5:15 pm Left forearm and hand jolted

5:16 pm Left leg from hip through thigh knee foot lifted a scooch. Entire left leg moved.

5:21 pm Since I was already awoken went on campus to _____ looking _____. He’s not there.

11:01 pm Woken with a jolt.

12:49 am Sharp brief total body zap leaves wide awake aftermath

1:59 am Hit my left thigh hamstring whole thing convulsed

2:00 am Hit my right upper arm and elbow whole thing jerked "wake up" time.

Woken inexplicably They revved up the reverberations in my ears until it was so unbearable I had to get out of bed. My eyes are so puffy w/raccoon-like dark circles around them …

8:50 am Trying to write this in the car and they blast my ears blam blam blam over and over it brings tears to my eyes and makes me cry. I get out of the car to finish standing here as a plane flies overhead.

Lately I’ve had gross-motor balance problems, falling into walls twice. Once as I lay down to sit by furnace hit whole spine on outcropping stone fireplace & yesterday as I circled around the corner, simply crashed into the wall. Most unusual for me.

_____ My ears were roundly blasted out several times. I lost count. Planes circled overhead, near the end of the assignment I looked out over the balcony to see a float plane departing. No cell on me. The ‘fix’ they had on me from when I left the house with my son at 7:30 remained. Drove across town to his school. Drove to the shopping center, went into a store, then drove to _____ Went into _____. Where they could hear me on their instant phone tap. Was buzzed hard when alone in the _____.

1:00 pm When I returned home was buzzed in the driveway in the car, in the house

2:20 pm At Lake Forest Park _____ buzzed by a small airplane with wheels down. For the umpteenth time. There was a mysterious worker at the curb doing "work" on the utilities. This Q West guy put a large yellow tank into one of those cement lid covered holes in the ground. Smells like an investigation has started on these people simply because I _____

Picked son up at school.

7:15 pm Crashed exhausted face first on the spot in front of the furnace. I had been on the phone earlier so their ‘fix’ had become most accurate. Slept on my stomach, which I hate. Stuck my thumbs tightly between the middle of two fingers on each side and curled each hand into a tight fist. Shoved my fists directly under the pillow where my head lay right under my head. Tossed and turned a bit before falling asleep, adjusting for comfort.

FRI January 31 8:30 pm apx They hit my right fist hard. This woke me up. I noticed my fist was slightly away from my head. Perhaps while I was sleeping it migrated into attack range. Perhaps they hit it while aiming from the side. At any rate it was sharp, abrupt and definitive. No mere twitch of a thumb from a hand sticking out. This was a tight fist, jammed under a pillow with a heavy head and shoulders resting on top. My fist abruptly and jarringly moved out of the blue to wake me up. I lay there dumbfounded.

8:40 pm apx BLAM! They sharp hit my entire left leg. Now this woke me up definitively. Still I lay there like a possum perfectly still for about five to ten minutes.

8:50 pm Ultimately I moved to look at the clock. Then lay there still again.

They tweaked my upper lip. I thought no, not again, I must be imagining this. So I moved my lips several times to confirm that I was directing my lip to move. Then they tweaked my upper lip a second time.

Here’s the most amazing thing. It confirms my suspicion they’ve been frying my brains out by slowly cooking my skull imperceptibly. This has resulted in a quick decline of my vision, ability to think clearly and focus thoughts and plan a day’s activities, last night severe puffiness and fluid retention around my eye membranes, the ‘road-kill’ dragged out haggard look on my entire face. After hitting my fist, right leg and upper lip they slow-burn fried my left leg and left thigh in particular. Fifteen or more pulse attacks slowly "heating up" or "cooking" my thigh resulting in the skin on the extremity tingling or bubbling.

FRI January 31 It could be mistaken for pins and needles, like from a pinched nerve. But, it was not. And this is what they’ve been doing to my brain.

9:48 pm They buzzed my ears loudly as I write this curled in front of the furnace which my husband turned down.

9:54 pm Naturally I’m now wide awake. If left alone I would have slept soundly through the night into the morning. These people are insidiously despicable. I think the phrase from the 1960’s was "pigs" _____ _____ Have transformed themselves into contemptible PIGS.

PIGS

That old motto "power corrupts, absolutely," applies here. They have been corrupted and transformed themselves into something worse. _____

They are PIGS

11:23 pm Going to try to sleep again. An airplane circles. I am slowly, surely but imperceptibly falling apart. No bath again. Too tired for wrist & hand braces which really help, housework not done. Too tired to make my bed more comfortable plus it aggravates my hands. To a casual observer all appears normal and well. It most decidedly is not.

SAT February 1 2003 11:30 pm-12:45 am apx As I lay there like a possum I was assaulted for well over an hour (guestimate) by a continual and repeated volley of attacks on every body part and in various technologically sophisticated methods. Every 1-2-3 minutes it was first this leg, that are, full body blast, over and over again. I know what I call this, what would you call it. Would you volunteer? Would you reach for the phone to report suspicious activity to the authorities knowing this was in store for you? I am wordless & speechless. What is the difference if five or six people were standing circled around me and using their feet and fists and weapons to hit me face to face? What is the difference?

6 am My alarm goes off

6:50 am What happens when this hits the media and the public finds out? So much for trust in government.

8-9:30 am Buzzed in _____

12 pm-2 pm Lake Forest Park

2 pm Upon leaving was strafed by two planes one passenger one float that came over the horizon and left in a V formation as I got in my car to leave.

[illustration]

3 pm apx At _____ Buzzed ‘total body fix’ while sitting at computer. Tom (with T-Shirt with FBI emblazoned on it) the new ‘assistant’ for the computer expert came into the office.

SAT February 1 pm Obviously the FBI sent this guy in to see what I was doing on the computer. When he noticed that I noticed his FBI shirt, he gave me the ‘stink eye.’ Presumably for being such a difficult case. But, I’m a difficult case. I’m an innocent citizen who finds the rights of everyone I’m in contact with are being violated, I’m being used as a stool-pigeon and framed as a sucker-bait and physically tortured day and night for over six months by invisible ray guns. These people are despicabolids. Pigs. He can give me all the stink eye he wants with his fancy schmancy FBI T-shirt, but the problem is not me, it is the conspiracy of law enforcement agencies to set up a nationwide unconstitutional spy apparatus that violates the civil rights of all 300 million citizens.

8:02 pm Bedtime, exhausted. Looked in mirror. Bad thing, they made my right leg move sideways. Two to three inches humming in ears, peed opened side door turned up furnace.

SUN February 2 1:03 am They blasted my ears with increasingly loud reverbs which naturally caused me to move. Then they punished me for moving by increasing the reverbs illegible me even more. Then they twitched with my body parts by twitching the middle 2-3 toes on my left foot which now stuck out.

SUN January 2 1:13-1:29 am The whole idea was to trick my fists out from hiding under my skull. They succeeded in doing it and just tweaked my left fist thumb. They just gave me a full body jolt. Evil attacks continue the nights ordeal is half an hour into it. I am being terrorized & tortured.

1:31 am Now the humming in ears as punishment for writing. I wish I had never called the authorities and would recommend to anyone that they never call the authorities for any issue small, medium or large because you can never predict how things will spin out of control. The best thing is to never talk to anyone, never be a witness and never seek any help of any sort from any government agency at all whatsoever. Because they will hunt you down and destroy you. This is evil tyranny. All agencies are one big secret police, military connected web. You ARE NEXT. This is the worst of what the Soviet Union ever was. FBI & CIA = KGB. Freedom and civil rights are the enemy. You ARE NEXT.

1:38 am I guess this started forty minutes ago because my government allotted quota of rationed sleep had been met. Now is torture time. The Nazi medical experiment continues, I wish I could cut off my arms & legs so they couldn’t nail me.

SUN February 2 Oh, yeah. To cover their legal behind the spies provided inside information from their surveillance of me & family and my written notes to the congressional intelligence committee and the FISC court to their favorite private companies. Their "friends" are not investigated. _____, Services late Friday (when I was busy going from one _____ to another) left a computer copied voice message on our phone telling me to call immediately that day for temp administrative assignments at _____

6:37 am Full body jolt

7:00 am Buzzing both ears loud

7:20 am There are huge puffy black welts under my eyes. I look like a hideous raccoon. In a few short months I’ve aged fifteen years. I hate my face.

7:57 am Call the authorities = Dial a torturer. Sitting in car at _____ parking lot by my house and my ears are being buzzed. Buzzed = menacing threats delivered to the center of your brain by the U.S. Government. "We are going to hunt you down, wherever you go, assault you with seizures, torture you constantly and kill you and your ilk. We own your body and soul. So do." Message from the FBI, CIA, Military, Justice Department NSA and the rest of their gobelty-goop alphabet soup. "We hate freedom, civil rights and we hate you, you stink-fink, snitching rat. Die rat" That is the definition of Buzzed. Sucker-bait, stool Pigeon Garbage shit.

SUN February 2 1:46 pm Did chores around the house washing windows

1:47 pm Taking a nap. As soon as I got horizontal they started buzzing my ears loud. Oh my back, my favorite sleeping position

1:49 pm They’ve done a full body home in fix on me. Whole body vibrating.

1:56 pm They just ‘wacked’ me scrunching my lower lip. Airplane overhead. Body really humming.

2:11 pm Full body jolt awake

3:25 pm Sharp jolt

4:00 pm My watch alarm goes off.

4:10 pm They give me a light, sharp hit as I drift off again.

9:05 pm Bedtime & they’re already homing in on me with far away (fifty feet?) reverb sound. Unusual, low frequency but surprising volume. Yet far away. 9:32 Laying on my stomach they hit me medium with full body blast. Sharp once.

[bad handwriting]

9:44 pm They hit me even louder sharp full body blast jolt centering on left shoulder rather than solar plexus. Bad news.

SUN January 2 10:15 pm Burning, itching pinpoint prick causes lower left leg to jolt quite a lot.

MON January 1:05 am Decide to sleep on my left side because my back hurts. They tweek my left shoulder then at

1:15 am They hit my left shoulder which causes my whole body to move because I’m on left side.

1:31 am They twitch my right thumb embedded in my fist which both are directly under my head and immediately thereafter twitch my right toe on my legs no longer in fetal position which aches but stick leg straight out.

1:32 am They twitch my right toe again.

1:35 am The far away low pitch loud volume hum began a few minutes ago.

The thought crosses my mind. There’s been a subtle distinction between nights lately. I think two different people are working me over. One a mean old hand and this one new with trepidation; cautious and nice, with more sleep and fewer attacks. This is a practice run here.

MON February 3 5:25 am Noticed this new low pitched sound continues when the heater fan is blowing. Also, it just now switched from a solid hum to a tap tap tap very sharp ‘rhythm’ which feels like it is ‘hitting’ my already tender eardrums. Hear airplane overhead faintly.

5:40 am Noticed it still stopped when the furnace kicked on, they have it blasting even louder now. Furthermore, they just twitched my right thumb (I’m sleeping on my side) and left toes. This means they’ve "set up my body" for a sharp jolting blast attack. They are going to GET ME. So I have no choice. I can lay here and doze hoping I’ll fall asleep again only to endure attack after ATTACK after ATTACK. Or I can getup and move around to dodge the ATTACKS and be SLEEP DEPRIVED and barely able to function. So I sit up and prop myself around with pillows. Which at this point sleep is an obvious impossibility. The noise stops. Why am I not surprised? They got what they wanted. They win. I loose. All this for calling the authorities to report a possible crime.

What are these people thinking? Why are they doing this? This is pure torture. This is a lean, mean, clean, assassination machine. No evidence, no body to dispose of. Pure & Simple. Or simply torture people or just drive them crazy and discredit them, rendering them ineffective.

MON February 3 11:45 am So exhausted I crashed for forty-five minutes in my sleeping spot. They only tinkered with me two times.

12:30 pm Alarm goes off

5 pm Returning home south on I-5 by Mountlake Terrace and a helicopter buzzes me (as usual) on the freeway. I can tell they’re looking directly at me. I give them a two fisted-one-finger salutes. They pull their helicopter over to give me a closer look. Creeps.

6:10 pm At _____ getting _____ they retaliate by buzzing my ears so super hard I get out of the car and go across the street to escape the pain. Lo and behold two airplanes one passenger one helicopter come [illustration] cruising around and toward me. I give the first a distinctive 1-finger salute and a scowl.

8:35 pm apx They send a jet screaming directly over the house from the east toward west. Guess they did not care for my pointed references tonight to pain and torture. That is what they are doing to me. Stalking, menacing, attacking causing pain, torture and constant misery of sleep deprivation. If it isn’t what it is then why the secrecy? Why hide and disguise it behind invisible ray guns? Why not be upfront and out in the open with it? Because: 1) it’s illegal, 2) it’s cruel & unusual, 3) it’s torture.

MON February 3 8:53 pm Bedtime.

10-10:30 pm The last 1 ½ hour has been one of pure misery. I lay there possum like only because of sheer exhaustion, otherwise I would have been writing notes the entire time. First thing they did, I guess this is their sick sense of humor, was make my labia most uncomfortable so they could watch on their monitor of every body part in three-dimension me grab my privates. I refused. The rest of the time was every five to ten minutes this body part and that body part being tinkered with and attacked.

10:30 pm By this point in time I finally moved my head to the other side and raised my arm to adjust the pillows and sheets. For this I’ve been doubly punished. They’ve started slowly revving up the buzzing in my ears to the point where it is now a blasting rhythm. I’m wide awake and writing. They also increased the tempo of the assorted list on my body parts. Too numerous to count. This is so totally inhumane. This is what one would do to an animal in a science lab. Many people protest this treatment of mere animals. This is a profoundly dishonorable aspect of the U.S. Government’s Military. It brings shame to our nation.

MON February 3 11:01 pm My husband just entered the living room completely oblivious to what I am going through. He and my son do not believe me because they are not being targeted. They are also particularly dense guys. Common to the species. Most, if not all, of the torturers likely are guys.

11:03 pm The furnace kicked on, I opened the side door a bit. My husband is so oblivious he likely will not notice.

TUE February 4 1:37 am They continued this torture for perhaps another hour to midnight.

Woke and looked at clock. Made notes I’m fairly certain it was three hours of pestering until they stopped. It absolutely was nine to eleven, but, it continued for quite a bit after that. What will happen next I don’t know. Tomorrow is a big day of housecleaning and I was too tired/busy to return call to _____ temps yesterday. My morale is slipping again. I should have called. It will be used against me.

2:06 am What did they do to me to wake me up so much that after three hours of body hits and attacks I can’t fall back to sleep? It must have been one of those inexplicable quick fries that hyper-stimulate my nervous system.

TUE February 4 2:10 am They’re watching me toss and turn. As soon as I fall asleep, they’ll count twenty minutes, then attack me awake. Again. As usual.

2:27 am I don’t know why I can’t fall asleep. I’ve layered here wide, I mean WIDE awake for a whole hour. They’ve totally trashed my nervous system and body rhythms for the last five minutes they’ve put a huge homing fix on me. All my body has a tingling buzz to it, from the inside out especially solar plexus. It’s like my cells are being cooked from the inside out.

2:58 am I feel a different kind of warm still wide awake, went to pee drink water. This will be the death of me. I can’t live like this. They are killing me. I did absolutely nothing illegal. I am totally innocent. I only called the authorities. This is my punishment for being a tattle-tale. I wished I had never guessed what was going on I WISH I WAS .

TUE February 4 am I WANT TO SLEEP NORMAL EVERY NIGHT LIKE I ALWAYS DID 9-10 HOURS EVERY NIGHT-NO INTERRUPTIONS,

I WANT

TO DIE!

KILL ME.

3:18 am They heard me close the side door which keeps the furnace going & have started the low-pitched hum in my ears again. I’ll open the doors again. I’m not going to last much longer, this I know for sure. I can’t take it anymore.

3:25 am Loud in ears airplane overhead.

3:35 am They’re buzzing me when the fan is going and the furnace off. The only time it stops is for the one quarter of the time when the motor fires and burns fuel. The rest of the time three quarters they attack me.

TUE February 4 3:35 am My back hurts so much so I moved to my left side. Spelt on left side. ATTACKS BEGIN Furnace full blast

Left thumb

Solar plexus

Eyebrows

Full body faint jolt

Full body faint jolt

3:59 am Left leg sharp all skin tingle/jolt. What will I do? They can see me write this on their 3-D monitor. Bugs all over house, cameras planted in house.

Never call the authorities for anything. They will torture you & kill you. Especially if you are innocent. The law hates innocent people.

4:38 am They spasmed my left inner thigh. I closed front door, it’s so expensive.

4:54 am They spasmed my right shoulder

5:01 am They hit my right leg causing it to spasm. They hit my left inner thigh by my hips causing hip movement

TUE February 4 5:10 am The low-vibration ear noise begins again.

5:14 am THEY HIT MY RIGHT INNER THIGH, some real sicko pervert is on duty tonight.

5:21 am They hit my left inner thigh sharp Left thumb

5:30 am Whole left leg hit with spasm

5:33 am Right shoulder smacked hart

5:36 am They hit my right shoulder AGAIN

5:38 am They spasmed my entire right leg up

5:40 am Right inner thigh TWICE in quick succession hit.

[bad handwriting]

TUE February 4 5:48 am They grabbed my whole body by fixing a home in on it and lightly reverbering it all. Then aimed a sharp point on the top front of my right thigh. One sharp point. Will turn over to right side – two more attacks. Right thumb twitched real hard to stop wake me five minutes early

6:43 am As I lay here ear reverberating begins.

7:55 am _____ with large silver spotlight on stakeout at 125^th & Roosevelt on our regular route.

8:03 am Spy plane overhead at 58^th & Roosevelt (this is so common & typical)(I usually don’t bother writing about it. These are the guys who blast my brains out every night so I can’t sleep.

8:30 am Buzzed my ears real hard at _____

TUE February 4 am Buzzed at both jobs and dive bombed by twp passes of airplane painful buzzing at _____ Helicopter overhead at Greenlake used cell sitting in front of heater at home. They saw me from cameras inside our house and sent airplanes over to get a GPS reading and but a total body sparkle all over tingle fix on me. Then kept this on me when I went to _____. Buzzed me VOTING at Parkwood school and again at home. Strong fix remains. I ate and laying down to sleep exhausted.

[bad handwriting]

6:33 am Sleeping on left side

8:22 am Woken up when they zapped my left foot hanging out the GPS position. Front of furnace, foot & leg ‘danced’ around. I became instantly wide awake alert and unable to fall back asleep. Nervous system hyper stimulated. Brain seems clear, not fuzzy. This is not my change to be wide awake, clear headed and unable to fall asleep. No doubt they are fully aware of the effects on the human body. This is part of their deliberate pattern of TORTURE.

TUE February 4 9 pm Went to pick up husband. While driving both feet felt different. Back home straight to bed. I’m shot with full body blast and head twitches.

10:12 pm Got up to turn down furnace. Will try to sleep through some attacks as I’m so exhausted. Will not make specific time and specific type of attack notes.

Tuesday night they ‘let me sleep.’ I was a wreck from the brutal retaliatory attacks Monday night for "flipping-off" the helicopter on the freeway 5 pm South on I-5. Let’s see, when they torture me for over five months I am to compliantly and obediently submit without a complaint. Any defiant displays of "attitude" will be met with cruel, harsh punishment. When they stop I am to be grateful and remember the helicopters and airplanes and ground personnel are to b treated with utmost fear and the loathing is to be silent. I should fear them and cringe and cower before their terrible might. Any ‘attitude displays’ will be met with an escalation of punishment. The spies are boss, I am to remember this. They control my every behavior, every gesture, every bodily movement when sleeping or eliminating. They control my every thought and expression of every thought. I am to cheerfully acquiesce to every brutal attack on my person, remain silent before others, repeat and say exactly what they want and be loyal to them only. I remember what abuse is about, the spies own me. I do not exist. Ultimately they will break me. I remember how this works, It has been successfully don to me before. I am dead. Crashed. These are my last gasps of protest.

WED February 5 7:15 pm Left ring & Middle finger

Left hip & leg hard sleeping on that side

Lips (!) Two full body blasts, heard airplane Slept on back & side, left alone after body blasts.

9:00 pm ? Awoke spontaneously? Huh? Son calls to be picked up at school

11:12 pm Lay down to sleep again, plane flies over

Buzzed oh so lightly at _____ 1 plane only near end.

Shopped a bunch, saw plane fly by at a few shopping centers, not buzzed Weird headache 5:30-7 while shopping deep inside brain stem.

When in driveway buzzed lightly only not hard.

11:16 pm I feel the fix on me

11:36 pm Low volume/ pitch noise felt like a pressure on eardrums seems to come from 100 yards away. No buzzing. Airplane.

THU February 6 2:58 am They gave me a sharp full body blast attack that woke me but the sparkle lingers. This was followed by the ringing in ears which only stops humming when furnace kicks on. SLEEP DEPRIVATION TACTICS CONTINUE.

THU February 6 3:04 am This type of sharp hit of full body is the type of attack that hyper-stimulates the entire nervous system. My nerve endings all over my entire body are ‘AWAKE.’ It makes it particularly difficult to fall back asleep. Sometimes it takes a full two hours. This is coupled with the particularly aggravating ringing in ears. Two hours puts me at 5 o’clock. This is heinously despicable. They know full well what they are doing. I am totally pissed. This is not liberty, this is not freedom, this is not JUSTICE. This is TYRRANY. This is TORTURE. This is DESPICABLE. This is CRIMINAL. These are BAD GUYS. These are TORTURERS.

3:11 am I HAVE A MILD HEADACHE, THIS ALSO MAKES IT HARD TO FALL BACK TO SLEEP AGAIN. They gave me the headache when they blast attacked me awake.

3:16 am My eardrums hurt so bad I can "hear" my heartbeat and every heartbeat hurts. Today is my birthday, I am forty-eight years old.

THU February 4:41 am They hit my right hand to punish me for writing and wake me. They got my lips and earlier, don’t want me "talking" when I write people. They are trying to silence me. They would succeed in silencing me. If I had nothing to write about, i.e., left me alone.

6:20 am They hit me awake early. But today I had set my clock radio for 6:20 and I woke by it thirty seconds after they hit me and was able to pinpoint what was happening.

12:56 am Lay down for nap, so tired.

1:10 am Tweaked left thumb when airplane flew overhead.

2:15 am They literally slapped my face around, twisting my muzzle clockwise, then counterclockwise.

2:31 am A piercing burn on my genitals abruptly awoke me from a good doze. This, and last night which I didn’t mention because I was so flabbergasted, is the fourth time they have done this. If you include the time they buzzed my rectum while outside on the porch. This would be five times total of particularly degrading and humiliating violations of my personal body space. They want to force me to grab my privates so they can watch on three-dimentions on their screens. This causes me to wonder about all the other times they’ve pulled this stunt. Perhaps they’re planning to do this during a trial.

THU February 6 2:43 am They’ve made it very clear by ‘slapping my mouth’ and ‘pinching my lip’ and ‘twitching my lips’ that they disapprove of my ‘talking’ by writing notes and mailing them to a few choice attorneys. Did they ever stop and think that if they never abused and tortured me I would have absolutely nothing to write about??? !

Furthermore, I am so distrustful at this point as to be absolutely certain my writings & notes would be permanently confiscated, that my primary reason for distributing these notes is to ensure they are held in safekeeping in more than one location. I simply and fore mostly want to ensure these notes preserved. The secondary reason is because nobody believes me. Not my husband, not my son, not our family physician, not the emergency room physician, not the independently hired psychologist. To be so isolated and so alone is devastatingly depressing and a critical morale breaker. The only people who likely believe me are the civil rights folks. Perhaps they’ve heard rumors of this sort before or perhaps nothing surprises them anymore, they are so jaded. I am certain people across this nation and around the world have been, and currently are being, attacked in this invisible manner. I believe the reason it’s such a big ‘secret’ is because it is illegal. That they would ‘WASTE’ their technological prowess in this manner on someone like me proves to me their ever increasingly casual usage of their abilities based on an arrogant assumption that no one can stop them. They should have conserved and preserved its usage for rare occasions on truly dangerous criminals. Instead they’ve chosen to waste their sophisticated technological prowess on a pathetic fluff-job of a housewife who only called the authorities when she suspected something fishy was going on at work and only witnessed the most insignificant and innocuous of behaviors. Hello! Who are we kidding here? This torture is being used for what reason? If they were so worried about keeping it a secret it is only because they themselves did not want to be caught violating the Bill of Rights, Constitution and likely international treaties. They are using WAR WEAPONS on a CIVILIAN on U.S. SOIL.

When you see me laughing, talking and smiling with them. When you see and hear me denying I ever wrote these words. When you hear me denying this ever happened you will know they own me and bought my heart, soul and spirit based on fear of anguishing pain. They will have purchased my loyalty with physical punishment and the most intimate and degrading attacks upon my personhood. They will own me heart, body and soul and I will deny they ever tortured me. With a sweet, innocent smile. A thug on either side. I will be dead and t hey will own my every gesture and spoken word. I remember how this works.

THU February 6 2003 9:11 pm Bedtime, Right thumb twitch Spontaneously awoke. They must have done something. Anyway, my husband had wanted typing done on his resume at the last minute. He was not at home. So I called him. He’s at _____ and all’s well.

2:10 am I return to bed. They start buzzing my ears; they send one plane over then a second. They start buzzing my ears even harder. It is so irritating I become wide awake.

2:37 am They have not stopped, it’s been half an hour constant now, How long will this go on? For making a phone call I’m being punished.

3:45 am They started buzzing both ears hard when I rolled over in bed. How long will this continue?

4:10 am They hit my right inner thigh, sleeping on left. Buzzing ears continues

4:18 am They hit my left little finger

I’ve been awake two and a half hours in the middle of the night. Courtesy of the U.S. Government spy/military complex. POLICE STATE!

5:42 am They pierced my left knee cap with sharp burning pain. Left leg flails every which way from that tiny pinpoint of excruciating pain. This woke me to ringing in both ears. They woke me an hour before I’m supposed to wake up.

6:05 am Twitch left thumb sharply, its under my heavy head.

FRI February 7 6:23 am They woke. They woke me way before I was going to get up. They woke me half an hour ago at 5:42. I have seven grueling hours of work ahead of me. The end of the day I will be slow, miserable and dragging. When I get home there will be nothing left for me and I’ll likely crash only to get up the next morning for another four dreary hours of work. I only got four and a half hours uninterrupted sleep followed by two and a half hours of wide awake torment. Then one hour before being awoken then I more hour before being decisively tormented awake an hour early. This is exactly what it is an evil campaign of sleep deprivation, torture and humiliating electronic probes of my genitals and eliminatory organs. I have utter and absolutely no privacy. This is cruel and unusual punishment and degrading torture. The public should be aware of what happens when they call their local authorities. We now live in an authoritarian, repressive, tyrannical police state. This is like communism. This could happen to anybody. Likely its happening to others right now.

FRI February 7 6:34 am I am convinced they are doing experiments on me. There’s are medically controlled experiments. They are tracking my every coping and non-coping reaction and calibrating and monitoring their responses and using the information to plan future attacks on me. They must be doing these experiments on other people as well and keeping a database of the group results. All the better to plan & coordinate future torture sessions on others. Who’s next?

Oh yeah, last night my husband and I got in the car together around 6 pm to take him to the mechanics where his van was being fixed. Actually at ten to six a Shoreline school bus with no kids in it at the precise moment we stopped at the sign at the top of our hill at Interlake & 145^th the bus travelled west on 145^th and pulled in front of us.

10:30 am Buzzed at _____ Queen Anne_____

11:11 am Buzzed so hard I almost cried. Took my cell out of my _____ ran outside down the stairs and threw it into the trunk of my car. Airplane overhead in fog, could hear it.

2:30 pm – 5:30 pm Buzzed at Shoreline

6:45 pm Buzzed in my car in driveway at home. They put a fix on me while in my home in preparation of a night of torture.

FRI 8:20 pm down on the ‘bed’ in front of the heater to write these notes before going to sleep. They are literally ‘burning my ass’ by pointing a pinprick hot burning, itching spot on the left cheek of my bottom. They don’t like my writing notes. Ha ha.

FRI February 7 8:46 pm Three full body jolting wacks. The first one on the muzzle of my face. Finally I turned over and now they’re buzzing my ears faintly.

SAT February 8 2:00 am The very faint buzzing in my ears starts about now. Which is around five hours of sleep. It will prove to persist because I am so exhausted I tend to doze through it. Turn over and see it is 2:30. The pattern is to harass and disrupt me and annoy me into tossing and turning, with every movement of my body the volume increases. If I manage to lay still to some degree it stays the same. Which in itself is profoundly irritating. So the inevitable occurs. I move. I adjust. The volume increases.

3:39 am For the last hour it has been a solid wretched blast of noise. This is one and a half hours of noise right in the middle of my head pounding on my eardrums. The buzzing reverberating noise in and of itself makes my ears (and eardrums & inner workings) actually sore and tender and (perhaps?) swollen. Plainly put my ears hurt. It’s a vicious cycle. Two vicious cycles actually. The more noise the more my ears hurt. The more noise the more I move in discomfort. The more I move in discomfort the louder and louder it gets. The louder it gets the more my ears hurt. EVIL, HUH? Who designs this torture?

SAT February 8 am If they simply left me alone I would have nothing to write about. But they persist and persist. Everything I write is a true and accurate description of what I am experiencing and my emotions concerning these events. To be precisely accurate I would have to be writing constantly. Every minute of every day. This is literally a gang of criminal thugs conspiring to beat me up, stalk, harass, terrorize and torture me. There’s at least twenty people involved directly, It would not surprise me if there were 100 or more indirectly involved. I am outnumbered. Obviously I cannot document every incident and every nuance of every turn of events. Suffice it to say any trust or respect I had in the leaders of this country’s law enforcement has greatly diminished. They sit at their shiney mahogany tables singing off on paperwork that approves of this campaign of terror and torture against someone their own reports certainly indicate my entire and thorough innocence. They just want a guinea pig to experiment on. Sucker bait, stool pigeon to practice their mock military war games on. I would highly recommend to every citizen that they never report any type of anything to any law enforcement agency of any kind because of the possibility no matter how minimal of this happening to them. Is it a minimal risk? Perhaps. Would you risk it?

SAT February 8 3:56 am The higher ups in government right now pretend to be hunting for ‘terrorists’ to protect the vulnerable public. What they are really doing is trolling for excuses to violate every essential and basic constitutional right of ENTIRE COMMUNITIES. Every so called ‘link to terrorism’ they can contrive to create. On the most bald-faced, flimsy, pathetic (lie-essentially,) contrived excuse is ‘mined’ as a source of ‘widening the scope of the investigation.’ Do the math. Over time, and a short period of time it is, everyone becomes in some way connected to everyone else.

4:00 am The noise stopped. Because I’m writing? Or because it’s been hours There was a study by some scientist called "7 Degrees of Separation" or something like it. It purported to show we are all linked to each other by a mere seven steps. Well, a few years later it was proved to be wrong. I think the article was in the Atlantic Monthly, I think it turned out the theory itself was essentially correct except there were more steps. I’m guessing here. Fifteen to eighteen steps. No doubt the law enforcement theorists are aware of this. Label enough people with the smear campaign of associate of terrorists and you can investigate the whole population in the entire country. We are all suspects. Coming soon to your suburban, bedroom community, the military.

SAT February 8 So the Pentagon’s snoop campaign of I forgot the name here, Poindexter heads it, was shot down by congress? No problem. Now I read ‘VOLUNTEERS’ are being looked for in the hunt for a cure to smallpox. Sort of a reverse version of music file swapping. Millions of people across the nation are being asked to provide the government, on a voluntary basis, with access to their computers unused processing capability when not in use. You can guess where this could go. What will they dream up next?

As I lay here, having been tortured wide awake in the middle of the night I wonder about lists. The McCarthy years, Blackballed, Black listed. I think of every time I’ve passed over the I-5 bridge over Lake Union only to see a float plane perfectly timed to cross my path up ahead. They are perfecting the timing of their dive-bombing attack machines on me. When I get in and out of my car throughout the day. They’ve tracked my precise movements by not only my cell, but instant, on demand phone taps of the places I’ve been at. Then when I leave or enter the building a perfectly timed dive-bomb, pass over of plane, float or helicopter. This is being planned for every city in the nation, likely.

SAT February 8 With every city in the nation being monitored overhead by a battalion-like grid of various smaller-type aircraft equipped with these invisible ray-gun equipment. These killer machines. One’s mind drifts to the targets, The lists of names. How many people. Who’s next? The patients are running the insane asylum. We are all crazy with hysteria. Terrorist phobia? Panic, fear. The enemy is everywhere. We are the enemy. How did this begin? When will it end?

4:35-4:40 am Will try to sleep. As soon as I lay still to sleep the buzzing begins. The mechanisms of torture are ever present, lurking, awaiting their moment to attack. The machines are programmed to monitor my every move 24/7, and the instant forbidden activity such as sleep, is sensed, attack with relentless, accurate precision. I am a marked woman. Marked for torture and death by the killer machines. Who’s next?

Oh, yeah. They really don’t need phone taps or GPS cell locations to put you in their cross hairs. All they need is to see you from their telescopes and put the ‘fix’ on you. Then you are marked for elimination. Caught in the cross hairs of the mark of the beast. Ready aim fire. No evidence. No body to dispose of. Neat clean efficient.

SAT February 8 5:00 am They gave me two full body blasts as I fell asleep. I responded to neither one. Just passed out.

6-6:15 am Got about an hours sleep before they started tinkering with me again. Buzzing in ears a bit here a hit there.

6:35 am Then they stopped, and I slept another hour.

7:25 am My alarm goes off

7:30 am They hit the little finger on my left hand

7:35 am Buzzing in ears starts as I’m writing notes. Worked, buzzed at _____ They hurt my ears in parking lot, I threw phone in trunk. Buzzed _____ while standing next to a stranger.

4:58 pm Crashed, tired told my husband I’m taking a nap.

5:00 pm They start buzzing both ears loud. If this isn’t evil torture, then what is? If this isn’t a deliberate pattern of sleep deprivation, then what is? If this isn’t criminal conspiracy to destroy an ordinary innocent citizen, then what is?

5:05 pm _____ called to talk about a _____ and doing an _____ the spies set off a bunch of alarms and increased the revs & volume of buzzing and sent another airplane over.

5:12 pm I’ve counted three airplanes now. They’re jamming my ears as I lay here.

5:14 pm Too utterly exhausted to do anything but lay her and be miserable and suicidal. This is not protection of the public from ‘terrorists’ It is criminal tyranny.

SAT February 8 pm Look at what "calling the authorities" gets you.

1. Suckerbait
2. Stool pigeon
3. Stalking
4. Menacing
5. Involuntary servitude upon physical punishment as a churn to investigate anyone who contacts you
6. Torture
7. Torture until you pray to god they give you a mercy killing
8. Constant thoughts of escape through the only route. SUICIDE
9. Death

Welcome to the world of SNITCH

DIE SNITCH

I hate myself because they are killing my heart and soul.

I thought law enforcement was the ‘good guys.’

Now I know the face of EVIL.

Torture courtesy of the U.S. Military

FOR SNITCHES

I HATE ME

SAT February 8 5:22 pm I wish I could sleep.

5:35 pm They’re still blasting my ears. They spent five, ten, fifteen minutes on a pinpoint piercing burning itch point on the right shoulder where I lay on my left side and the top of my right arm was up in the center.

[Illustration]

This caused me to move. So the noise which they had stopped moments before began again.

6:05 pm Everything stopped for about ten, fifteen, twenty minutes. I want to guess 5:45/50 to 6:00/05. Then, inexplicably my entire body spasmed. Up again with starting the noise in my ears. I lay still for awhile.

6:20 pm or so I couldn’t help but adjust my posture/ position slightly. The volume increased.

6:38 pm I finally got up on my side to write this. Never slept. Lay here 1 hour 45 minutes. Never slept. The noise in my ears has stopped. I know what they want. They want me to kill myself. They hate me. They want me dead. This is how the government eliminates problems. They torture the individual relentlessly month after month until the person’s only escape is suicide. End of problem. A suicide. No evidence against the government no body to dispose of.

SAT February 8 6:49 pm They must have done this to a lot of people already. No one ever suspected. The experiments were successful. They must have done this a lot. Many, many, times already. The secret military program to drive people to suicide. Everybody thought they were ‘crazy’ with their description of their symptoms. Then they killed themselves. No one ever suspected it was a top-secret military medical experiment. Except the conspiracy of perpetuators who control the machines. A most diabolically effective weapon. More effective than killing them outright with ray gun weapons.

Who’s next? Who are they going to train their machines on next. How many are they doing now? How many people in every city across this nation and across the world are they doing this to now? For how many years have they been doing this? Wow.

10:30 pm Bedtime – two radios on different stations blasting they got a slight fix on me at the kitchen table, could see me pass briefly by one kitchen window from _____ neighbor

11:03 pm The dirtbag despicabolids. So called honorable enforcers of our laws, ill of Rights, Constitution. Blasted me with a sharp jolt Full body. I am now wide awake.

They put a fix on my body, watched it’s every move in a 3-D on a monitor, waited until I had gotten comfortable and was drifting off to sleep with even 2 radios blasting. THEN THEY USED THEIR MACHINES IN BUILDINGS AND AIRPLANES AND FRIED MY CENTRAL NERVOUS SYSTEM IN A DELIBERATE CAMPAIGN OF TORTURE OF A COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY INOCENT CITIZEN USING THE MILITARYS MOST SOPHISTICATED WAR WEAPONS ON US SOIL.

How long will I last?

11:11 pm Will try again to sleep

SUN February 9 12:01 am My husband returns from his party and turns off a radio. I have to get up just as I’m falling asleep and turn it back on and ask him to turn off the lights in the living room he turned on.

I am dying a thousand deaths.

The government wants me dead and

I truly do not know why.

SUN February 1:01 am They woke me at 1 am. I don’t know how or why, but they did.

1:45 am Had to go to the bathroom. I look bad. Real bad. In 6 short months they have robbed me of my natural beauty. This is the ugly face of a tortured woman.

They proceeded to pester me all night long every ten to twenty minutes. (Guess, did not look at clock: too beleaguered) tinkering with various body parts. A hit here, a jolt there.

7:00-7:10 am Twitch left thumb which was under my head hard. They had to do it hard in order to get it to move as it was jammed under there.

Piercing pinpoint burning itch on right knee/thigh, this faded to be followed by _____ Both lower legs covered with ‘sparkling & burning pins & needles on skin surface.’ This three-pronged, show-off, tour-de-force had been preceded half an hour earlier by a sharp hard full body jolt which woke me from a deep sleep. A deep sleep which was more like a passed-out coma lasting a mere half an hour because the whole night was one "waking-event" after another.

1:30-2:30 pm Took (crashed) a mid-afternoon nap. They, the despicabolid spies, only allowed me 1 hour before blasting me awake with a sharp full body jolt.

SUN February 9 9:48 pm They buzzed my ears when I went into the garage and upstairs bedrooms a few times, that’s all